Not doing so hot...
Sunday, April 25, 2010
Ouch. I bit the dust. My mind is telling me that it's okay that I just consumed 10,000 calories in a day, but I know in my heart that it's not. I seem to have a self fulfilling prophecy going on. I lost control when I started eating again. I ate half a quart of ice cream in a day. My stomach looks like a balloon, I don't want to go out in public. My face is aged beyond comparision in just two days. I don't want to face reality. I just kept making excuses for myself on why it was okay that I was eating all the food. I think that there is something wrong with me. I'm letting food determine how I feel about myself, define me rather, when that's not who I am. Honestly I don't know what to do.