Michlow on a healthy lifestyle....
Monday, August 14, 2006
I wrote this to my buddies and decided I should post it in my journal (I am sure I will need to reread it myself many times!)
My perfectionist tendencies are the way that I cope with my huge inadequacy complex! Like if I do things absolutely perfect no one will be able to see what an absolute "loser" I am.
The things that I can't do well, I just avoid. Yep! I am a hider too. One example is my house. My husband is a slob, and there are not enough hours in the day for me to counter his complete slobbiness. So I avoid socialization. If I was social, people might want to come to my house and they always say that a woman's house is a reflection of her.
I have always been one to go "all out" when I want something. The problem is that after awhile I usually get tired, and give up...not because I can't do it, but because I suddenly don't want to anymore.
I will admit that for the past 2 1/2 months, I have been fearing the moment when that day would come. I so badly want this time to be different. And honestly though it seems like a jinx to say it outloud, I DO feel differently this time.
In one respect I have started to view exercise and healthy eating as just another "given" of life. In some ways like a chore or a duty.
It's like cleaning the toilet. Which is a job I think everyone dislikes. And yet, it is possible to get some satisfaction from such a task. Because I like having a bathroom that smells nice and that is sanitary.
I don't always enjoy my exercise, but I like:
* How I feel afterwards
* How it helps my weight loss
* The extra energy
* The extra inches lost!
* Not getting winded while shopping (Or just walking into the store from my car!)
I don't always like eating "healthy" but I like:
* The weight loss!
* That I have more energy!
* That I feel better!
* No More gallbladder pain!
* Less lower back pain
* Less breathing problems (asthma)
You know those mornings when the alarm clock goes off, and you would give anything to be able to stay in bed and not have to go to work? But there are bills to pay and so you drag yourself out of bed and go anyway?
Why? You do it for the greater good. (A paycheck is ultimately worth more than a day off)
Yes, there are days that you give in to temptation and call in sick, but you don't stop working indefinately, the next day, you get up, go to work, and usually have to work twice as hard to make up for your day off.
I guess what I am trying to say, is that the change in me, is that I now see that living a healthy lifestyle is no different than any other responsbility in life.