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Picking myself up and moving on

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

This has been one of the longest weeks of my life! I can't believe my kitty has been gone for a week. I feel like the biggest cry baby on earth. Just when I think I am doing okay, I start crying again. It usually hits me at night when I sit down and expect him to curl up on my lap, or when I go to bed and he doesn't follow. I have tried to put his picture on my computer and my cell phone so I can be close to him. I appreciate so much all of my spark friends and the compassion people have shown. It helps me get through the days knowing I have such great people around me!

Yesterday was my first day back training for the Breast Cancer Walk. I did 5 miles and my knee is okay so far. I walked 9 holes of golf today which took about 2 1/2 hours and no swelling yet! The pain I could care less about, it is the swelling that cuts off the blood flow that can cause problems. Tomorrow I am scheduled to do 6 miles so I figure after 3 days in a row I should know if things are better than they were.

My youngest daughter graduated from high school on Saturday so I have also downloaded a couple of those pictures. It was a beatiful day- pretty hot in the robes but it went off without a hitch. The awesome thing about both of us working in the school district is that we march in with the faculty and sit right next to the kids. My husband handed her the diploma which was also really special.

Eating has been on and off this week. We had a couple of parties that didn't go very well for me. I still have a really hard time controlling myself when there are big spreads all over the table. I do lots of "picking" and before you know it- OOPS!!!!!! I still remain focused and determined, so that is all that matters!
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    Oh Miss Patty, I'm sad to hear about you companion. I'm still trying to deal with Brady walking off...just know they are with a special someone or a special place. I'd say now is the time to move on, but it's been over 2 months for me and I'm still in a funk. So you and me gotta work this thing out and move on together somehow. I'm here for ya Darlin...ALL of us are here. emoticon
    4606 days ago
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    I'm so sorry about kitty. Losing the furry family is awful. My baby left one morning about 2 months ago, and I haven't seen him since. I still look for him every day on my walks.
    Prayers going up for your knee to heal, and you can get thru your walk.
    Congrats on your daughters graduation! Glad it went well.
    Hope you have a good rest of the week/weekend.


    ourtney is doing ok, thanks for asking.
    Got a call in to the Doc, to find out about the blood work, and possibly start switching up the meds. Its going to be a long haul, but I am praying we will find the right combination for her!
    4636 days ago

    Comment edited on: 6/26/2008 8:53:09 PM
    Good for you for getting out there! And good luck with the 6 miles scheduled for today. I'm rootin' for ya!

    I love the pictures you posted!

    Keep focused around the "spreads". That's always the hardest thing for me b/c I tend to sample all the yummy food too...and the samples get you!

    Also - don't feel like a crybaby!! You take the time you need to grieve. Nobody's going to think any worse of you. It's very okay to be feeling this way.

    (Our a/c is still broken...)
    4636 days ago
    ((hugs)) I'll keep my fingers crossed that your knee doesn't act up on ya and start swelling. You are doing great and I know what you mean about big table fulls of FOOD... Aaaah!! I hope you have a relaxing rest of the week and weekend. You need it!

    4637 days ago
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    Patty ~ I'm sorry that you are having a rough week! You are NOT a cry baby, you have suffered a painful loss, and it will take time to adjust to life with out your beloved kitty. I know that it will get better, but I wish it was better NOW!

    I hope that everything goes well with your knee and it does what it needs to do to get you through this 3 day walk! You will be in my prayers!

    Congrats to your daughter!

    I hope that the rest of your week is good! *hugs* ~Jenn
    4637 days ago
    I am so sorry about your beloved pet. It is so hard to lose one that you are so close to. I still miss my cat Reno, and he has been gone for almost 4 years. I still get teary eyed when I look at his photos, but it has gotten easier over time.

    I am glad to hear about your training. I hope that your knee cooperates with you and does not hinder you from reaching your goals.

    If there is anything I can do, or if you just need to talk about your kitty, I am here for you.
    4637 days ago
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