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Hallucinations, Hospice & healthy eating!

Saturday, January 16, 2010

My 92 yr old dad went to ER twice last week by ambulance. Then he had a minor back surgery involving anesthesia which resulted in hallucinations and disorientation. He thought I was a friend of my deceased mother. And he urged me to close the door before all the antelope escaped. And he spent an hour picking up non-existent pills off his blanket.

Have you heard of "sundowners' hallucinations? For some reason, patients become more agitated & confused around sundown. My dad was a rancher for 70 yrs. At sundown today, he asked me to do him a favor. He said that he'd moved some of the cows before lunch, but there were still a few that needed moving. Would I do it? I said, "Sure." And grateful for a break, went out and bought a fat-free yogurt, thinking he'd have forgotten the whole thing when I returned. As I came in, he wanted a complete report on the cattle and where I'd moved them. Just call me "Pinocchio"; I gave him a detailed report.

We're both bunking at Hospice Center (me--temporarily; Dad--permanently). Before coming here, I set high goals for NO emotional eating. My visits to my parents and the big city & eating out 3 times/daily have caused me grief for 30 years. I had a weak moment yesterday after appt. to make pre-funeral arrangements & choosing his casket (Score: Dairy Queen customer1; Nancy: 280 calories). DH came to visit us from CO and I slept in a real bed. We were too late for a healthy lunch before a movie, so he suggested getting something on the run from DQ (drat). He also brought a small box of Valentine's chocolates for me as a "treat". I tucked it (unopened) into his suitcase for a ride back home. He re-tucked it back into my suitcase. I'm not removing the cellophane from the box. If I do, it will be devoured in one sitting.

After returning from the hospital, I walked the mall one night & around Lowe's the next night to reach my 10,000 daily steps. The next 2 days I was too tired after emptying his apt. & moving him, and caring for him.

I've worked too hard this week to blow it now...and if I ever start with sugar, I'm dead meat! Have a few more days ahead of me to stay strong. I'm reading The Spark in my spare minutes and it's very inspirational. Great book!

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    It's so hard to be strong when you're dealing with such emotional issues. But you're doing great! You could give the chocolates to one of your favorite nurses...they would be trouble for me too.

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    3936 days ago
    What you've written brings back some really horrible memories for me with my Dad. He was only 75 when he had his first brain surgery but after that he had horrible dilirium for months ... hallucinations, sundowning, everything. At first, right after the operation it was funny. but as it continued it got really scary and sad.

    I know too how horrible it is picking caskets, etc. but I'm so impressed with your strength and determination. Take care of yourself, like you've been doing and God bless you.

    My thoughts, prayers and love is with you, my friend.
    3937 days ago
  • KELLEY106
    My heart is with you and my prayers
    3937 days ago
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