Thursday, July 17, 2008
Well, as I continue on this journey in the land of drinkable food, I have come upon some very startling revelations. I eat a lot. No, I mean A LOT. I guess I was fooling myself when I used to tell people that I didn't eat much during the day. I lied (although not intentionally) to everyone and more importantly, to myself. Now that I am not actually chewing food for my meals, I am realizing how many times a day I would make myself a snack. How many times I was sitting at my desk doing work that I found tedious and I would jump up and make a snack. Or, I am at home, at loose ends, and I find myself wanting to eat something. I kind of knew that I was sort of an emotional eater, but this is ridiculous. I use food as a tool to get through the day and that is NOT a healthy habit. Going through this medically supervised weight loss is really making some things clear to myself. I have an unhealthy relationship with food and I need to break the cycle. Food should be enjoyed, but it should not mark the progress of my day. I am hoping that when I start introducing regular meals back into my diet, that I am able to get past this and not fall back into old habits.