Off the Wagon and Under the Bus!
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
Just when I thought I was doing sooooo good resisting temptations and allowing myself some planned indulgences with moderation. Even with my planning, I have had a horrible time getting in my exercise minutes because of one event or another. I have a great day of sticking to my clean whole foods and feel great, followed by a banquet, dinner, etc. I have a day of fabulous cardio and weight lifting followed by two days of not be able to get more than 10 minutes in. I want my schedule back! I want my menus! My workouts! My routine! I have lost and gained and hovered around the same weight since Thanksgiving morning! Enough! Enough!
Last night was the last big test of my will and I failed miserably! Our Bible study group had it's annual Christmas dinner. Prime Rib! I made excellent dinner choices. Passed on the rolls, butter, corn pudding. I did have some sweet potato supreme and the beautifully done prime rib. Didn't over indulge in either. The cheese and crackers . . . I did okay . . . it was baked brie with pecans! yummo! And I should have stopped there. I would have been fine if I had just stopped there.
After the white elephant gift exchange, out came the desserts! ((bowing my head in shame)). Peanut Butter Pie and Chocolate Mint Brownies. Why? Oh, why did I give into these sweets? I really have not been craving sweets. I really was not hungry or even tempted. Actually, I didn't even question myself as to whether I should have some or not. I just ate it. No thinking involved. Half way through the pie I started feeling gross. Because I had over eaten, the joy of the goodness of the foods was gone. I had killed the good food buzz.
When I got home I was miserable, tired, and bloated. I decided the best thing to do at this point was to have some water with lemon and get a little bit of a workout in. Just a little movement to help digestion get started and to relieve some of the bloat. I played on the Wii Fit for about 20 minutes, did 50 jumping jacks and drank two large glasses of water. It did help me feel a little more comfortable.
I woke up this morning with a sugar hangover! Oh, my! I haven't had much sugar or processed food in months! And I way over did it last night. My head aches, I have puffy dark circles under my eyes! Why did I do that? What was I thinking?
At any rate, it is done. Today is a new day, hopefully I am wiser in the future and atleast pause to 'think' about my choices and the consequences! Hopefully I will remember what it feels like the next day. I do feel like I have been hit by a bus! But I will not allow feelings of guilt or shame guide me in my choices today. Today I chose to healthy. Today I packed all my good clean whole foods. Today I am meeting my workout buddy at the gym to weight lift. Today I am running week 9 day 1 of my c25k program. Today I start again, working for the health I want to experience tomorrow!
Food for 2 week challenge:
Steel Cut Oats
Banana/walnuts/semi sweet chocolate chips
Homemade soup - Swiss Chard/Fresh Tomato/Garlic Chicken Sausage/Black Beans
1 oz Cranberry Chevre Cheese
Pecan Nut Mix
1 oz. Baked Brie w/pecans & brown sugar
6 Triscit Crackers
4 oz Prime Rib
1 cup Sweet Potato Supreme Casserole
1/2 Slice Peanut Butter Pie
1 Chocolate Mint Brown
I went 200 calories over my plan today. I was WAY over the sodium allotment for the day. I only got 20 minutes of activity in. I did stick to drinking only water all day. I'm back on track today, trying to shake off this sugar and sodium hangover!