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Sunday, April 25, 2010

Ouch. I bit the dust. My mind is telling me that it's okay that I just consumed 10,000 calories in a day, but I know in my heart that it's not. I seem to have a self fulfilling prophecy going on. I lost control when I started eating again. I ate half a quart of ice cream in a day. My stomach looks like a balloon, I don't want to go out in public. My face is aged beyond comparision in just two days. I don't want to face reality. I just kept making excuses for myself on why it was okay that I was eating all the food. I think that there is something wrong with me. I'm letting food determine how I feel about myself, define me rather, when that's not who I am. Honestly I don't know what to do.
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  • KAITLYNCAMPBELL
    You will be fine, darlin! Tomorrow is a new day, full of new opportunities...opportunities to eat healthy, exercise and feel GOOD about yourself...we all have days that are bad and where we don't succeed...

    I have found that it's actually the times that I don't succeed...that I fail...when I learn the most! So, I know you said you were feeling really bad about yourself. Think about that tomorrow when your body wants to give in and eat more. Think about how bad you feel right now and that will motivate you to eat a healthier option or to go for a walk! Use the negative feelings you have right now and turn them into a positive motivation :)

    I'll be praying for you girl! Take Care and send me a note if you need anything!
    3969 days ago
  • no profile photo CD7283927
    I have to say this.. I don't mean for it to sound like something you should do frequently, but if you normally are good at eating healthy, this one day is not going to set you back. It might even jump start something. Your body is funny that way sometimes. Think of it, if you can, as whoops I drank too much last night. WONT BE DOING THAT AGAIN FOR A LOOOOONG WHILE and open your eyes tomorrow, remember your progress and say YOU GO GIRL, because you do.

    You ARE beautiful, your heart is beautiful, you are worthy of loving yourself. You're in my prayers
    3969 days ago
  • RUNNING_LUCY
    Just put one foot in front of the other and keep on trekking. Don't beat yourself up. We all make mistakes and bad choices. The key to finishing the race is in getting back up and dusting yourself off and then start again -- no matter how many times you have to repeat the process, eventually you will succeed! emoticon
    3969 days ago
  • FIONA1331
    I'm sorry you're having such a hard time. I know this path isn't easy, but remember how far you've come and focus on all the good things you've done so far. Tomorrow is a new day and I know you can gain control over food, just take it one step at a time!
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    3969 days ago
  • DHSPARK
    Go back to the beginning and start over. Reclaim the excitement of wanting to have better heaLth.

    Don't beat yourself up for what's already happened, resolve to change from this day on.

    Don't bring your trigger foods into the house.

    Get back to drinking water and limiting your portions.

    Remind yourself that you are in control, not the food.

    I have problems with emotional eating too. I've got the exercise part down, but not the healthy eating part...once I get started, I can't stop so the best thing for me is to not get started on my trigger foods.

    I relate...I understand. Don't give up...you CAN get control of this and so can I.

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    Deb
    3969 days ago
  • VBALLCHIKA
    I'm sorry to hear that emoticon With me, the first step is always the hardest.. so maybe try convincing yourself that tomorrow you are going to eat healthy and if you are a member of a gym, go workout tomorrow.. YOU WILL FEEL GREAT!!!! Tomorrow is a new day.. erase today from your memory as if it never happened and start fresh tomorrow!! You will LOVE yourself for it!! Good luck and best wishes on your journey!! emoticon
    3969 days ago
  • AMYBETH54
    Hang in there! I just looked at your page and you are so close to your goal!

    I know what you mean about losing it all in one day. Sometimes the bad food sticks with us for a couple of days.

    When you wake up tomorrow- Smile at your accomplishments, and get back to it!

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    3969 days ago
  • no profile photo BANGORTOSALEM
    Hang in there and talk with a friend or family member that you trust = and know will be supportive. It's okay to have a bad day...just get back to your plan and work it one day at a time. Good luck
    3969 days ago
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