Beginning Again....and Again....and Again....
Sunday, December 28, 2008
I just read a blog entry from 42CREW (another SparkPeople member) entitled "Starting Over Again"....how many times have I done that? Too many to count...and that's just in the past week, LOL! But I've learned something, which is what I posted on her blog page in response to what she wrote, and that is this: EVERY day is a new start, regardless of how the previous day went. Whether we reached our daily goals or not yesterday, today is still a completely blank slate until we write upon it.
So how did I do today? It was Shabbos (Saturday, my sabbath), so there is much I didn't do, but I did eat in moderation, and I walked to and from shul (synagogue) with my husband. :-) The cool thing about that was that *I* had to slow down for *him* for a change...I had so much energy I felt like jogging!!!
Did I reach all my goals today? No, after lunch it was zzzzzzz time for me, so I didn't take the long walk I had intended...but I did SOMETHING, at least! And that's my true goal...to do something each day, not to just let the days without exercise pile up and pile up. Even if it isn't huge -- I don't plan to run a marathon anytime real soon -- but each little action (taking the stairs instead of the elevator, parking a little further from the door than strictly necessary) adds up, just as doing the *opposite* actions (or, rather, inactions) has added up through the years. I haven't lost a huge amount of weight yet, but I have noticed a marked improvement in my energy level...I'm expecting a snowball effect. As the little things add up and increase my energy level, I'll have the strength and energy to do bigger things, which will in turn increase my strength and energy, and then I'll...you get the picture. But, even with the cumulative effect, each day is STILL a fresh start. I can't rest on my laurels and say "well, yesterday I took the stairs, so today I'm going to eat a pint of ice cream and not move off this couch!" Nor will I say "well, yesterday I slept half the day, so I guess I should do the same today..." Nope. Success or failure yesterday has no bearing on today. Today is its own creation.
In the Judeo-Christian tradition, we believe that G-d created the world in 7 days. What if He had said "well, yesterday I did a GREAT job creating penguins and peacocks, and all those other birds...whew! That was a great idea I had about those hollow bones! And the feathers -- now THAT was a lot of detailed work! I think I'll just rest on my laurels and not do any more." Luckily for us, He didn't quit until He reached his goal of creating the whole world, plus mankind! Yes, he did finally "rest," as we all must, but even now He doesn't stop creating and recreating and sustaining the world. So part of my goal, part of why I'm not giving up, is because as a Jew I am commanded to emulate G-d. He doesn't give up on mankind, even in the face of so many wars, sins, and atrocities against each other and against Him, so how could I give up on myself?
Starting over...sounds good to me. I'm going to sleep soon, and when I wake up, I'll be starting over too, just like everyone else, every day.