Saturday, May 02, 2009
I think I am done now punishing myself for things that I never had any control of and things I might have done that I had control of but cant change now.
Beating myself up and self punishment are not helping me and only causing me more problems. I am going to stop doing this today!
It sounds so simple but its very hard. I am great at it and have been doing it for years. I don't think I need to do it anymore, I have suffered at my own hand long enough.
Maybe now, I can begin to really lose the weight and change my life for the better. We will see in time.