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I am a 63 year old retired academic. I retired early to care for my mother. She passed away in February 2016 and I still miss her. My weight loss journey began when I went to college (1976) and gained 7 pounds by the time I graduated. I went from weighing 99 lbs to 107 and I was desparate to lose the weight and started the diet soda and ice cream diet. No weight loss there. I started working and gained another 5 pounds and began the hot dog and saur kraut diet. Yum! No weight loss there either. My whole life, I have have been on one diet or another until I hit a steady weight of 121. I continued to think I was obese at that weight. I use that term specifically, because I did think I was obese You may have noticed that I suffered from body dysmorphia. I never saw myself as anything but fat. I never looked in a full length mirror or bought clothes that fit. They were always 2 sizes too big. Then in 2001, I had a kidney transplant and started gaining 8-10 pounds a year. I dabbled at weight loss, but oddly, I did not see myself as anymore over weight than I did when I was 121 lbs...until I hit 208. Again, I did not see myself as overweight, but I understood that 208 was beyond the norm. I did my BMI and discovered I was truly obese. Was I shocked? Sort of, but not really. Being obese fit in with my body dysmorphia. I always saw myself as obese so this just confirmed it. About a year before my mom passed away, I realized that when she was gone, I would be a sad overweight recluse who watched too much t.v. I joined Spark with the idea of losing weight so that when she was gone, I might be sad and lonely but not overweight. I had joined a year earlier, but stress made me quit. I needed my unlimited doughnuts and cake to deal with my mother's illness. It was an on-again off-again relationship with Spark for the year after she died, but I made friends and they were so encouraging. The social part of Spark is what has kept me going. I don't feel as lonely as I thought I would and I have lost weight. That is my story....for now.

Member Since: 2/22/2016

Fitness Minutes: 13,760

My Goals:
My reasons why:
(1) To be done with having my life focus almost solely on weight loss
(2) To be ready for anything. So if someone calls and says let's go to Chicago this weekend, I don't have to worry about will I be fit enough to walk 5 miles around the city.
(3) Hopefully to be in less pain.

My Program:
Eat healthy and exercise.

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  • v CGEM61
    How are you? It's been so long since we have been in touch! I've got good things coming my way and happening right now! You would be happy for me!, I miss you my friend!

    23 days ago
    HELLO MY SPECIAL FRIEND!I miss you! How are you doing? Hugs Chris 💞
    30 days ago
    That darn beast! I hope the cookies were at least really good. (I find it so much worse when I didn't even enjoy the cookies). I know your neighbor had the best intentions, but these days I find it too presumptuous when people give food as a gift unless it is fruit. When we moved in several neighbors gave us baked goods. One made pecan bars. My daughter has a nut allergy. I could not even risk giving them away and having them in the house until then because she was so young she would just find it and eat it without understanding the risk. I had to wrap them in bags and throw them out right away. Others gave us treats and didn't share the ingredients, but it was day we had a contractor doing repairs so we gave them to the contractor! I wrote thank you notes and made it sound like we loved everything. Now when people give me junk food as a gift (unless it a family that is special to my kids) I do a generic thank you note and don't gush on about how delicious everything is because I don't want to reinforce it too much. We once got a fruit and cookies basket and I just wrote a thank you for the fruit part going into detail about how delicious it was and tacked on a ...and thanks for the treats.

    Have a wonderful weekend!
    50 days ago

    Comment edited on: 2/2/2019 10:15:37 AM
    I don't actually use recipes, I just make stuff up. It came out good, though there's a few things I would like to have added that would have required cleaning the snow and ice off my car and driving to the store.
    51 days ago
    People & connections matter most. People will remember the time you spent w/them more than the gifts you give them. Walter Meyer
    52 days ago
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