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Laddie's Gift

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Laddie, our first Australian Shepherd is nearing the end of his life span. We are saddened beyond words knowing that our world will soon change as we know it. Laddie, Old Man as we are so fond of calling him could have been our Rhodes Scholar, our British Humorist but has always been and still our faithful and loyal friend. I have never had the pleasure of children; the joys the challenges associated with raising a child however, I have had my "Boys" and have always been content.

The Vet told me yesterday he looks good, no pain, no discomfort, no depression, to please try more meds to see if they will help. She gave the meds to me, no charge.

I was so raw with sadness, regardless of how hard I tried I had my share of tears at Vet's, pharmacy, grocery store yesterday. Seems like anytime anyone said anything I broke down. A lady at grocery store (employee) that knows me just by my visits there (we now always hug, she then kisses me on my cheek saying I love you, God Bless You) She asked how I was and I told her briefly about our Laddie. She was quiet and then she asked me if I believed in prayer...I told her yes, I pray daily. She told me God would heal. I told her He would heal my pain but not Laddie and I started crying...good grief. As I was leaving the store she was waiting for me and walked to my car with me. When we got there I had my Boys with me...she rubbed them and talked to them then told me to wait, she had something for me. She rummaged in her purse and pulled out squares of purple cloth. She handed me two saying her priest had anointed the cloths and wanted me to have and hold while praying. I gave her one back keeping the other one thanking her telling her to hold on to the extra in case she met someone else. She took the one she gave me and rubbed it between her fingers telling me while praying I would be able to feel the anointing, the strength and the healing. I stood in that parking lot with her the whole time tears flooding down my face with such mixed emotions...for her care, concern and love and for Laddie's dwindling life.

I was and still am overwhelmed at the simplicity of love and care from her, my Vet and those that know us. So much pain in the world, it just keeps on...a mother's fight for her son's life, another who is fighting for her own life, the loss of family and first holiday approaching. These things I know, it brings all into perspective. I walked my 3 mile walk this morning holding the "anointed" cloth in my fingers praying for so many that have touched my life, that are living and fighting through so much more than I. The simplicity of my friend at the grocery store that gave so much in my time of need. God knows when then releases his angels.

The gift from Laddie is seeing the outcome of love and support from those that love him, love us.

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    Ellen...I know this comment is late in coming...but I wanted you to know that I am thinking of you...Our pets are our family too. We love them just the same (or sometimes even more) as our loved ones. We hold them close and draw comfort from them...Somehow they know when we need a little extra TLC. If I have read correctly, Laddie has passed now...My heart is with you. I know first hand how hard it is to lose such a special and valued relationship...but take comfort in knowing that Laddie was with you for Many good years...he brought you smiles, and comfort, and love unconditionally. Now you can go onto have those Many fond memories to Cherrish. I am thinking of you.

    4293 days ago
    Ellen - I am SO SORRY about your boys!!!! I went through that about 2 years ago & my heart still aches for my baby!!!! I, too, have never had children & so my boys are my life too!!!! Both are rescue & both were abused but now are the moxt loving boys anyone could ask for!!!! One does have some brain damage & issues at times & the occasional seizure, but I would not trade them for anything!!!! When I think of my Jodi dog that I lost, I often cry!! (like now!!) It is better now, but the hole is still in my heart!!!! I can't imagine how hard it must be to be losing 2 of your boys at once!!!! KNOW that you are in my prayers, as are your boys!!!! You are the kindest lady I have ever met!!!!
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    4342 days ago
    emoticon Dearest Lady, I do understand that these are very trying times for you and hubby! Please know my heart is with the you and Laddie...I pray he has no pain!

    Of course you are going to feel these things this time of year...just remember behind ever storm is a rainbow...

    Now for some good news My counts are normal and the fevers have passed for this round of chemo...see it is because of the prayers you have offered up on my behalf...PRAYER DOES WORK! we always get an answer...sometimes we might n0t understand but if we look the answer is there,

    Pleas feel the warmth of all the prayers I am saying for you and yours...
    Hugs and many warm blessings
    4355 days ago
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    Dear sweet Ellen, my heart hurts for you. You are truly one of the kindest people I know. I am so so sorry your baby is not doing well. I am so thankful God has put these wonderful people in your life at a time that you really truly needed them. You are such a great person, and are there for so many of us when we need you. I hope you always know we are here for you. You and your dear sweet Laddie will remain in my prayers.
    ~Mary Alice
    4356 days ago
    My dear Ellen,
    As I read your blog, I cried with you. I didn't want to ask about him knowing you would tell us how he was when you were ready. Know that you are in my prayers and wishing you could feel my arms around you to comfort you. Animals become a part of us and we miss them so deeply.

    What a wonderful friend that lady is and how endearing her words and expressions of love to you have been.

    My heart goes out to you dear friend.

    4356 days ago
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    Dearest Ellen.
    I wondered how Laddie was doing. I am so sorry to hear that his life will soon end.He has lived a good life, and brought much joy into your life and home.His passing will bring great grief because you will miss him. Its one of the harder parts of life. The more a friend/dear one brings into our life, the more we miss them. I still miss Hunter, Christopher's cat that went while Chris was having his tumour operation. Tears still flow, even today. There are some animals that touch our hearts so deeply.
    I am glad that you found solace in prayer, and also through sharing your sadness with a wonderful person. I too have been blessed with key people when I have needed them the most.
    You are an amazing woman Ellen
    I am thankful for you each day of my life!

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    4356 days ago
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