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Am I fat and other thoughts

Sunday, January 31, 2010

I can't believe what this weight loss/weight gain journey does to our heads.
I've lost 13 lbs since Christmas, so I feel quite skinny.
But I am now only at my starting weight for Weight Watchers 3 years ago when I felt enormous and swore I would never get this big again.
I "only" weigh 135lbs, but at 5'1" I'm overweight.
People tell me all the time that I'm not fat, but I have a hard time trusting them. Is it because they're much heavier than me? (I know that's not kind, but those are the people who usually say that).
I look at people who've gone overboard on their weight loss and they look like they have a terminal disease and I think, can't they see they need to gain weight back.
On and on it goes.
When I was a teenager living in England, I hardly paid any attention to my weight, walked a lot, ate what I wanted and stayed skinny.
Since moving to the States, I've become obsessed with my weight, gained weight and always feel like I'm on a diet or should be. Of course, I'm no longer a teenager, far from it. And the weight I was then (around 100lbs) wouldn't even look good on me at 50 years old, but part of me still feels fat if I'm over 110lbs.
So, what is a good weight for me?
And what weight is sustainable without driving myself crazy?
I'm trying for my weightwatcher's goal of 125 which means another 10lbs to go.
Wish me luck..
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  • JUSTYNA7
    It is a constant battle with the media. If you feel good and active and healthy then that is the ultimate goal. I've learned that the number on the scale is so not a reflection of what people's weight should be. I have two DD's who are in their early 20's and one is 160 pounds and one is 180 pounds and neither have any tummy or obvious fat on them. They are fit and trim and look lovely. But the old charts for their age and height say they should be under 130. Very scary thought. In my 50's I am concentrating more on the healthy eating and acting now the way I want to be for the rest of my life.. hopefully into my seventies and eighties. I understand that my metabolism is slower now so I need less food. That has been a slow journey to recognize. Weight loss is slower. I think that if you stay at a weight for a while you will know if you are comfortable at it. Trust!
    3037 days ago
  • SUNNY1432
    I think you are doing great. It is unfortunate that we feel obsessed about our weight but that is the society we live in. Just keep doing your best and you will find your happy place and be content with yourself.
    Congrats on losing 15 lbs!! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    3914 days ago
  • no profile photo CD6511908
    Hi, I really get what you mean. Others tell me I'm not fat, but it may be just because I'm not as fat as they are. I'm not sure how old you are, but I think age really did a number on my metabolism, too, so its hard to compare my eating habits when I was younger to now (I'm 26).

    Great job with the weight loss!
    3919 days ago
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