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I have always been heavy and probably have only really been at a healthy-ish weight once or twice in my life. I've always viewed myself as a heavy girl and never had any other vision of myself. Now, I want so much more. I know that I can be more than "that big girl down the hall" (something a person at work said, yeah thanks!) and I'm more than letting my weight hold me back from being happy in life.

I never want to feel so horrible again in my life.

I'm tired of making excuses.
I am only stuck being the fat girl if I continue to see myself as such.

So I'm here, to live out loud, to lose weight, to be healthy and most importantly to stop letting my weight dictate who I am, who I love and what I do in my life.

Update 1/10/13:
I changed the background of my page to the image of Lord Ganesha. He is a Hindu god that is the God of knowledge, wisdom and wealth, Lord of success and destroyer of all obstacles. I have lots of obstacles I need to destroy! Starting with my never ending fear that I will never be able to keep this weight off!

Update 9/8/12:
I reset my ticker today to redirect my focus on the tasks at hand. I've been trying to let go of the past and I am taking this to also include some of my past achievements. It's time to up my game and get rid of the last 35 pounds!

Big Goals for the next few months:
Say sayonara to the 170's.
Complete my yoga teacher training.
Hit my goal weight of 145.
Change or add one new habit every three weeks for the next 36 weeks.
500 minutes of exercise/movement per week.
12000 steps per day.
Fit comfortably in the size 6 pants I own.
Do scorpion pose.
Be hotter at 36 than I was at 26.
And remember that I am worth it, me, little ol' me. Yes, I am worth it.

Member Since: 2/4/2010

Fitness Minutes: 35,296

My Goals:
My goal is to be more mindful in life. It seems too easy to slip into living complacently and forget how to really live.

I want to:
stop making excuses
start making good choices
improve my health
lose 50 + pounds
learn to forgive more
learn to love myself unconditionally

Update (4/9/12): Held steady last year - now it's time to kick it in gear! I am seeing a weight loss doctor and will be working with a dietitian to lose 53 pounds.

Update (9/29/10): I need to lose 66 pounds now and my goal is to do this by my 35th birthday if not sooner!

(9/8/12) update
The stats:
Height 5'5.5"
SW: 239
HW: 240+
CW: 179.6(9/8/12)
GW: 145
To go: 35

Next big goal: 165 (my drivers license weight!)
Healthy BMI: 149

My Program:
I am currently using Sparkpeople to plan for and track all of my meals.

I am a yoga addict and do yoga 4-5 times a week. I am trying to add more cardio to the mix though since while I'm getting stronger, I need to work on that cardio strength.

For cardio I spin, run, walk and do various videos.

Personal Information:
I am a stressed out teacher in a high risk urban school in Denver. I gained 40+ pounds because I stopped taking care of myself and just spent too much time worrying about work.

No more! No job is worth that.

So here I am - at the beginning again.

And this time, it's different.

Other Information:
"She had never known before how much the country meant to her. The chirping of the insects down in the long grass had been like the sweetest music. She had felt as if her heart were hiding down there, somewhere, with the quail and the plover and all the little wild things that crooned or buzzed in the sun. Under the long shaggy ridges, she felt the future stirring." - Willa Cather

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    Hello friend!!!

    Yeah…I'm not dead yet :P (Might be if the Broncos continue to play THIS badly…) The gym continues to elude me, but I haven't GAINED…just maintaining. Trying to build better habits overall...

    Been busy…added a new hat to my job descriptions which is complicating things a TON. Hoping to job share next year so I can actually DO the other jobs…

    How are things in the slightly colder Norther?
    2584 days ago
    Stopping by to say "Happy New Year"!
    Hope all is well. Look forward to seeing a blog and what you're up to!
    2606 days ago
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    Happy Thanksgiving! Wishing you and your loved ones a safe and wonderful day. *~ Paula *~

    "Thanksgiving Day is a jewel, to set in the hearts of honest men; but be careful that you do not take the day, and leave out the gratitude." (E.P. Powell)

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    2651 days ago
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    Happy Friday! Control is a tough issue for a lot of us. We can control some of what we do, but we can’t control everything! Keep pushing towards your goals. Even if you do not reach all of them, don’t give up! You can alter your goals or make new ones! Do your best to keep a positive and/or realistic attitude. You are AMAZING and WONDERFUL!

    “You cannot control what happens to you, but you can control your attitude toward what happens to you, and in that, you will be mastering change rather than allowing it to master you.” – Brian Tracy

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    2670 days ago
    Saw your update from several weeks ago. Sometimes the path isn't always straight ahead, you have to hit bottom before moving back up again. Take what you can and learn from it and keep moving forward. It's a journey...not an easy one, but if anyone can...YOU can!
    Hang in there!
    2675 days ago
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