Shedding some of my responsibilities
Wednesday, December 09, 2009
Since my fall 7 weeks ago, I have come to realize how much I owe to myself to finish this journey and give myself time to do things that I enjoy.
I hae moved Falcao down to Sonoita, and this means a minimum of a half day each time I go down to ride. THis cuts down on my computer time. But we are both very happy down there, and there is even room for us to take a trail ride whenever we want without trailering somewhere. There is a mirror at the end of the arena so that I can check myself as I ride and improve.
I am resigning as leader of my 50+ team. I am sad to say that I cannot devote the time to this wonderful team that they deserve. I have been MIA a lot lately due to a computer crash and the change in barns.
I feel better knowing that I now have time to do what I need to do without the guild of knowing I am neglecting a section of my responsibilities.
My eating habits have changed drastically. I have noticed that in the last couple of weeks. I am not eating to be eating, and am getting picky in what I will eat. If I don't want anything that's available for a meal, I won't eat, and will find something I want or is more suitable. This is a HUGE change from "It's noon, it's time to eat!" point of view. I am also beginning to see this person in some mirrors that I don't always recognize as me. It's cool.
I am continuing to work out, ride, and quilt. It's almost time to drive to Sonoita for a ride. It'll be chilly, but a lot of fun. We're headed into a 5-day riding clinic this weekend, and I can guarantee you that Falcao and I will be puddles by the time it's over. We'll both need time off!
Take care my friends. There is no harm in putting yourself first. There is not harm in proritizing your responsibilities, and shedding some to give yourself time to maintain a beautiful you. THIS has been the hardest lesson to learn.
I am staying with SP, but only as a regular member like most of you. Thanks, y'all for your support so far!!!