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Sunday, January 17, 2010

I can't move past the anger. I am still 217. 2 weeks now..oh wait...216.6. This is why I end up saying F**** it. I have drank water, I have ate great...and no I haven't worked out every day, this week has been a spinal trainwreck. I worked out 1 time. I am just so angry. It's not fair. What in the He!! do I need to do to lose this weight?

I had ONE off day, yesterday. Yesterday was the first day I did NOT track my food.

My off feeling started on Friday when I went out to eat with my husband. Had a small side salad and 3oz of Sashimi (raw fish, NO RICE). I had 1 diet pop. The same day I bought a diet pop and had little water, yesterday I went to a party and had 2 Coke Zeros, 3 taquito appetizers and 3 of these crescent pin wheels and tons of vegies. I drank 6 - 8 oz of water. So, wow, in 3 weeks I have had 1 off day. It's not like I went to McDonald in the morning, Taco Bell for lunch and a grad party that night. I mean. COME ON. WHEN IS THIS GOING TO END???

I am so angry I am near shut down mode. Yesterday I didn't blog, I checked emails and then left. I just am trying not to shut down.

Friday I woke up to shooting pains in my thoracic spine. I ended up eating painkillers and Aleve and muscle relaxers like candy pills.

I just want to cry. Why is this so hard. Not even a pound down? I mean .5 is it? Last week nothing? I typically top out at 12 to 16 - 8oz waters. Look at my nutritional tracker, it speaks for itself.

I'm tired, I'm in pain and frankly this is the day where I just don't feel like trying.

Oh, did I mention I have made 2 cakes this week and ate NONE.

this sucks.
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  • NSIMON116
    Okay... I hear your frustration and i am telling you, everybody who has ever tried to lose weight has been where you are. Curse and get bad and then keep doing what you are doing because the scale is only 1 measurement. I am positive that internally your body is so happy that you have treated it so well this week.
    I started at 186lbs and for me to lose 6 pounds to get out of the 180s took 8 weeks! Please don't give up, please...it is so worth it... you are so worth it.
    I tell you no lie... getting healthy is the hardest thing to do. emoticon
    4066 days ago
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