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Introduction Text Hi! My name is Melissa and I saw this website on a E! True Hollywood story and I thought I would give it a shot! I'm tired of having to have my face and the camera a specific angle in order to like the way I look. It's ridiculous and I just want to be comfortable in my own skin. Here's my story: I come from an overweight family. Growing up, I always thought I was not one of the skinny girls. I, however, fell in love with softball from the age of 6. I played until my sophmore year of college. Softball was the one thing in my life that I was REALLY good at. I stayed at a healthy weight while playing it. Looking back at pictures of myself in high school... I was incredibly fit. If only I was that fit now.... which is why I'm here. I went away to college my junior year. It was the first time I hadn't lived with my parents... I ate unhealthy foods and LOTS of them. There was a gym on campus, but I never really went... what I would do now if I could afford a gym membership! LOL! I also began dating my husband my first semester away at college and became very comfortable with just letting myself go. I've always been well endowed in the chest area... but when I gained a lot my junior year at college, my boobs got ENORMOUS! I had a breast reduction surgery in June of 2004. My surgeon removed 7.5 lbs from my chest... and that's probably the last time I lost weight. My BRS was one of the best choices I ever made. Unfortunately, when I gain weight, much of it goes straight to my breasts (I know some of you are thinking... lucky you! Ha! Not really! It's very irritating!). I'm a newlywed. My husband, Brad, and I were married July 7, 2007. (One of the popular 7-7-7 weddings... Our theme was Lucky in Love). It was the best day of my life. However... I think I have 2 wedding pictures up in our home because I don't like how big I look. How sad is it that I don't treasure the memories of my MOST special day because of a physical appearance? It's terrible... & embarassing. & depsite the fact that I'm a newlywed, my husband and I have been together since December 2001... living together for over 4 years... & it STILL bothers me how I look when we're behind closed doors! & He gets upset because I get emotional... LOL! He is a wonderul man that loves me just as I am... big, little, happy, sad, grumpy, mad. I'm very thankful to have found such a wonderful man. So here I am, April 2008 - morbidly obese. I was shocked when I found out my weight in December 07... & I've been eating much healthier since then. (Not entirely healthy, but improvement, nonethless.) I'm going to really make this attempt - using short term goals to reach my long term goals. ***************************************** Ok... So it's now APRIL 2009. I maintained my lost weight until the end of summer, and then when school started I had gotten back into a routine of running before school. However, between life, winter, and my husband losing his job, I turned back to my faithful friend food for comfort. I'd gained about 20 of the 40 lbs. I'd worked so hard to lose. Now, with my husband's encouragement, we are both eating healthier and getting exercise at least 3 times a week... if not more! Slow and steady!

Ultimately, my goal is to feel comfortable in my own skin again. In order to do this, I want to eat healthy and enjoy exercising. By working towards these goals, I aim to lose up to 80 lbs by July 2009, just in time for my second wedding anniversary:)

For starters, I'm an emotional eater. I'll eat when I'm happy, sad, bored, excited,... you name it. I'm still learning how to count calories and such... esp for fresh vegetable and fruit. I would like to consume between 1200 and 1500 calories a day, no more than 15 grams of fat per 3 meals. I began the Alli plan as a reinforcement to not over-eat fatty foods on April 12. I would like to excersize 3-5 times a week for 30 minutes at least. I plan to start out with little steps since I do get discoouraged very easily when I break a major sweat for a week or two and don't see or feel results. (That throws me back into the cycle of eating emotionally.)

I'm from rural, Upstate New York. My husband and I have been together for nearly 6 1/2 years, and married since July 7, 2007 (7-7-7). He has loved me through a weight gain of about 40 lbs... which breaks my heart. Sometimes I tell him that he deserves a skinnier wife as a joke... although it's not really funny. I felt much better about myself in the beginning of our relationship and through the years, I've become too comfortable and really let myself go. I have a degree in elementary education and I substitute in schools near my hometown. I love working with children, although at times they are brutally honest. (They will tell you if they think you fat... flat out!) Closing in on 30, my husband and I are considering having children in the next few years and I want to prepare my body for a pregnancy and make sure I'm healthy and that a baby could develop in a healthy body!

I'm long winded... can ya tell? HAHA www.myspace.com/crzecozmo Last name: M

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