Monday, June 15, 2009
I'm back. It's been awhile and I've gained back some pounds, but I'm back. A lot of things have happened, I've changed jobs, I've finished another quarter of school, I've got a beautiful new granddaughter, and once again I am reminded that I've got to get in shape. I need to be healthy to enjoy my grandchildren and to pursue this second career that I want.
Being forced into my new job was very stressful, so how did I deal with it? I ate. Going to school is very stressful...I eat, having a new grandbaby was cause for celebration... I eat. I need to find ways to deal with stress, joy, and any other emotion I'm feeling other than eating.
It was so easy to slip back into my old habits, reward myself with brownies and cake, tell myself I'm so tired I can skip the exercise today. I've got to get back in control, or I'm going to be worse than ever. It's so hard to start over, to admit I messed up, to admit I'm weak. The hardest part is finding the time. I'm on break from school right now until July 8, but once I start back it's going to get hard again. I have to be accountable and I know that SparkPeople works for me if I put forth the effort. I guess I just got tired...or lazy. Today I start over!