Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Laddie, our first Australian Shepherd is nearing the end of his life span. We are saddened beyond words knowing that our world will soon change as we know it. Laddie, Old Man as we are so fond of calling him could have been our Rhodes Scholar, our British Humorist but has always been and still our faithful and loyal friend. I have never had the pleasure of children; the joys the challenges associated with raising a child however, I have had my "Boys" and have always been content.
The Vet told me yesterday he looks good, no pain, no discomfort, no depression, to please try more meds to see if they will help. She gave the meds to me, no charge.
I was so raw with sadness, regardless of how hard I tried I had my share of tears at Vet's, pharmacy, grocery store yesterday. Seems like anytime anyone said anything I broke down. A lady at grocery store (employee) that knows me just by my visits there (we now always hug, she then kisses me on my cheek saying I love you, God Bless You) She asked how I was and I told her briefly about our Laddie. She was quiet and then she asked me if I believed in prayer...I told her yes, I pray daily. She told me God would heal. I told her He would heal my pain but not Laddie and I started crying...good grief. As I was leaving the store she was waiting for me and walked to my car with me. When we got there I had my Boys with me...she rubbed them and talked to them then told me to wait, she had something for me. She rummaged in her purse and pulled out squares of purple cloth. She handed me two saying her priest had anointed the cloths and wanted me to have and hold while praying. I gave her one back keeping the other one thanking her telling her to hold on to the extra in case she met someone else. She took the one she gave me and rubbed it between her fingers telling me while praying I would be able to feel the anointing, the strength and the healing. I stood in that parking lot with her the whole time tears flooding down my face with such mixed emotions...for her care, concern and love and for Laddie's dwindling life.
I was and still am overwhelmed at the simplicity of love and care from her, my Vet and those that know us. So much pain in the world, it just keeps on...a mother's fight for her son's life, another who is fighting for her own life, the loss of family and first holiday approaching. These things I know, it brings all into perspective. I walked my 3 mile walk this morning holding the "anointed" cloth in my fingers praying for so many that have touched my life, that are living and fighting through so much more than I. The simplicity of my friend at the grocery store that gave so much in my time of need. God knows when then releases his angels.
The gift from Laddie is seeing the outcome of love and support from those that love him, love us.