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Monday, June 22, 2009

A while back I wrote a blog about the fear of 35. No, not age 35, but an irrational fear of getting to 35 pounds lost. To recap - I have gotten to that 35 pound mark quite a few times over the last 6 ot 7 years - but always stopped there. So, for some strange reason, I had this weird mental block about getting past 35 pounds. Somehow I knew I'd be fine cuz this time it's different. I got all kinds of encouragement and suggestions from Sparkies and it was all confirming what I already knew - the ability to move on is just in my head - 35 is only a number. I passed 35 a couple weeks ago, but wanted to wait until I was a pretty good amount past it to blog about it.

On friday my "official" (according to my home scale) weight was 264 - 39 pounds down from my highest weight of 303. Now that I am past the elusive 36 I am fine. I am eagerly looking forward to 40, 45, 50, etc.

In other news - this past weekend I did some fun things that I knew were going to require me to eat some food that I wouldn't normally eat (as if I didn't have an option, lol). Some traditional Polish food was the main one I was afraid of. Did I eat too much? Maybe, but not NEARLY as much as I would have eaten in the past. I left food on my plate, I shared without having a problem (I had sharing issues before - wanting the biggest piece, etc) and though I thought about dessert a couple times, I didn't have any. I also maintained self-control yesterday when I declined on the chips and soda and had a tiny piece of cake and no seconds. Last night for dinner I had two small pieces of pizza and didn't go back for more. Yes, I ate one too many yummy muffins, but otherwise, I'd call this weekend a success. Did I eat perfectly? No. Did I expect to? No. Am I okay with that? Yes, I am.

Also - I am hoping that I didn't mess up somewhere. On friday when I did 3.1 miles on the treadmill my time was 45:05. Today I decided to run on the track (which does have just a bit of up and downs instead being totally flat). I had to count. 13 times around the track equals one mile. So I counted. 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 1, 2, 2, 2, 2, 2, 2, 2, 3, 3, 3, 3, 3, 3, 3, 3 - I think you get the point. It would have been funny if people could have seen in my head. i have SUCH a bad memory (side effect of anti-seizure meds) that if I didn't say the number over and over in my head all the way around the track I would not remember it when I got back to the beginning. So, I am pretty confident that I got it right. And I did go the extra lap and a third required to finish the .10 mile in the 3.1 miles. So what was my finish time? 38:20. What? From 45:05? Can that be possible? I still haven't let myself really celebrate cuz I keep feeling I did something wrong. But I counted it all out! And I don't think I made a mistake. How could I have run so much faster on the track than the treadmill? Anyone else have this experience?

And lastly - one of the most exciting things about my weekend is the arrival of my new puppy. He's four months old and only about 2.5 pounds. He won't get much bigger (only supposed to get up to about 3 pounds). He's a Pomeranian and a very rare one at that because of his size and the fact that he's all chocolate - not a common thing with Poms. Only problem is that we've had such a hard time with a name. My hubby wanted Uncle Rico (from Napoleon Dynamite) or Brauny (after Brewers' player Ryan Braun) but I was NOT happy with those. My daughter wanted Cupcake, Muffin or Brownie. Um, nope. My son suggested Barf, Darth Vader, Nacho and Taco (and we have frogs named Meatball and French Fry - what's with the food obsession, lol?). I had a few suggestions like Toby, Cody, Samson (would call him Sammy) - but mine were all shot down. So, yesterday he was running around my grandparents' yard and he came in the house and snuggled right into a towel and I said, "Aw, he's all tuckered out." My cousin Alex said, "Tucker is cute!" And everyone at the table was agreeing and giving Tucker their vote. Hubby agreed. So, I introduce to you - the tiniest Pomeranian I have ever seen - Tucker!!!

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    Awww, Tucker is really cute!!! :) LOVE the name!

    Woo hoo on the 39 pounds lost and the shortened time on running. Wonder if you ran faster because you were so focused on counting your 1,1,1,1,2,2,2,2,3,3,3,3,4,4,4,4 etc....??? I bet you really DID run it in less time....

    4231 days ago
    You are doing great! I also think I run slower on the treadmill for some reason.

    Tucker is adorable. Give him a big hug from me.

    Congratulations on your weight loss and on being in control of your eating. Way to go!!!!

    4231 days ago
    Tucker is adorable! Give him a scratch behind the ears for me.

    It sounds like you had a really successful weekend. I know that's your biggest challenge - weekends - and it sounds like you really beat it! Congratulations!

    And congratulations on busting through the 35 lb mark! You're a winner and you're going to make your goal in no time! And I'm lucky enough to be able to be here and cheer you on! Whoo-hoo!!! Go Go Go!!!
    4232 days ago
    Sounds like some outstanding progress is being made on your end. Keep up the great lifestyle. It is going to take some getting used to, but it will be worth it.

    I know that when I walk outside, it's much easier and I move at a little faster pace than on the treadmill. I think it has to do with getting bored. I can very seldom go for more than 10 minutes on the treadmill.

    The puppy is adorable. Tucker seems to fit.

    4232 days ago
    Hey! Both the boys are adorable! Congrats on 39!!!
    4232 days ago
    First off, congrats on passing the 35 pd mental block! Its a huge thing! I wanted to comment about your run around the track. I have been using the treadmill for some time now and noticed it would take almost an hour for me to do 3.5 miles. I kept my speed low and did intervals of walking and light jogging. But I noticed I was walking faster than the tread itself was going, so i wondered if I was really walking faster than the treadmill said. So a couple weekends ago, I did a 3.1 mile walk on a bike trail. I was nervous that it would take an hour, but I did it in 45 mins! At that point I knew that the treadmill distance wasnt as accurate...at least to me that seemed right. Some people's strides are longer than others...and they might be more equal to the treadmill. SOOO...dont doubt your counting...I'm positive you did it faster actually going somewhere than the machine. Good Luck with your training! And congrats on the new addition...he's so cute!!!
    4232 days ago
    Awesome blog!!! So much to celebrate emoticon I hope you feel as proud as you should feel! And Tucker is absolutely precious!
    4232 days ago
    Tucker is very cute!!!
    4232 days ago
    Maybe you ran faster on the track because you were actually like.. going somewhere, you know what I mean? Good job! and tiny dogs freak me out but that one's cute!

    4232 days ago
    emoticon emoticon emoticon Girl you are doing this!! You've gotten past the dreaded 35 and are gonna keep the scales moving down I'm sooo proud of you and want you to know that I know that you've helped keep me focused the past week or so getting to know you and I know I'm gonna get past my 199!!! Let's do it together!!

    I love your dog he's sooo super cute!! And I love the name too! I can't help you with the running thing I'm a park walker and Leslie Sanson fanatic so she does the work for me! lol!!

    And as for this weekend you know what your doing and your being responsible it's ok to enjoy what you like just in moderation!!

    Let's go Tiger!! You are mighty!! Let me hear your ROARRR!!
    4232 days ago
  • no profile photo ROBLAINE1
    WOW! Congratulations on passing 35....39 is awesome!! You are doing a great job.
    I love Tucker...he's adorable..I showed his pic to my "kids" and they said HI!
    They are Tigger (rat terrier), Thistle (Catahoula), Ben (Bengal cat), Friday (orange kittie), Carrigan (Bengal 1/2 breed) and Fagan (Bengal 1/2 breed..same litter as Carrigan) Actually Carrigan and Fagan have the same mother as Ben...but different Daddy.
    Anyhow, keep us posted on 40-45-50 however far you want to go.
    4232 days ago
  • TRICIA0623
    Great job getting past your 35 block! & welcome to Tucker..what a cutie!
    4232 days ago
    Yay, keep on going. you are doing great. And about the dog, too cute! I love the name. emoticon
    4233 days ago
    Cuuute doggy. When I'm running around the track I'm thinking -- This is lap 5, next is lap 6, this is 5, next is 6, 5 then 6 5 then 6, Then I'm like DONE WITH 5!!! This is 6, next is 7... hahahahahaha :D
    4233 days ago
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