Friday, December 11, 2009
When my son was 16 he had the opportunity to go to Thailand on a missions trip. I was so excited for him, he is great guy and this would be an opportunity of a life time. I was also fighting my fears for him, actually my fears for me. What if something happened to the plane? What if he got sick? What if he got lost? What if he got hurt? I love him dearly and would never want him to be hurt or ill, but truth be told I was afraid for me. How would I ever forgive myself if something happened to him. How would I ever live if I lost him. I held these fears in my heart and only shared thoughts of joy and excitement with my son. As the weeks went by in preparation for his trip, I began dealing with my fears one by one. I realized that if I allowed my fears to continue to grow I would be paralyzed and it would prevent me from fully enjoying this moment with my son. Furthermore, I wanted him to LIVE passionately in his life. I didn't want him to feel insecure or overly cautious. I wanted him to explore and challenge himself.
I knew who he was, the character of his soul, the integrity of his life, the depth of the passion in his heart. I could not hold this young man 'at port' any longer. He was created to do great things and if I continued to harbor fears, I would be the anchor that kept him in the harbor, close to shore. I wanted him to be free to unfurl his sails and feel the fullness of what it is to live a life of passion.
I spent the next couple weeks praying for him and me. I so wanted for him and for me all the wonderful things that this experience could offer. As I packed his bag, I tucked little cards in his pockets and in his Bible that had affirmations, words of love and prayers on them. These little affirmations where for him as well as they were for me. One of the quotes I put in his suitcase was "A ship at port is safe, but that is not what ships are built for." It was time to cut lose the moorings and sit in awe as this beautiful ship set sail.
So, my question is, what is fear holding you back from experiencing? What would your life be like if you were living in the fullness of the passion you were created for? What would your life be like if you truly believed, that when those ropes that keep you safely at port loosen and allow you slip out of dock, you will be magnificent. You will be in uncharted waters, there may be choppy waves, there may be smooth sailing, there may be moments when you wonder why you didn't just stay in port safely. For me, I will choose to unfurl my sail, head out into the open waters and live with passion.