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Big day tomorrow...

Monday, June 15, 2009

I am meeting with the surgeon tomorrow and I have mixed feelings about it. On one hand, it is the next step toward getting well -- and I WILL BE WELL. On the other hand, it is one step closer to surgery. I've never had major surgery and don't look forward to it. It was weird enough when they put my port in under "twilight sleep." I woke up so goofy and stupefied that, even though I was starving, I HAD to take a walk (IV pole and all) just to make sure I was still alive!

My surgeon is a wonderful, personable man who, during my first visit, made me feel very much at ease. He treated me like a person -- in fact, like a person he wanted to get to know. He doesn't make me nervous; the surgery most certainly does. Just thinking about having part of my body removed... I want this cancer gone, but the closer I get to the actual date, the more it terrifies me.
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    Dawn how did everything go? When is the surgery? I am glad you have a great surgeon. That helps so much. Call me!

    I am going to Tallahassee today with Robyn. Miss you!
    4149 days ago

    Comment edited on: 6/18/2009 7:02:57 AM
  • no profile photo CD4533375
    It is scary but it sounds like you got one of the good surgeons who is willing to work with you and help ease whatever fears you have. Take advantage of that. Ask lots of questions. No matter how big or small it may seem. Knowing what's going to happen, Having those questions answered will help you control the fears. Your imagination won't be able to make things up on you if you have real facts. And of course, we are here for you too. emoticon
    4150 days ago
    I am holding you up in prayer...hold firm to the truth that God is in control & He is our protector! emoticon
    4151 days ago
    emoticon Keeping you in my prayers! I remember that feeling, I was nervous about it, yet wanting to get it over with too, I was like "hurry up and wait". After I had the pre-surgery appointment with my surgeon, I then met with the nurse in his office. She was wonderful! She talked me through everything, answered all my questions, and sent me home with a lot of stuff to read. It really helped me to prepare and be able to relax a little.

    4151 days ago
    Sending you blessings and a mountain of hope. Have a great and successful day.
    4151 days ago
  • DEUCE119
    Been there and done that so many times. I don't think I have ever been scared that bad, but we all are different. I wish you luck and we are all here when you feel you need to talk to someone. Just ask as many questions as you feel you need to. I was bad about that, but the doctors will usually try to make you feel at ease. Hugs!!
    4151 days ago
    Still here... hoping all goes well.


    your friend julie
    4151 days ago
    Walking into something you have never before experienced will, no doubt, cause feelings of uncertainty and perhaps fear. The good news is that surgery is actually rather easy. The part before when you are laying on a table, waiting to be brought to the surgery room can be stressful because waiting is always stressful. Once you get in to the surgery suite, you will probably be sleeping within seconds and the next thing you will know will be waking up in recovery.

    I actually like the feeling of falling asleep under anesthesia. Perhaps I'm weird but it feel safe and comfortable to me. Waking up, you may feel disoriented, perhaps you will feel pain but all of those discomforts can and should be managed with medications.

    Spend all of the time you need talking to the surgeon. Share your fears. Surgeons are used to working with frightened patients and will no doubt do all they can to ease your fears. The day of surgery, if not before, you will have time to talk with the anesthesiologist. You should share your fears with that person as well. They can do much to make the experience easy and comfortable for you.

    When the surgery date comes, tell your friends. They will be supporting you in thoughts and prayers and some will hopefully be in the waiting room waiting to come support you in recovery as soon as they are able. I know you will do fine. And your feelings are certainly normal. Big Cyber Hugs!!!
    4152 days ago
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