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My name is Patricia.

I am blessed. I didn’t always feel that way.

I wish that I didn't appear ungrateful so much of the time because I am grateful. I cherish my life and I'm actively working on saying THANKS more often in thoughts and in deeds and by taking care of this wonderful body I was given, even if it is a little broken.

I am the sum of all my experiences. Abused child, graduated at 15, smart, smart-@ss, stubborn, sorority girl, over-indulged, driven, giving, selfish, workaholic, prima-donna, successful, bored, lonely (even with people all around me), angry, sensitive, unsatisfied (no matter what I accomplished or achieved), never enough, exhausted. No wonder the weight of it all wore me down.

Stuck in the past, or even the future – today was never enough.

And then it all changed … at 48 I found my way - at least the path I wanted to be on.

Diagnosed with cancer – facing an uncertain death – odds of 50/50. Oddly, the most meaningful period and many of the best moments of my life. Although I don't want to go there again, I wouldn't trade a minute of it.

Reunited with my faith. Not in the traditional way. We didn't meet in confession, or at church. We met me in my bed. He was there with me all of those nights when I couldn't sleep because the pain was so intense and I could barely sit up, much less sleep. He made me laugh. He spoke to me from where I was. I could actually hear him.

Friends may say I was hallucinating. Could be. Maybe. Nah. I don't think so. He talked me through the fear and illusions of death. He held me close.

I'm no longer afraid of death. I'm actively working on staying in the present, which is a a lot of work for me, but isn't that where life is lived?

I've relocated to Florida. I'm sort of retired (but will pick up a contract every now and then). The present is awesome. So, thank you God, thank you Universe, thank you to everyone and everything that taught me that lesson - because that simple lesson has made all the difference.

For sure, I want to live but I'm certain that I will be ok no matter what happens - God has our back.

If I live or die - it's all the same. One adventure vs another. Somewhere there is a plan and while I may see glimpses of the plan, I'm pretty clueless about the details. .

I did learn that God was always with me no matter where I was. I learned that He was not the judge I was led to believe He was. I learned that healing, really healing, takes place in an instant. My past was healed. The past is merely a part of my story. It's not about bad people and what they did to me. It's about what I learned in the process. A whole lot of good can come out of a bad situation. Skills can be learned, empathy and compassion to name a few.

The future is just a dream and quite honestly, my future has always been way better than I have dreamed. It's not that I don't believe in goals, but I don't ‘over goal’ my life anymore. I'm sure that lots of you will know what I mean. I just want to have a good time living this beautiful life.

The present is where we connect to the world and all the wonderful people in it. The present is the only place to be. If I choose to leave it for a moment or two, that's fine … remembering is good - just no long term vacationing in the past or future.

So here I am today. Obviously, I survived. I have a grateful heart. So many friends that I’ve met along the way have not made it. My heart aches for them because I know how hard it can be. I know the pain and suffering. I know the fear of loss. I hope you know that God was also with your loved one when they struggled. Just an FYI, when I got better, I no longer felt the presence of God all around me. I now pray and struggle just like before, with moments of grace. I consider that time I had special. GRACE. I cherish the memory.

So what the heck does this have to do with weight loss? Nothing. Because I’m obviously more than just a number on a scale.

I am here to continue learning how to be a better me. I continue to experiment with nutrition and exercise.

A few years ago I was diagnosed with another form of Lymphoma.

I'm a two-time cancer survivor and also a person who lives with cancer on a daily basis. So far, it's manageable and it's my intent to keep it that way! I'm trying to keep my immune system strong. I strive to stay as healthy as I can. Sometimes it's a challenge...chemo was extremely hard on my body and I feel a bit like I'm still putting Humpty Dumpty back together again. I am grateful - chemo saved my life...but I'm also thankful that research is continuing to make treatments easier.

I'm very much into integrative medicine but I am not into slamming western medicine. Western medicine saved my life … twice. I would be ungrateful if I spat on the people who have spent their lives trying to come up with ways to cure people like me.

It's funny but cancer hasn't been quite the curse that I thought it would be - I have purpose. I have hope. I have a much clearer sense of who I am and what I stand for. I am alive, I am more aware - I can't say I was before cancer.

I hope to never have to go through treatment again but if I do, my action plan consists of good nutrition and an in general good attitude about life.


I used to live in the world of SOMEDAY - someday, when I'm thin; someday, when I'm retired; someday, when I have the money...you get my point.

SOMEDAY has finally arrived. Today is where it all begins and where it all ends.

I’m ready to live my best life - in this moment - NOW.


Member Since: 4/27/2016

My Goals:
1). Meditate - calm down and enjoy the ride

2). Eat mostly homemade, unprocessed food - organic when possible.

3). Get some exercise every day.

4). STRETCH every day.

5). Practice mindfulness.

6). Have a grateful heart.

7). Give back.


My Program:


Keep exploring new ways to feel my best.

Keep moving...walking, biking, snorkeling, yoga, Tai Chi.



Personal Information:
9/2017 - Moved to move to Florida - closer to my beloved St John, VI ....let the snorkeling begin!



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  • v OKBACK2MEAGAIN
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    The flowers and blossoms are filling the air with the smells of Spring. This is the time to start preparing for the Summer. Are you ready to join a Challenge? The Biggest Loser Challenge is looking for members for it’s next Challenge starting the first week of June. The challenge consists of 11 Teams, that participate in 10 weeks of Nutritional and Fitness Challenges. These challenges can be modified to fit individual needs, allowing members of all abilities and dietary needs to participate.

    Here are some of the members comments written on a Survey Monkey poll:

    “It helps me stay focused on my goals. It also keeps things interesting and not boring.”

    “I find that the challenges make me be more cognizant of my food intake, better choices etc. The fitness ones encourage me to try new exercises and to keep doing exercises. I think there is a good possibility I wouldnt do as much if I didnt track it for challenges or tried to do better on challenges”

    “My leaders are all wonderful...they stay in touch with team members and do their best to keep us involved and feeling a part of the team.”

    “They motivate me to eat healthier and to be more active. “

    If you would like to be a member of this challenge you can copy and paste the the link below, or click on my username and leave me a message or click on the BLUE BIGGEST LOSER Icon on my page. Join the team and sign up for the next challenge on the Spring Waitlist thread.
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    ps_individual.asp?gid=25339

    Note when using the link above you may have to drop the // or even the //www.

    158 days ago
  • v MARINGAL
    As a decorator, I shop online constantly. I find wonderful furniture and accessories that are not available here. I also support Marin in so many ways as well. It is the grouchy and pushy customers that I can't tolerate. ;o)
    301 days ago
  • v BUTTONPOPPER1
    Patricia! How are you? It was great to see your messages. Thank you so much for your comments on my blog and photo.

    I hope you've been doing well and enjoying life in Florida!
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    344 days ago
  • v MZZCHIEF
    Hi Patricia!
    So I looked thru my Sparkfriends yesterday and found your old name I think, but the account had been deleted. I think you may have been MY_BEST_LIFE ???

    Are you the one who used to post incredible Nature Photos and Sunsets? BC I didn't see any on your page here.

    Thanks for the very nice things you said about me on my Sparkpage.
    Made my day!
    Have a good one.
    : )
    Mzzchief
    495 days ago
  • v MZZCHIEF
    hi Patricia!
    Yes, I'm back on Spark for a while, not sure how long I will stay but making an effort once again. I went thru a trying time, needed more time for me...dealing with what was happening in my body. I didn't feel like it was appropriate for me to be giving advice when what I was doing wasn't working for me anymore.

    I wish I knew your old screen name... I am so bad with names its sad!
    Actually thats why I chose the moniker Mzzchief, bc I felt it would be easy for people to remember.

    In anycase, glad you are motivated, alive and well, I read your Sparkpage info and it sounds like you've been thru a lot...

    : )
    Mzzchief
    497 days ago
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