Sunday, January 17, 2010
I can't move past the anger. I am still 217. 2 weeks now..oh wait...216.6. This is why I end up saying F**** it. I have drank water, I have ate great...and no I haven't worked out every day, this week has been a spinal trainwreck. I worked out 1 time. I am just so angry. It's not fair. What in the He!! do I need to do to lose this weight?
I had ONE off day, yesterday. Yesterday was the first day I did NOT track my food.
My off feeling started on Friday when I went out to eat with my husband. Had a small side salad and 3oz of Sashimi (raw fish, NO RICE). I had 1 diet pop. The same day I bought a diet pop and had little water, yesterday I went to a party and had 2 Coke Zeros, 3 taquito appetizers and 3 of these crescent pin wheels and tons of vegies. I drank 6 - 8 oz of water. So, wow, in 3 weeks I have had 1 off day. It's not like I went to McDonald in the morning, Taco Bell for lunch and a grad party that night. I mean. COME ON. WHEN IS THIS GOING TO END???
I am so angry I am near shut down mode. Yesterday I didn't blog, I checked emails and then left. I just am trying not to shut down.
Friday I woke up to shooting pains in my thoracic spine. I ended up eating painkillers and Aleve and muscle relaxers like candy pills.
I just want to cry. Why is this so hard. Not even a pound down? I mean .5 is it? Last week nothing? I typically top out at 12 to 16 - 8oz waters. Look at my nutritional tracker, it speaks for itself.
I'm tired, I'm in pain and frankly this is the day where I just don't feel like trying.
Oh, did I mention I have made 2 cakes this week and ate NONE.