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Thursday, January 07, 2010

I don't know about anyone else, but for me losing wt is scary. There is a show on TLC called "One Big Happy Family". The entire family is 300+ lbs and is starting on their journey to lose wt and get healthy. Anyway, the 16y.o. daughter said it best when she commented, "I've always been a big girl, thats all I know how to be. Changing is scary" (something to that effect anyway). The point is, my fear is what is holding me back. I have been overwt my entire life, I don't know anything else. Its scary to think that I could be any other way. Its scary to try to be anything but a "big girl". Then I heard a comment by the greatest trainer in the world, Jillian Michaels (I love her, I need her to kick MY butt every week!). She said, "Feel the fear, work through it, and do it anyway." So that is my new mantra. Every time I start to think that I can't do this or that I am afraid to try I need to remember those words.
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  • CHELSEASEAS
    Colitis should be your very first and foremost reason, I know for me, when things get hard and I want to throw in the towel I look up information on my medical issues and it reminds me to stay focused. Change IS hard, even good change, because you will find that people treat you differently and although it's good, it has a pendulum. I think that when you lose weight slowly it's easier because you adjust slowly..you will be good your a strong woman, I can tell!!!
    4064 days ago
  • GONNALUVME2
    I want to lose wt b/c I want to be healthy and I want to be able to say that I love my body. There is high blood pressure, high cholesterol, heart disease, and diabetes in my family history and I have recently been diagnosed with colitis. So health wise there is a lot at stake for me. I want to be able to see my kids grow up and see my grandkids one day and not be on a ton of meds. As far as loving my body, I wuold like to be able to put on a bathing suit and not feel ashamed. Thats not something I've ever been able to do before.

    I can relate to the big girl/skinny girl thing. I am a 16/18 right now and whether I'm in the plus size or the regular sizes I always get condescending looks. Its tough being in the middle size wise. As far as men...my DH met me at my current wt and even at my heaviest he never once said that I should lose wt. Even today he said, "I love you the way you are, I don't care if you lose wt or not" so thankfully the men are not an issue for me.
    4069 days ago
  • WANNABTHIN2010
    yeah i so agree with you. i have lost alot of weight once. and it is very scary. for me i was so used to the big sizes. in fact one day at work i was headed downstairs and another co worker was walking up the stairs and i waited for him to come up and he was blown away why i wasnt going down. its just something we need to adjust to. but also i love jillian michaels also. keep up the great work. melanie
    4069 days ago
  • CHELSEASEAS
    When I went from a size 20 to a size 12..what I recall is...Skinny Girls acknowledged that I exsisted, as did men. The heavy set girls looked at me like I was better then them. Gaining it all back, I'm what as an adult (sadly) I am more use to. Skinny Girls don't talk to you as much and bigger girls are your best friends and men, not so much. NOW...I am NOT JUDGING all skinny OR all heavy woman OR men, I am just saying my OWN personal reflection. Which leads me to this..........""""I have to do this for ME..MY HEALTH, not for anyone else's impressions, JUST ME!""""

    so ask yourself honestly....WHY DO YOU WANT TO LOSE WEIGHT?
    4069 days ago
  • DURWOOD1989
    I love Jillian too. She always says some great things! I am with you on always being a big girl and not knowing how to be any other way! It's hard and i am just starting this treck and it's just gonna get harder for me! I hope you have success in your weight loss!
    4069 days ago

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