Wednesday, September 17, 2008
As I shared with the others, my determination was not the good cause that caused my loss, but my severe depression. I had left my hubby and children to go to Florida and care or my dying father.It was only supposed to be for a month or 2, but instead I watch his disease eat his life away day by day for 7 long horrible years, no not cancer, heart disease and diabetis. Well, I'm a diabetic, and decided that I already had enough problems with my health. You see I'm a disabled Army nurse, can't walk at all any more, but was better 7 years ago. Any how to make a long story short. My depresion got so bad the last year with Dad, I just lost my appetite,and just stopped eating for the most part. Since that raised hell with my diabeties, I saw a nutrionist and we began working together. When my Daddy passed on I had lost 45 lbs already. The rest of it is coming off slowly but it i coming off. I don't want my children to be left with the horrible visage of a long deteriorating death. So now I'm down to 186.2. Igess my "secret" is really really wanting it so bad. You leave yourself no choice except to do it.