What a summer!! Whew!
Wednesday, October 08, 2008
I have just went thru the summer from Hell, and I'm not sure it's over with the changing season. I've been sick since July 3rd. Still don't know what's causing my symptoms, trying to get accetped as a patient to the Mayo Clinic....but have found out this much....After having a lymph node removed from my groin for biopsy, I'm now left with lymedema in my right foot/leg, which I will most likely have to contend with for the rest of my life. It sucks, life sucks and I'm just mad as heck anymore!!! I've been to so many doctors and have received substandard care from most of them. I'm ready to chuck it all and say to heck with it, whatever will be will be!! But, I know in my heart that I can't do that. I have kids that need me, and I will hang on to that to keep me HERE and holding on!!
The doctor today told me that it is important that I do lose weight for my health...big surprise there huh! All docs say that, but this doc was indeed coming from a different place. He meant to better my quality of life. It will help with the swelling in my leg, help with mobility, and heck lets face it, NOT having and extra 100 lbs to carry around on an already damaged foot/leg would have to be better...right?
So, here I am again, I've drug myself back here again...and even though I haven't been eating a lot because my appetite just isn't there, I haven't been eating well...and I need to change that part. As for exercise we will see what they recommend at the lyphedema clinic for that. I'm sure that once the swelling is under control I will be able to do most anythin again. At least that's my hope!! :) :)
I am down almost 31 pounds since the last time I posted here...so yay me! :) I was down to 229 for a couple weeks until the foot/leg swelling started since then I've been up to as much as 235 but usually sit around 230.
So...here I go again.
Please GOD help me get this right...my life and sanity depends on it!!!!!!