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I Just Don't Know...

Tuesday, September 09, 2008

I just found out one of my good friends died in her sleep this past weekend and for some reason I can't seem to get myself back on track......

We weren't best friends nor did we talk on a regular basis, I just feel so strange about her passing. It's been a long time since I lost someone close to me and it just feels like I can't focus on anything........

All I can think about is growing up with her; She is only a couple of months older than me-----She just had a birthday last month, she has a 11y/o daughter, out of all the parents that lived on our street her parents were still together. I can't seem to get her out of my head.

It's suppose to be my second week of P90X and yet it's Tuesday and I haven't had time/made time to work out. I just feel kinda lost.......
Like I should be doing something and yet all I can do is cry......

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    I am sorry to hear about your loss. I had someone pass say 3months ago. i didn't see them for years but i felt connected because we grew up together. What you are feeling is normal. I want that p90x so bad or the get ripped. You have put in a lot of time in working out. This to shall pass and you will be doing your normal routine again. It is normal to give yourself time.You are a go getter on those workouts.. You will get through this. emoticon
    I know it's hard but, you will.
    4394 days ago
    Hey girl. I just saw your blog and I had to comment. Earlier this year, a neighbor of mine (only a few years older than me) was killed by her boyfriend, and even though I haven't seen her or talked with her in over 15 years, it really got me thinking. It made me realize that nothing in life is guaranteed and that we should look at each day as a blessing. I quietly grieved for her, even though we weren't close. I truly understand where you're coming from, and like other difficult things in life, I realized "this too will pass". Here's hoping things are falling back into place.

    4457 days ago

    Comment edited on: 9/20/2008 4:09:48 PM
    Sorry to hear of your loss. Hang in there and you'll get your drive back.
    4467 days ago
    You didn't have to be best friends to feel the way you are feeling. It hits very close to home when something like that happens to someone we have so much in common with. You grew up together, you are both mothers. For her to go so quickly and unexpectedly....it gets you thinking about your own mortality and that alone shakes you up. Darling you are grieving not just for her but for her family and yourself as her friend. Give yourself time to grieve. Power 90 will be there. Take some time
    We love you.
    4468 days ago
    Hey sistah!! Wow, I read your blog and I am sorry for your loss!! I will be praying for you. I hope you everything gets better. emoticon
    4468 days ago
  • BIGGIRL2082010
    You need to let the grief just take you, sometimes. :( Sorry to hear about your friend.

    The P90X will wait, a day off won't ruin it all for you!


    4468 days ago
    I'm sorry about your friend. Sometimes it hits us hard because we realize that we really are simply mortal...and death is a reality.

    How are you liking the P90X?
    4468 days ago
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