Sunday, October 11, 2009
Well here I am again- I have had a lot going in my life- my sister had ovarian cancer - got a total hysterectomy and recuperated at my house- I was so glad I was able to take care of her- we went through her chemo sessions and she is done with them- this was over in May- but again in September she had a gall bladder operation and the doctor noticed her liver had ciserosis (not from drinking but a fatty liver they call it - from eating bad, fatty foods. I was totally upset knowing the liver cannot heal itself - the only way is getting a liver transplant- she has recovered from her operation and went back to the doctor- she MUST change her eating habits and eat a lot better- doctor wants her to lose weight and change her life style to a healthier one. This again has opened my eyes thinking if she has a bad liver (which she had no symptoms of this) I might also growing up with bad eating habits- large portions- so now I am going to the doctor to get myself checked with all the test I can think of- and start now before it is too late for myself. I have gotten back on track with Sparks - I have to start logging things in again - got back to my water -10 a day serve my dinner on a small dinner plate- and really watch what I eat- although I still need help with my decisions- yesterday I ate oatmeal for breakfast, ate a pear, had my water, but in the afternoon ate Asian food but white rice - which I know is very bad for you yet still ate it and later ate a whole bag of graham crackers!!!! I hate that I did that and its because I knew they were there in the cupboard and when I know we have things like that it stays in the back of my mind! I was craving sweets-they were the cinnamon kind- now see just writing this down I can think of a lot of things I should have done instead of reaching for those crackers- I should have gotten up from watching tv and started doing something else to keep my mind off of them or went outside for a walk all kinds of things I could have done but not one thing came into my mind at that moment except to eat those crackers- well I guess that's how we learn from our mistakes- this is fresh in my mind right now so hopefully I will remember what to do if I get another craving. I think keeping busy is the key to things yet I still love to relax from the week. Well so far so good but its only 11:14am - should go out and walk to start- its totally nice weather for a good walk. I thinks I should get up away from the computer and go!