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The goal dress, which will be paired with killer heels and a sexy smile


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The first thing you should know about me is that I'm A DONE GIRL!!!! That means I don't have to wonder if I can do this- I know I can even if I have to re-start 1000 times!! As Dave Ramsey said, "It's not over until you quit," and I will not quit!

There are so many things I am DONE with like...
I am done being the fat girl & the fat friend.
I am done secretly referring to myself as "Big Momma" because I tower over and around all my friends.
I am done being the girl who is scared of any physical exertion in front of other people.
I am done sitting on the sidelines
I am done with beating myself up.
I am done putting my happiness in other people's hands.
I am done opting out because I am scared to fail.
And as of August, 2010 I am DONE (so very, very DONE) with comparing myself to others!

I am striving to be a new woman! A woman who jumps in and takes risks, one who believes in herself and has the confidence to take charge, one who remembers that I am the only person in charge of my happiness!

I remind myself daily (sometimes hourly) that I can re-start at any moment, even if it is 12 times each day as long as I don't quit! I WILL NOT QUIT!!

My Mantras:
(1) "There comes a time when you have to stand up and shout: This is me! I look the way I look, think the way I think, feel the way I feel, love the way I love! I am a whole complex package. Take me... or leave me. Accept me - or walk away!"

(2) Let the past stay in the past

(3) I can only be me. This is MY life and this is MY journey - the dips and the turns are what make me unique.

I recently realized that I have to work hard towards my goals and that means I have to DO THE DAILY WORK! I have to make the choice everyday and every meal to be committed.

I want everyday to be as great as possible. I am going to laugh more and dance more and I know that I will reach my goals.

It helps to keep in mind the things that make me smile:
1. Book clubs
2. Meditating in my old blue sweatshirt in the early morning, especially on an empty beach
3. Old school Bob Marley & Sam Cooke
4. Playing tennis & swimming
5. Happy music (I have a "Get up & go" morning mix)
6. Random trivia played with my sisters


Member Since: 7/10/2008

Fitness Minutes: 10,813

My Goals:
My main goal is to get to a place where I am comfortable with my weight and I am healthy. That means I want my BMI below 24 and my waist smaller than 35 inches. My big goal is to be HOT BY 30!! More than anything though, I want to be happy and enjoy this journey - it's not always about the end result.


My Program:
Well, I try to be realistic with my program. I really believe the key to my success will be to continue to make small changes. Of course, I am not perfect but I realized that this is a daily choice. Each day I have to choose to stay committed and when I don't make the right choice I try to forget about whatever happened in the past and move forward.

I started with the original spark program meaning counting calories and exercising. After I lost the first 30-40lbs I lost momentum. Now, 2 years later, I am re-starting the program by making small changes. I count my calories and try to stay around 1500 per day (with one free meal on Sundays) and I exercise a few times a week. I change what I do for exercise every month to keep things interesting.



Personal Information:
I am a young woman and I have been overweight my ENTIRE life. I have unsuccessfully tried every diet. I have never managed to make it even half way to my final goal.

I am here to finally take charge of my life and make the lifestyle change that will lead to a healthier me. Even though I want to be slim, I am more concerned about my health because 3 of my grandparents died from heart disease or diabetes and both of my parents have related conditions. It stops with me!

Some other stuff:
I struggle with depression but I consider myself a winner if I can make it through the day accomplishing even one small goal.

I live in the south east with my family but I am single with no kids and I like being completely unattached right now! I like living only for me and trying to figure myself out.

In addition to the health benefits I just want to take my life back and live it to the fullest (I know, cliche) while I still can!


Other Information:
I love quotes. There is something about hearing someone say something that just cuts right to your core. It's like that Roberta Flack song remade by the Fugees "Killing me softly." When I find one that touches me I start using it as a mantra.

This one I really like - "Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could. Some blunders and absurdities have crept in. Forget them as soon as you can."




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  • v LANILAURA
    Hello Michele-
    I am glad you joined SP. It is a great place, everyone is so supportive! I am pretty new to the site as well, but am loving it. I think it is great your approach, small steps. One day at a time, one meal at a time! LIke my husband always tells me, it's a marathon we are running here, not a sprint. Feel free to drop me a line anytime!
    4455 days ago
  • v MOMIN09
    Welcome to Sparkpeople and 1 Day Challenge. I am here if you ever need anything.
    Good luck with your goals!

    Nicole
    4455 days ago
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