Where the heck have you been?
Tuesday, January 05, 2010
I've been totally MIA, so I thought I needed to explain myself. I took 2+ weeks over the holiday. I went up to Dallas & spent time with the family. It was a great Christmas & New Year (I got a nano & a bodybugg from the hubby). My plan was to live like my dog (long story see previous post if your really dying to know), and I did except for the healthy eating part. There were nothing but chalk lines around fruit vegetables. Meat, potatoes, bread, and sweets tried to blend into the crowd that had gathered to see the aftermath! I also accidently left my my blood pressure meds at home (stupid).
Before the holiday my last official pre holiday weigh in was 237.4. I got home Saturday afternoon and immediately went to pay pennance to the scale. I know you shouldn't weigh at night, but I couldn't resist. It read 255.8!
That's not a typo! That's 18.4 pounds higher!!!!!!!
I really wanted to cry but decided I didn't deserve any tears because I knew exactly what I was doing when I did it. I made the choice and now I had to pay the piper (that piper is a greedy man).
I also knew that I was retaining some serious fluid (I had the ankles to prove it). I took my BP meds and weighed in at 250.8 the next day. Which is still up 13.4 lbs. I shamefully updated my spark ticker w/ my new weight.
I still ate pretty crappy on sunday, but at least I tracked my food. Yesterday I got back into calorie range and hit the gym (I also worked out over the holidays, but clearly not enough).
I weigh every morning as part of my deficit tracking (but official wiegh-ins aren't until sunday). I guess most of the pounds were water cause I'm down to 242 this AM (4.6 over my last official #). 4.6 is totally not okay but way better than 18.
I'm sure I'll spend the next 2 wks getting back to where I was. I know I have to find a way to vacation sensibly. If the junk food is there I can't seem to stop myself from eating it. Moderation doesn't work either. It's like once I get the sugar going the flood gates open & I get swept away. My mom made the best cream cheese pound cake I've ever had. She made it in bundt pan and the bottom got golden and crunchy while the cake was oh so yummy & buttery. I think I ate over half of it over 3 days. I couldn't just have a piece noooo, had to eat it until it was gone.
I clearly don't have this food thing under control yet. I'm going to keep trying though. I may have to become a hermit... divorce my friends/family... order my groceries online (so I never even have to walk past the bakery section). I'm just kidding...mostly! :)