Friday, May 01, 2009
I lost control last night. I ate compulsively, like an alcoholic. I shoved food down my throat in an effort to quiet the stress and pain that was inflicting my life. I did not honor myself, my soul, my body. I didn't care....I just binged until I crawled into bed last night.
Help me, Heavenly Father, to break this chain that is wrapped around me. Help me to find the key that will open the door to health, to peace, to happiness. Help me to love myself enough to honor my body, my physical health. Help me to see my own worth to this world, to my loved ones, to myself.
Help me to see the adventure in this life and not be overwhelmed with the challenges. Show me, Heavenly Father, how to cope and overcome without the numbing insanity of compulsive eating.
Show me the beauty....of my soul, of my smile, of my life...that can be achieved with healthy choices, healthy attitude and a self-loving, self-honoring disposition. Show me how much more I can give back to this world; to my loved ones with a healthy body and mind.
This is my journey, Heavenly Father, and I am struggling. I need you to open my eyes; to help me believe with all my heart and soul that I am worth it; and to remind me that the strength is there, has been there all along just inside my soul.
Moment by moment; choice by choice.