SIRA5106
7,000-8,499 SparkPoints 7,434
SparkPoints
 

SIRA5106's Photo Gallery

(Click on a thumbnail below to enlarge)
See this image larger(1 comments)See this image largerStarting fresh with a new doSee this image largerSee this image largerSee this image largerThis will not be me any longer. Day by day I will slowly change. Just watch me. Week 1 workout 2 of BBG.(3 comments)See this image largerA journey of 1000 miles begins with one step. Weight loss doesn't happen in instant. It's happens with consistent, deliberate choices. It's also not about the weight. I boxed up my scale today and buried it in the garage. I'm not going to weigh myself at all the rest of 2017. I refused to be derailed by skinny days ruined because the scale says 1 or "reward" myself when it says -1. I refuse to allow myself to be tortured by it anymore.See this image largerThe easiest mantra to say to yourself to develop a growth mindset. Progress is never direct, there's steps back and life that gets in the way. What's important is that the overall direction is going the right way. I purposely decided to start this change the week I have custody of my son with a work party on the weekend and a vacation only 2 weeks away. If I could fit all the workouts in and maintain my calorie goals during this time, then I'm out of excuses.See this image largerThis is all you need. The decision to just commit. Don't worry about what plan, what workout, what to eat, how many calories, counting macros or not. NONE of that matters! All you're doing is stressing yourself out. Let's be honest, if you're carrying extra weight, you weren't watching your portions or choosing healthier options, you weren't putting in work everyday to move your body. That's all it takes to get results! Eat less and move more. Doesn't matter what. Doesn't matter how. Now go!See this image largerIsn't that the truth. Some days are better than others. They all won't be easy. It's these moments that you grow! You dig deep and connect with your true self to follow your plan to make your dream reality. One thing I've been saying that helps when I want to eat ALL the things is that I can have that tomorrow, just pick one for now. The perfect way to combat impulse eating, sleep on it. Decide in the morning.See this image largerOne day at time. Getting the hang of the BBG workouts. The 2nd half flies by. Even though my legs are on fire and heart is pounding so hard, realizing that it's the last time I have to do that exercise pumps me up! Before I know it I'm done. #bbgweek2 #bbgmoms #nogym #noexcusesSee this image largerSomething on my mind lately... Y'ALL! Eat normal food!! I keep seeing pictures of people posting "diet" foods, rice cakes, protein shakes substituted for lunch, dinners with a plateful of veggies only. Good for you if that's what you actually love to eat, but everyone else, EAT FOOD YOU ENJOY!! You got fat eating too much food, just eat less of it and you will lose weight. If you have 30, 50, 80, 150 pounds to lose, it's not going to come off in month. You need a plan that is sustainable!(4 comments)See this image largerY'all look at that Saturday night! Wooh! Work holiday party and we ate like kings! Do I care about the calories? Not one damn bit. Did it wipe out a week of progress? Maybe but who really knows. It's a once a year party! It won't ruin a month or a year of progress. I enjoyed the night and got right back at it. Week 3 of BBG starts today! Ready to rock it before I leave for vacation on Thursday!(1 comments)See this image largerRight back at it today after a great weekend. My calorie goal is just a ball park. I eat when I'm hungry. My body"s daily needs are 2,350-2,600 calories, depending on which formula you use. I thought 1600 calories/day seemed doable without feeling restrictive while enough to create a deficit. So my plan is to eat less than 11,200 calories a week. If I'm hungry one day and eat 1800 calories, usually the next day I'm not as hungry and it balances out. I thought I'd try this out to see how it goes See this image largerHow to have a life, go on a guilt-free vacation and still lose 1-2 lbs.. I can't wait for Phoenix!! 80/20 rule. 80% good, 20% splurge. #bbgwk3See this image largerBack from vacation. Not sure what possessed me to step on the scale this morning. It was a terrible idea! I was sad all day, feeling despair, all sorts of doom and gloom. Ate comfort food for lunch, skipped my walk over lunch. Was pretty much an emotional mess. Well I stepped on the scale just now before bed and it was 1 lb lighter than this morning! Wasted a great day feeling sorry for myself over nothing. Bye bye scale! Bring on week 4. #bbgwk4 #readyfordeathbykayla(1 comments)See this image largerOh man. I am fighting for it this week. Keeping going with week 4 has been HARD! I put legs off for 3 days and arms off for 1. But I got back at it. My food has been not great this week so far. I'm slowly reeling it in. This is life. Some days are worse than others but I'm not losing sight of my goal. I will get there! One day at a time.See this image largerEnd of Week 4 pre-training. Start of official BBG week 1. Found out over the weekend I was only on pre-training workouts for BBG. Bring on the real thing. Food has been a struggle this week. I made my sister take my scale to her house because it's been torturing me. Now my only way to judge is real work, staying under calories and photos. I'm not giving up. 2017 is my year. Watch me shrink.(3 comments)See this image largerI have no idea if there's any change. To be honest, I feel huge! I did not want to take photos but it's been two weeks. The last two weeks were sooo far from perfect. I ate pizza ALL day yesterday and had starburst for breakfast. I had to dig deep today to keep on going. I was dreading legs tonight but as soon as it started, the fighter in me came out and I did it with focus. The first time I tried this exact workout 4 weeks ago, I was at complete muscle failure in 5 minutes. First sign of progr(8 comments)See this image largerDamn right! Push that doubt aside and shock yourself with what you can do! My manta for 2017 is "she believed she could, so she did." For some reason, I almost start crying every single time I say it. It's just so powerful to me because I truly BELIEVE I can!See this image largerWk 1 vs Wk 6. Same weight. February has not been great. Work has been nuts plus a lot of traveling but I actually see progress. My butt has lifted a lot which probably explains why my clothes fit just as tight but I see a shape again forming in my back, not as stretched out. I am going hit March with intensity. Looking forward to the results!(7 comments)See this image largerSeriously. 😕 I know frustration is part of the process. I feel like I'm trying but after 2 months of effort, my entire closet is now too tight to be work acceptable. My pants were so tight this morning that I had to wear one of the two pairs of jeans remaining that fit to work. And jeans aren't allowed. My entire closet I had to buy in October because my existing one was too tight. I don't want to go through that process again but I'm feeling like the more I try, the heavier I get.(6 comments)See this image largerThank you to everyone who helped me through my Monday meltdown. I appreciate it. Today I've been thinking about this question. It sounds like a pessimistic thought but really it's about building yourself up. Realizing what you have to offer and why you're worth fighting for your dreams. So why are you worth the effort?(1 comments)See this image largerSee this image largerMonday after my meltdown, I turned the week around by meal prepping lunch for the week. Took 30 minutes to make 3 meals and set me up for a good week. Pushing for those week 8 progress photos.See this image largerLatest progress pics.. (1 comments)See this image largerHmmm... Panera half salads. I love you! ❤️😃 Trying out the Cashew Citrus Chicken one today.. it's fantastic! Cus I can't eat pizza every time I forget my lunch.(1 comments)See this image largerLatest round of progress photos.. my clothes are finally fitting a bit looser.See this image largerWoohoo for progress!(3 comments)See this image largerYayyyy!!(4 comments)See this image largerAll stocked up for my diet. It promises you'll lose up to 10 lbs in 2 days! #thefludiet(3 comments)See this image largerWhat a wonderful perspective! Now that I'm back to healthy, it's time to get back at it! March wasn't exactly the intense month that I wish for but I believe I made a little more progress. April is gonna be good! Last month before I turn 29! My goal is to get to goal before age 30. Slow and steady builds lifelong habits.See this image largerMy love broke off our relationship last night. We have been doing 2 hr long distance and he just can't deal with moving to my city. It seemed fun and exciting at first but as it got more real, he got too scared. He's never left his hometown so I understand but we were so good and I loved him with all my heart. Be thinking of me because this next part of my life is going to be very hard. He was my everything. 😭(10 comments)See this image largerTalking to him is off limits. Being able to just be sad with him is not allowed. My heart aches for our love and my best friend. I understand he would be unable to move without holding resentment for me which would kill us slowly but I absolutely hate not having him in my life. How is it that two people can be so perfect for each other and so in love but still not going to be able to work? How cruel this is.(6 comments)See this image largerWoke up with peace and love in my heart this morning. I see it all clear now with no regrets. I will be forever grateful for his presence in my life. 💕See this image largerWoohoo!! Weighed on my parents scale. I don't have one at my house. My clothes are definitely looser so I thought why not check in with where I'm at. It's something! I've only averaged 2 workouts a week and 3 out of the last 7 weeks where I tracked calories. My weight and health are my only focus for 2017. Size 4 I'm coming for you!(2 comments)See this image largerLatest round of progress pics! I can't believe this difference is only ~10 pounds! Wow! I can't wait to see what the next 10 will look like. Starting BBG over again at week 1 next week. I am ready!(9 comments)See this image largerOld Dominion "Song for another time" has been my break up song without a doubt. Trying to hold onto the love and happy memories when you know your time together has come to an end. Wishing for one more night to go out with a bang before reality sets in the next morning. It's been the little things lately that make my heart pause but I'm getting by ok.(1 comments)See this image largerFinally got my bad haircut fixed! A good cut definitely does wonders for feeling pretty!(4 comments)See this image largerY'all! Just got back after my weekend getaway to Chicago. Tried a new workout at my friend's studio. Lagree Method Pilates. I am in love! It was so cool! Problem is there's nothing like that offered here.. Boutique fitness studios haven't hit Iowa yet. I've been looking for a new passion because I have to re-write my future now post breakup and I decided I want to get certified as a personal trainer and open a fitness studio a la Chicago style in a year or two. (2 comments)See this image largerPeople make decisions based on two drivers: fear and pleasure. I am driven by pleasure more than fear. I can put myself in the future situation and feel the joy. That motivates me to push through anything in my way, no matter how hard. So are you running away from the worst outcomes or fearlessly chasing your dreams?See this image largerThrowback to homecoming my senior year. I thought I was SO fat! I had zero confidence and thought I was unworthy of anyone's attention. No one asked me to dances. I never had a date. Always my best friends third wheel. I look back on these photos and wonder why I had such a hard time believing I was pretty, desired, and worthy. Boys were not nice to me. I was never anyone's first choice. I still struggle with it.(9 comments)See this image largerI'm a minimalist and hate spending money on superfluous things, especially technology that becomes obsolete so fast but I'm allowing myself to splurge on me for a little while. I need the short highs. It's been a super rough week with the break up process, so I bought myself an Apple Watch for my birthday. (They're on sale at Target for $199!) It is definitely motivating and pretty cool how it integrates messages and calendars.(1 comments)See this image largerI need to repeat this to myself often. My ex is in a rebound relationship with one of his former ex's already, under a month. She may just be a super available rebound or he may have broken up with me to date her. I don't know. It makes me question everything. I couldn't cut ties on Facebook. Too hard to let go. I wish I never saw it. I've backtracked so much. He unfriended me after the picture was posted. I'm sure he didn't want me to see it. As badly as I want someone new, I just can't. 😢See this image largerLatest progress pictures. This month has been up and down. I put a lot of my focus into working out. I joined a Pilates/hot yoga studio 1.5 wks ago and have gone 6 times so far. At the same time I would go through days where I had no appetite, nauseous and sick from depression and anxiety spells. I know not eating is not healthy but I'm doing what I can. The last 6 weeks have honestly been about just putting one foot in front of the other even though I have no idea where I'm going.(3 comments)See this image largerBefore picture to now. 5 months. I'm not intensely dieting or counting calories, not watching what I eat or working out for hours a day. I just pack lunch, don't snack, and have averaged 1.5 workouts a week since January. I'm wanting to up the intensity now though. I want to get to pre-pregnancy clothes by Gavin's 5th birthday. Yes, I said 5th.. 🙄(4 comments)See this image largerGetting at it! It's almost June and I'm only 10ish pounds down. I know I can focus much more than I have been. Giving it 100%!(5 comments)See this image largerThe importance of goals. I made mine for the week, for 3 months, 6 months, 1 year, 2 years, and 3 years for how to become a personal trainer and studio owner. My goal is SO far out of my range of skills but I do have unwavering faith that I'll find a way to make it happen. 💕💪🙌 Get at it this week! Full article here: https://www.tonyrobbins.com/mind-meaning/h
ow-to-get-what-you-want/
See this image largerIt's green so it has to be good for me! 😝 I broke down and bought a Ninja blender. I hate vegetables. I realized the last time I ate a veggie that wasn't lettuce was probably last year if I'm being honest. So I'm making a genuine effort to eat more veggies. I crave smoothies in the summer so this is where I'm gonna start. I can't outwork a bad diet. I know this but I somehow thought because I'm so much bigger now than my marathon days that weight would just fall off because I'm moving more.(2 comments)See this image largerSo my goals for the week of the 22nd. 1. 6 classes at the gym - I made it to 3. I forgot we went out of town Friday - Monday. 2. Close my rings 5/7 days - technically none, but I upped my red ring to 600 active calories a day from 400 before and hit 400 5/7 days. 3. Pack 4 lunches - huge fail here. We had two lunch meetings and no work on Friday. I have only averaged 1 workout a week before. This week will be better.(1 comments)See this image largerLet's do this. Shoot for the moon 🌙. If you fail, you'll still be among the stars ✨! I finally faced up to the reality that my effort for the first half of this year has been lackluster. It's on my mind but I'm really lacking in execution. Unfortunately my "pay off debt" goals weren't really getting anywhere either. I blamed my lack of progress on trying to do 2 things at once. Reality was I just lost focus and stopped doing the little things every day.(1 comments)See this image largerI'm crying uncontrollably again for the 2nd night in a row. It's been 2 heartbreaking days for me but not in the sense that I'm grieving him, I'm grieving the loss of love for myself. I have spent well over $1500 on stuff I would never buy. Doing things I would never do. Chasing material happiness. I feel like the morning after when you realize even tho it temporarily numb the pain, it hurts even more now. So now what do I do?(7 comments)See this image largerLast week's goals: 1. 6 classes at the studio - I made it to 4, up 1 from the previous week. 2. Close my rings 5/7 days - Watch died or I forgot it 3 days of the days of the week but I would have closed 4/7. Doubled from last week. 💪 3. Under calories 3/4 days - didn't track but I'm sure I was under fri, sat, sun. 4. Get 80g of protein in every day - didn't track and know I didn't get close to this. Overall I improved from last week so 🙌.(1 comments)See this image largerThis week's goals. These are helping me focus and have a "just do it" attitude when I think about skipping a workout. We have to sign in to classes at the studio and on Sunday one of the teachers remembered my name! So I'm doing something right! Upped the ante on some previous goals. Added a new goal to be mindful about adding veggies to my nutrition. Let's do it!(2 comments)See this image largerMy only goal for 2017 has been developing truly lifelong healthy habits and losing the weight. I gave myself a timeline of 18 months to lose 60-70 pounds. I wanted the focus to be on habits, not weight so I got rid of the scale. After 5 months, I was only down 10 pounds, averaged 1.4 workouts a week and still ate pretty bad. I said I was trying but deep down I knew I was selling myself way short. I know that is not my best effort. Are you really doing your best?(2 comments)See this image largerSee this image largerSee this image largerSee this image largerAs you lose weight, you burn less calories resting and exercising each day. If you were exercising though, you get stronger and have more endurance to move and lift more in the same amount of time so you can combat the drop in calories burned from the weight loss. The more you exercise, the higher impact your nutrition has on how you feel. Exercise motivates you to eat cleaner. Which leads to weight loss. And the cycle continues. You need to do both for long term effectiveness.(1 comments)See this image largerNutrition summary for last week. MyFitnessPal daily calorie goal is 1490. Averaged 1477 calories!! Wooohoooo!! Rocked my calories this week! 💪 Protein was only 16% of daily macros though, so I still need to work on that.(1 comments)See this image largerWeek of June 5th goals recap: 1. 6 classes at the studio ✅ 2. Close my rings 6/7 days - 5/7! Was feeling really drained come Sunday so I took another rest day. Huge improvement over previous week. 3. Under 1500 calories a day - ✅ also HUGE improvement. 4 120g of protein a day - 🚫 only averaged 60g a day. 5. One serving of veggies a day - 🚫 2/7 days.. overall I felt AWESOME about last week 🙌👏👍 Math says I torched 2.3 lbs last week! Ready to rock out another one even better! HapSee this image largerBuilding on the progress from the last week now that I know I can hit 1, 2, 3. Focusing on macronutrients this week. Trying to remember the last time I lost 30 pounds. I worked my butt off for a month and only lost 1 pound but I kept persisting and the next month I lost 11 pounds. If you put the work in, your body will change. Consistency is the key to lasting change.See this image largerMy size 14 jeans from last year fit!! Like I could wear them the whole day fit! Yesterday I was feeling soooo down and discouraged. Felt fatter and uglier than ever. I needed this! 🙌(5 comments)See this image largerSometimes you have to change your surroundings to change your outlook. I love Denver so much. Everyone is so open and grounded. I swear that much activity around nature changes people at a cellular level. Ready to bring back this new energy and focus to my life.(1 comments)See this image largerSee this image largerThe definition of self-love. Thinking and acting in a way that is true to yourself for the betterment of yourself for only you! I have been really negative to myself since I saw a photo that was taken with my friends in Denver. I wanna say I look huge compared to them to but the truth is I really am big compared to them. It's who I am right now. 10-20 lbs/year every year since college is now very visible. It's a third of me added onto me. At my highest it was almost double! That is a lot and yes(1 comments)See this image largerLast week I returned from vacation on Tuesday so I didn't really track for the week. I made it to 1 class at the studio and forgot to pack lunch all week so I'm sure my calories were higher. Back at it this week!(2 comments)See this image largerHaven't taken progress photos in a while. Latest set. I weighed myself on my friends scale yesterday too. Down 16 lbs since January. I don't keep a scale in my house. I get obsessive and I can already think of how many "fat" days I've avoided because the scale told me a number I didn't feel. I don't let the scale steal those skinny days from me anymore. I focus on hitting my nutrition and fitness goals and that is it.(1 comments)See this image largerLast week I struggled getting back in the routine. Work was busy. I was nervous cus my review was coming up and kept skipping my workout over lunch. This week I will definitely do better! Those weeks where I hit 5-6 classes and kept my calories within target, I know I lost weight. Now I just have to be consistent.(4 comments)See this image largerStill hate swimsuits in public but it's easier not to hate them when they are cute and have flattering lines. It's still like two sizes too small but fake it til you make it!(9 comments)See this image largerBoom! Closed all 3 today! But I ate like crap... tomorrow I will track my calories again. I can't wait to see that scale flash in the 170s next time!(1 comments)See this image largerSweat literally dripping down my nose, sides of my face and neck from 15 minutes of BBG.. only did half of the workout. Trying to incorporate these little HIIT sessions into my week for some cardio work especially if I miss a class at the studio. I hate them but I can suffer through 15 minutes for the good of my heart. Eventually I may even start running again.. 😒See this image largerSo I was a good girl and meal prepped on Sunday night before bed. It took maybe 10 minutes of actual work over 45 minutes while I put my son to bed. I haven't strayed from my planned lunches. The chicken salad is the last one left! It's these little things that take a bit of behavior modification at first that lead to the big changes down the road. One week at a time. Weight loss is addicting when you've finally figured it out and got it down!(2 comments)See this image largerBreakfast of champions! So it took me a long, looooong time to realize that losing weight is not complicated, restrictive, or hard. It's your life and your life should always be fun, happy and strong! I eat CoCo puffs, Peanut Butter Puffs, or Rice Crispies almost every single day for breakfast. I love it. It works for me. No sense in fighting it.See this image largerWent to 4 classes last week and stayed under my calorie target for the week! Hoping the scale trends down. Really trying to focus hard the next 6 months!(1 comments)See this image larger💞See this image largerI don't know if you all are like me but this gets me every time.. those nights I don't think about lunch the next day or the days I don't think about dinner are the ones that I make bad choices. I didn't meal prep lunch this week and it's been a disaster.. all because I was too lazy to cut up that watermelon. Planning to succeed tomorrow!(2 comments)See this image largerI am struggling with this today. Really feeling isolated from the world today being a mom dealing with being single. I have always felt on the outside looking in as a single person. Now that my son is about to start school, I just feel rejected. Surrounded by married couples, excited friends who are getting engaged, proud pregnant wives. And I just feel stuck. The things I want in life are happening to everyone around me and for some reason, I'm excluded. And today it's hard. I wonder how long (2 comments)See this image largerI know this is "bad" food. We all know what we should be eating, but life is all about balance. Yesterday I woke up to 20 pounds lost since January 15. Could I have lost this faster? Probably. Would I have gained it back by now? Possibly. Would I still be motivated to keep the scale trending down? Probably not. Your journey is exactly that: YOURS! Do want you need to to stay sane, limit frustration, enjoy your life, and meet your goals.(2 comments)See this image largerRight when I was finally feeling better after my horrible wretched breakup, I find out my sister died suddenly at age 23 from an aneurism. I haven't really said it out loud yet and my family has not made any announcements yet. It feels pretty isolating. After 12 hours of delayed flights and cancels, we finally made it to North Carolina and we can't see her for at least 2 more days because of red tape.(12 comments)See this image largerFinally cleared to go back to yoga after the car accident. Message today was embracing the change of new season. This year has been the worst, hardest, most painful year of my life. I thought losing the love of my life was hard, but then my baby sister died suddenly and not even two weeks later I was in a bad car accident, car totaled and hospitalized for 2 days. I'm trying to fight for the new season but struggling to look forward.See this image largerI've been doing a lot of dreaming lately. It's born out of this growing frustration. I heard this phrase today and wow, does it fuel the fire?! What would you do if you knew you could not fail? Today I registered for the NASM certified personal training exam and study course. I also registered for yoga teacher training. By the end of year I will be a certified personal trainer and yoga instructor. Make that leap.See this image largerSuccess happens in the little things compounded over time. You got this!See this image largerI'm back focusing on my weight loss goals again. Luckily my weight has been holding steady through the all of the shit that has happened in the last 2 months. I'm able to work out again and I'm ready to finish out the year moving forward. 3 months left and I'm determined to start it in the 150s, pass the CPT exam and complete yoga teacher training. I'm all in.See this image largerMacros for the last week. My goal was to get at least 80g of protein and eat just 1 serving of vegetables a day. I have smashed it. I'm putting the slow carb diet to the test. I said I'd try it for one week and if I like it then I'd go for another week and on and on. Well it's been great! Avg 1500 cals/day and feeling very full and satisfied, eating foods I enjoy, and my sugar intake speaks for itself. No withdrawals, headaches, or stomach issues. Very few cravings. Looking forward to week 2!See this image largerHaving another "I feel like I'm going to be like this forever" moment. I have been eating super clean for the past 3 weeks and had these expectations that I would have dropped 6-10 pounds by now. I'm down 1 pound from my weight 6 weeks ago. I have never been so rigid and so healthy with food before and I'm mystified and pissed that this is all the progress I've made. But all I can do is keep going, no matter how slow..See this image largerHaven't taken a progress photo in a while. This is morning after cheat day. Weight is just a guess, I don't own scale. Ready for week 3 of eating slow-carb. Upping my focus this week. I want to give it 💯See this image largerTried the Running for Weight Loss app day 1 today. The app was good and this graphic is really cool but I am way too heavy to start running. My knees and feet started hurting about halfway through. This is bad pain. Running is going on the back burner until I lose more weight.See this image largerSoooo excited for Halloween this year!! First time going trick or treating with my son ever! 🤗👏😂See this image largerYoga teacher training is kicking my butt!! Burned 1329 calories active calories on Monday, 151 fitness minutes, 16 hours standing. This is basically every class. 😪😴 So much more challenging than I thought it would be!See this image largerLatest progress pics.. down 22 lbs since Jan. 15th. Slow but not quitting.(1 comments)See this image largerTurkey trot 5k done! I think it was around 35 minutes. Not bad for not training at all and walking the first mile with my parents! I’m proud of myself!(1 comments)See this image larger11 months of my journey.. 198 —> 172. When I took that first photo I said I was done being that person and I meant it. Still just as determined as that first day to put my weight and self esteem behind me for good.See this image largerSee this image largerLatest progress pics. Finally broke into the 160s! 169.8 today! Woohoo! Still aiming for 165 by the end of the year. Am gonna miss my goal of 40 lbs for the year but that’s ok. I know I’ll next year I’ll hit my goal weight and that is cool enough!(3 comments)See this image larger#coldhardtruthSee this image largerOfficially down 30 pounds! Almost halfway there! (2 comments)See this image largerExcuse the dirty mirror.. Busting out the size 12s tomorrow for work!! 🙌👏💪 I am finding myself cheating more and more and a friend suggested wearing tighter pants so you don’t forget that feeling. My size 14s are super baggy and it feels amazing but I need to remember I have a long way to go still and I’m not quitting yet!(1 comments)See this image larger2017 progress pictures. 198 —> 165. I’m 5’3” so a healthy weight for me is under 140. My New Years resolution yet again is to lose weight and get healthy and in shape but this time I’m on the downhill side. I am very excited for the next 12 months of progress.(2 comments)See this image largerNew Years resolutions do work. Shoot for 🌙, if you miss you land among the ✨. My resolution was to lose 40 pounds. I lost 33. I’m not the least bit mad about it. I’m overjoyed that I made the change and fought for it all year long despite a breakup, my sister passing and a car accident. Your body is your one and only, treat it with love.(2 comments)See this image largerI’m coming after you 2009 me. Getting back to my college weight used to seem SO far away! Now the difference between these photos is only 15 pounds and a lot of self tanner. 😂 2 months away!(6 comments)See this image largerYou know how you make your resolutions stick? Your reason why stands the test of time. This is my baby sister. I think she was 21 at the time. This is the only photo I have of her and I as adults. Why? Because I hated what I looked like and avoided photos. Is that you too? What else are you avoiding because of your weight? What is stopping you from living? I still can’t comprehend that my sister is gone but I immediately tackled whatever it was in my way that kept me from feeling like .....(4 comments)See this image largerTruth! I can’t tell you how many times I would longingly stare at pictures of people who succeeded and say that will be me but then change nothing. And then how many times where I finally changed something but then failed before I started seeing success. Weight has been a two decade struggle for me. Each time I tried and failed though, I learned something new and tried something different the next time. You will get there if you want it for yourself and never give up.(2 comments)See this image largerY’all!! Find of the week! Aldi has a veggie noodle slicer for $4! I’ve been buying pre-cut zucchini noodles to make spaghetti cus I’m lazy and didn’t want to spend $40. I’m soooo excited about this little guy. Spaghetti is one of my favorite dinners. I make it with zucchini noodles sautéed in olive oil with basil, garlic, salt and pepper served with 93% ground beef and my favorite bertolli olive oil and basil spaghetti sauce. You definitely should try it!(5 comments)See this image largerMilestone hit today! Officially back to my pre-pregnancy weight! 🙌 I gained 15 lbs during the semester before I got pregnant though so my next milestone is my college weight: 148. Then high school: 140. Then land of the unknown! 😳😬 I’ve never been smaller than a size 8 but I will be this year.(2 comments)See this image largerYayyyyy!! It’s finally here! Tomorrow kicks off the official BBG 12 wk challenge! I follow Kayla Itsines and Kelsey Wells on Instagram and luvvvvv them! Last year when I committed to losing weight I did this and it was hard! I only lasted 4 weeks. I’m so pumped to make it through the full 12 weeks this year and see the change! Warm weather will be here when the challenge is over too! Amen for that!See this image largerTorched some fat today! Went to my regular power sculpt class over lunch. Hit up a Power 2 class after work to work on some inversions but the usual teacher was sick, the sub said she made her power sculpt and power 2 classes this week the same to get people to try something new so it was not the relaxing, deep stretching I was hoping for. It was another intense workout.. oh well.See this image largerSoooo excited for these bad (but good) boys for dinner!! Protein waffles, 3 egg whites, 1 egg, 4 slices of turkey bacon, 1 slice of cheese, little bit of Walden farms pancake syrup as the “mayo”. Amazing!! 212 calories! 21g of protein, 11g fat, 8g carb per sandwich. Too stuffed to eat both!See this image largerThe best #nonscalevictory ever!! Flew side crow! This little guy is a beast! Flexibility, strength, and stability all in one. I feel like I’m finally a legit yogi now! Also broke into the 150s this morning!! First time in 7 years!(3 comments)See this image largerIt’s been about a month since I took progress pictures. This sports bra is getting quite big! Thank god! I dunno about you all but I think smaller tatas is a HUGE benefit to losing weight! I can’t wait to buy normal off the rack sizes again and have shirts fit properly! I’m amazed that these pants can still make it look like I have muffin top even though I’ve lost 40 lbs.. as with all of my pictures I take them relaxed, not “sucking in”. I want an apples to apples real comparison.(2 comments)See this image largerPlateaus suck... officially hitting my first one. My diet has been on point and I hit all 5 workouts the past week, even upped weights but no avail. 0 loss in one week. I don’t bow down to the scale but I’m still 40 lbs overweight. I have plenty of fat left to lose so the scale doesn’t lie. Nothing else I can do but keep on keeping on. But plateaus suck. Trying to make myself feel better by recognizing that I fit into size 12s now. That is progress but I need the scale to keep going down..(8 comments)See this image largerI refuse to give up. Annoyed with my plateau but taking the frustration out with a serious HITT run tonight after work. It’s almost 50 deg F here so I should enjoy the heat wave while we have it. 👊🖤See this image largerDinner time!! Just torched 385 calories doing 35 minutes of HIIT. Kicked my a$$! So good to get that frustration out. Dinner is marinated salmon, homemade cauliflower mashed “potatoes” and 2 chocolate chip protein cookies (P38/C31/F22) Hopefully tomorrow is the day I break through! 🙏See this image larger#NSV when the clothes you bought 2 months ago get so big you’d swear they belong to a man or are maternity 😂🙌(1 comments)See this image largerPlateau busted! The frustration pushed me harder and I’m so glad it broke! Happy Saturday everyone! I’m gonna have some pancakes and eggs for breakfast, then have a 2 hour yoga workshop, and hopefully finishing building the pantry in my house. ✌️ Rock the day! 👊(1 comments)See this image largerNew swimsuit! Going on vacation! I do not feel confident in this at all. I think the pictures make me look much better than reality. But I LOVE this bikini (❤️Target). And I’m starting to love me. Fighting, pushing so so SO hard to be at my goal weight by June 1st. I’m excited to see the changes. To grow! To become confident, fearless, and proud! We are so worth it! I’m so glad I stuck to my New Years resolution last year. Gonna be on 🔥 this year! 💪✌️🖤(4 comments)See this image largerSee this image largerNon-scale victories are way more gratifying! Repping the ol’ college sweatshirt again! 🙌(1 comments)See this image largerSee this image largerSee this image largerI never thought I’d really ever get to my goal weight. It wasn’t until I lost the first 25 did I really start to believe in myself and trust the process. I would say I’m gonna be at goal weight before my birthday but didn’t truly believe it. I expected to fail. Staring at an 80 lb mountain. It felt impossible. Every day I chip away at it. The mountain is only 35 lbs now. Still hard but I believe I’ll get there.See this image largerSize 10s!! Wore these babies all day! Also hit 155 today. Down 10 lbs since January 1st. 43 lbs total. 15 to go til my high school weight! Knocking them off one at a time! 👊🖤(1 comments)See this image largerTalk about a PEP talk! Found this today when I was making my grocery list. I write these real talks to myself every once and a while. It’s like the voice inside my head being my own coach telling me to do it. I hit 155 yesterday. I need to have these moments where I get real with myself and connect with my goals compared to my behavior and focus at least once a week. I’m also completely guilty of talking to myself in the mirror as if I’m my future skinny bad-a$$ self!See this image largerWhite cheddar and bacon cauliflower mashed potatoes 😋 First time making it from scratch. Usually I just buy it frozen. Set yourself up for a good week! You all got this!See this image larger🙌🙌🙌 25 to go!(5 comments)See this image largerFirst run/walk of the year! Can only get better from here. Gotta start somewhere. #countdownto10k is only 12 weeks away. Coincidentally also the countdown to summer and when I hope to hit my goal weight!See this image largerFebruary progress. Dang my lower half needs work.. definitely the focus over the next few months. Bring on the deep squats and HIIT sessions! 20-25 lbs left. Keep on truckin everyone!(2 comments)See this image largerI am not a morning person but it feels SO good to have a workout finished before starting the day! Wow! What a complete attitude changer. Feeling 💪 and fierce like I can conquer everything on my list today! Wrap up the week strong! Get after it! 👊🖤See this image largerSo this happened over the weekend! 🙌💪🖤🔥👊🎉😂 all the emojis of excitement.(2 comments)See this image largerMade it to the 140s!! Finally!! Oh man this month has been so mentally tough! I hit 150.0 last Saturday and knew I was so close so my mind decided it wanted ALL the things last weekend! They always say the toughest part of a marathon is around mile 20. I remember my track coach saying the 2/3rd-3/4 finished mark is the hardest. Maybe it’s a bit of self-fulfilling prophecy but this is getting hard mentally. I am 2 lbs away from 50 lbs lost. I can do this!(1 comments)See this image largerSee this image largerHitting that point in my weight loss journey where it’s really all about patience. My habits have been changed. It’s just a matter of time now to keep doing the same thing each day and just wait for the weight to come off. It always feels so slow in the moment but the funny thing is even if I don’t hit my weekly goal or end of month goal, I’m never upset or disappointed in seeing a lower number. Even if it happens two months later than I thought it would. So I keep reminding myself that!See this image largerA journey of a 1000 miles is taken one step at a time. 50 lbs ⬇️ 🙌💪🤷‍♀️. Over a year between photos but every bit worth it. You can’t see it in the photos but this bra is easily 3 sizes too big now swallowing up my upper half and the yoga pants fit like wide leg jeans. 8 lbs to go to a healthy BMI. Kicking obesity to the curb.(3 comments)See this image largerBig ‘ol smile on my face cus these are size 8s!! First pair of single digit sized clothes in 7 years!! Eeeekkk!! Just 2 sizes left to go! 🤗🤗🤗(2 comments)See this image largerYeeeeessssss! Oh man this month has been a fight but I finally got across that 50 lb mark. 22 left. One day at a time. See this image largerHealthy peanut butter cup pancakes! Vanilla protein powder pancake, PB2 peanut butter sauce, a few chocolate chips and choc sauce. Get in my belly! 😋 See this image largerMarch progress. Slowly coming along. Pretty bodies aren’t made overnight. Lost 6 lbs during March. Really pushing for 8-10 lbs in April leading up to my birthday. It’s my golden birthday. I’ll be turning 30 on the 30th and so I should be in the 130s. Happy Easter all.See this image largerOmg the last 2 weeks have been not good! Too many dates, late nights out, work happy hours. Today I ate like I used to all day and I feel awful! Can’t wait to get back to healthy eating this week and continue pushing for 140 by the end of month. I’ve been holding steady at 144 since April 2nd. Time to press on! I see 20 lbs that can go in this photo.See this image largerNew workout clothes!! No longer a size large! I love the confidence I have gained from making this change. I still struggle with anxiety and enforcing my boundaries in dating and other relationships but I’m learning I’m worth it. Seeing how other people have changed how they look at me reinforces the effort I’ve made and pushes me to keep going. You are worth it! Become the person you want to be!(2 comments)See this image largerLife begins at the end of your comfort zone. I NEVER thought I could do this. Not last night. Not 3 months ago. Definitely not a year ago. But what do you know? I DID! So gratifying!(3 comments)See this image largerBirthday lunch with my mini. It was hot dogs.. life is all about balance! I still have 20 more lbs I want to lose but it seems like life has gotten in the way this past month and it doesn’t want to let up. Birthday party on last Saturday, cookout yesterday, birthday grill out tonight, lunch and learn Wednesday, work conference Thursday and Friday, celebrating my birthday on Saturday, brunch on Sunday. Learning all about balance this month!See this image largerApril was a mind-trip of a month. If anything I learned I need to stand up for what I want. No more devoting all of my energy to someone who won’t fight for it or see my value. No more wallowing in self-pity or thinking I’m less than because of other people. I am worth it. I have worked so hard. I’m a god damn force to be reckon with. Onward with my goals! 2 months and counting until my sisters wedding!(1 comments)See this image largerIt hit me today looking through weight loss before and afters on Instagram that my pictures could fit in there. It doesn’t seem real. I still feel big. I still feel like I look pretty big in non-posed photos. But people call me tiny. I say I have 20-30 more lbs to lose and people say where? 🤷‍♀️ but that’s how I feel! I recognize the effort as I have really backed off my diet but I want those last 20 lbs!(5 comments)See this image largerEach day, each breathe is a gift. Everything after that is a choice. Are you going to take advantage of each new minute to step closer towards that ultimate you? Or let another minute pass unfulfilled. Chase your dreams fiercely! 💪👊🖤(1 comments)See this image largerJust here for your little reminder that life isn’t always butterflies and rainbows and that you’re not alone in struggles! I forgot my son’s conferences today. Guilt-trip by his dad once again for being inadequate. Some days the pressure of everything I’m expected to do and everything I hope to have, wish I had just feels like I’ll never have. The negative voices inside our head can be so strong..(3 comments)See this image largerAfter feeling like yesterday just kicked my ass, I refuse to give in to the negative thoughts. All you can do is do better. I failed yesterday because I didn’t give myself time to plan and get ready for the day and I didn’t put events on my calendar with reminders. One day or one event doesn’t make you a failure if you keep trying. Just breathe and know those feelings are only temporary. Let’s get some good done today! One step closer to our goals.See this image largerAuditioned for yoga teaching again last night and was surprised that I wasn’t nervous. I heard yesterday that confidence comes from having multiple successful outcomes of things you try to do. And that the key to confidence is having the courage to try, to create as many successful outcomes as possible. Learn and adjust from each unsuccessful attempt and keep trying. It rang so true to me. I remember the first I walked into yoga. I couldn’t do chataranga even on my knees. Now I flow chataran(3 comments)See this image largerIf you believe it, work for it, and want it, it WILL happen!(5 comments)See this image largerSometimes you just need a break. Because life does get in the way. In order to come back stronger than ever. I took a full 2 month hiatus from my weight loss routine. It was not intentional. At times I felt really frustrated with the scale inching up a little and how many times I said I would get strict tomorrow and then didn’t. Sometimes you just aren’t ready. Don’t force it. You’re still learning the lessons needed to get you ready. Today I felt ready. Here’s to renewed spirit!(1 comments)See this image largerHad a great HIIT workout today! 5 min warm up, 16 minutes of sprint intervals, 10 min yoga cool down. Felt SO good afterwards! I’m definitely doing that workout again! Have a great Friday everyone!(1 comments)See this image largerOne of the biggest motivations I had for losing weight was to get rid of any self-consciousness I had around taking photos. I’m not all the way there yet but it’s definitely better.(1 comments)See this image largerHey all! It’s been a hot minute since I’ve been here.. or more like 3 months. I basically went off the deep end. But I am back. I am holding myself accountable and responsible and looking forward. More lessons learned to throw in my life experience bucket. Just as quickly as I began my diet, I went off it.. time to find the middle ground.See this image largerSee this image largerNew house, new job, new bike, new season, new beginning. I was thinking this morning, bad experiences stick with us a whole lot more than good ones.. I gained 20 lbs back. It seemed like it happened so fast. But really it didn’t. It took 6 months for those lbs to come on and only 3 months prior to that for me to lose 20 lbs. The weight loss seemed so slow and the weight gain so fast! That’s not reality though. It was the story I was telling myself. Time to create a new reality.(2 comments)See this image larger#shameless on the bike #lovingtheendorphins. Low intensity steady state cardio today. Rocking out 45 minutes and 400 calories catching up tv. I’ve never had workout equipment in my own house before. I loooooovvvve it! So worth the $500! (1 comments)See this image largerI believe in the power of compounding effort. Those little changes each day can add up to remarkable transformations over time. But on the same flip of the coin, sometimes you just need to drastically change overnight. Shed the past and start new. I can think of 4 times where my success and the real long lasting change literally happened in one instant. It wasn’t some devastating day or a Monday or the 1st of the month or the year. It was just a regular moment where I quieted my surroundings e(2 comments)See this image largerGetting back to basics.. move more and mindful eating. I’m challenging myself this October to close my rings every day. Also I started waking up around 5:30 every morning. I am not a morning person. At all. But one day I just decided and committed to become one. I feel like I tripled the amount of time I have to do things at home now. It is amazing!See this image largerReal moment: Keeping weight off is hard. I can’t tell you how many stories I read of people who gained it back and I was like ✋ that ain’t me.. well.. the scale keeps going up. Consistently about a pound a week since I went “off plan” in the beginning of April. It’s clear to me that when my weight almost 200 lbs, it was still slowly going up which meant my “normal” lifestyle even then was consuming more calories than my TDEE. If I want to maintain a lower weight, I’m going to h(2 comments)See this image largerNever miss a Monday. Worked hard today. Fighting for this week to change my mental patterns and have grace. Tomorrow will be better. See this image largerTreat everyday with the fire and ambition like day 1. Or day 100 and you don’t want to break your streak. Feeling great momentum after working out 3 days in a row. Showed myself some grace with my food choices and nailed it by day 3. I restarted Profile. I am going to finish out the program all the way to the end no matter how long it takes. I need to re-train my mind with its relationship with food and learn what maintenance looks like. No more all-in or quit.(1 comments)See this image largerSomedays you just gotta get prettied up for no reason! Practicing eye makeup with my first pair of false lashes (impulse buy from Target).. did not follow my diet today or get a workout in this morning or yesterday.. broke my streak already but the next minute is a new minute. Going to spin while catching up on tv.See this image largerThe definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over expecting different results. I’ve been feeling this interest in using/wearing crystals to help with life. Bought my first few today and maybe it’s all in my head but I instantly felt this vibrational energy course through me when I put them in my pocket. I was pretty set on getting KFC for lunch but when I left the desire for it was gone. I went back to work and ate my on plan meal. Whatever helps you get your mindset right. ðŸ(1 comments)See this image largerHappy Turkey Day everyone! Dropped 3 minutes off my Turkey Trot 5k time from last year and I did not run once this year prior to this race. So f*ck yeah for non-scale victories! Been feeling terrible for the weight I’ve gained back but I ran 3 miles out of thin air and it sucked!! I was cursing it hard but it feels good after! I may keep trying to fight through the suck.See this image largerWhat a year.. progress isn’t a straight lineSee this image largerMacros and calories inputted to MyFitnessPal. I am done with super low calorie, super low carb and binging. Using IIFYM.com results which also match up perfectly for my mesomorph body type. Today honestly felt like freedom. I couldn’t believe I could have bread over lunch and actually needed a 1.5x serving of sweet potatoes for dinner to reach my macros.See this image largerBreakfast! Bacon and veggie frittata, Thomas mini bagel with peanut butter, 1 kiwi and 8 oz mixed berry collagen drink (not pictured) 26p 11f 32c. 100% delicious and satisfying. Have a great weekend everyone!(1 comments)See this image largerWeek 1 done. Was over on calories most every day this week. Focus for the next week is meal prepping and having the right ingredients at home so I don’t get hungry and make bad decisions.See this image largerStarting back with weekly goals and baby steps. Reeling in my binge eating sprees. Aiming for more balance. Starting with a goal to hit my macros right 3 days of the week. Adding 1 more each week until I hit them all 7 days. Just wrapped up week 2 of BBG workouts.See this image largerSee this image largerSee this image largerSee this image largerIt doesn’t look pretty but it is SO yummy! And easy to prepare! Costco for the win. 1 cup riced cauliflower and 11 oz Suhki’s chicken tikka masala for lunch. It feels like takeout.. but only cost about $3.. 56P/26C/20F See this image largerMonday’s workout. Tried a spin class. My bones are soooo sore! I still haven’t really gotten use to spinning yet but it was a fun class. About 15 minutes in I really wondered how I would last 50 but I did and wasn’t impossible. Get after your goals today people! Finish the year strong!See this image largerMerry Christmas everyone. Hope you get to spend lots of time with loved ones.See this image largerI wish you and yours peace, love and joy this holiday season. If you’ve followed me for a while you know I’ve been fighting through fire. Let me tell you, it is worth the struggle. It is worth going through the pain. Today I faced my ex, the ex. The one I saw my life with, who woke up one morning and decided he was out. He had been reaching out for months. I finally felt strong and gracious enough to handle it. I have peace over it now. My have I grown.(1 comments)See this image largerI faced the ex today so I can be fully able to give myself to this man. I can’t tell you how many nights I’ve spent crying, paralyzed, anxiety filled, complete despair over the pain I was feeling the last 2 years. Slowly I took big steps forward. The ex would reach out. New feelings would pop up. I was worried I would backslide letting him in so I wouldn’t. I am glad I faced having a conversation with him today. Peace. Love. Joy. The magic of the season. Happy Holidays!(3 comments)See this image largerLessons from 2018.. sometimes the slow way is the better way. 2 years of tracking my weight trying to lose the whole time. If I stopped chasing a deadline, stopped with the I want the weight gone now mentality and just settled in to a nice, slow, consistent approach, I guarantee I would be better off. Not making that same mistake twice. This year my focus is not the scale but consistency and little adjustments. Maybe I’ll lose 5, maybe I’ll lose 50. I’ll be happy with either.(2 comments)See this image largerI need to have my gallbladder removed. Woke up in the middle of the night in excruciating pain. Went to the ER. Found out my gallbladder is filled with gallstones and needs to be taken out. Diets with a deficit of more than 25% off your TDEE mess with your hormones and throw your body into chaos! Go slow. I lost it all and then gained it back and will forever be without a vital organ in my body now! Just don’t do it. Be healthy. Be sustainable.(2 comments)See this image largerPost-op recovery. Lazy day at home without a gallbladder from here on out. Not doing too bad but I wish I could spend $4k on a week off in some tropical place instead of surgery sitting at home but that’s life.(1 comments)See this image largerStarting over. This will the last time I have to ever lose weight again. I am done with yo-yo-ing. My goal for 2019 is consistency and discipline. I think I might even get rid of the scale! 😱 Cheers to a healthy 2019! Looking forward to fitting back into my clothes by summer! Pushing for that! On a side note: I need to clean this mirror..See this image largerSlowly walking.. Currently able to handle a cool 2.3 mph.. 😂 have to show myself some grace, it’s only 5 days post-op, trying not to push it too hard. Back to work tomorrow too. Boo.See this image largerFootball night requires pizza. Chicken bacon ranch on a cauliflower pizza crust. So yum. Go Chiefs!(2 comments)See this image largerWeight lifting burns surprisingly more than calories than I thought! Excited for a new plan of attack and finding something I look forward to a little more. Building discipline and being consistent are my goals for this year.(3 comments)See this image largerStarting over again.. doing a 3 week challenge created by my gym to kick start my motivation for anything.. I’ve gained all the weight back officially. Gotta say lifetime may be expensive but they really do have all the tools and help and support to really get you to your fitness goals. This year I’m trying to be consistent and just show up. Day 1 for the 4770372th try,.See this image larger40 wks, 3 days pregnant (22 lb gain)(1 comments)See this image larger18 weeks (+3 lbs)(1 comments)See this image larger21 weeks! (+9)(2 comments)See this image larger29 weeks (+16)See this image larger26 weeks (+16)See this image larger39 weeks (+17)(1 comments)See this image largeraugust 2007 - 165 lbs size 14; march 2009 - 141 lbs size 8(8 comments)See this image largeraugust 2007 - 165 lbs; february 2010 - 143 lbs(13 comments)See this image largerThis is my warning sign! I need to look at this often.(8 comments)See this image largerlove, love love Jamie Eason!! so pretty and what i think is a perfect body!See this image largerlove love love JAMIE EASON!! she's is amazing! great person! and damn hot for 32!!(3 comments)See this image largerjanuary 27th, 2009! woohoo!See this image largerAt my smallest.. feb. 23rd 2009 - 141 lbs, still 25 pounds from goal..(2 comments)See this image largerfeb 23rd 2009 - 141 lbsSee this image largerfeb. 23rd 2009 - 141 lbs

Report Inappropriate Page