Sunday, March 07, 2010
Once upon a time, I was so, so excited for Winter Quarter 2010.
Ha. Talk about in a galaxy far, farrrr away.
This has been one of the most stressful times in my life. I'm sure it wouldn't have been as bad if I hadn't been trying to change my eating habits, but it had to be done. Don't get me wrong, there have been short bursts of good eating habits throughout this past couple months, resulting in some weight loss. But then there'd be multiple papers or a test... and I was done for.
I don't know.
Maybe it has to do with trying to accomplish this all alone. Trying to personally hold myself accountable.
Well, all THAT'S accomplished is pretending I only had 1 tbsp instead of 2, or peaking inside the cupboards when no one is looking.
It's time for something different..seriously.
I know I can do this; I've done it before. The only difference between now and then is that I had NO STRESS. Now, those days are gone. I have to be strong, and develop a plan that actually works for my lifestyle. (good thing Winter Quarter is ending, though :D)
So here it goes..
-oh, journal. you make me so happy.. But you lie, because I lie. From now on, I'm posting on the food tracker and THEN writing it down. The food tracker doesn't lie about how many calories are in peanut butter. ha.
-starting the day with 40 min. circuit workout!
-bed by 11:00! lack of sleep has been absolutely killing me.
-do homework at every free moment..no more wasting time and freaking out about getting everything done later. I am the HUGEST procrastinator. EVER.
the main thing, however, is how i eat. I'm not a glutton.. I've just developed an urge to go to the fridge every time I am stressed. It's automatic. Sometimes I fight the urge, and more often I do not. It's very ridiculous, and it needs to stop. It's killing all my progress!!
So, it starts now. Tracking every bite; gonna be brutally honest. I have to, for myself.