Big day tomorrow...
Monday, June 15, 2009
I am meeting with the surgeon tomorrow and I have mixed feelings about it. On one hand, it is the next step toward getting well -- and I WILL BE WELL. On the other hand, it is one step closer to surgery. I've never had major surgery and don't look forward to it. It was weird enough when they put my port in under "twilight sleep." I woke up so goofy and stupefied that, even though I was starving, I HAD to take a walk (IV pole and all) just to make sure I was still alive!
My surgeon is a wonderful, personable man who, during my first visit, made me feel very much at ease. He treated me like a person -- in fact, like a person he wanted to get to know. He doesn't make me nervous; the surgery most certainly does. Just thinking about having part of my body removed... I want this cancer gone, but the closer I get to the actual date, the more it terrifies me.