Reflecting and looking forward to June being a new fresh start:)
Thursday, May 27, 2010
I haven't written a blog this month so I thought I would get one up before May was gone. This month has not been going very well at all to say the least. I have been sick more times this month than the last year! Ugh:( But oh well, I think it is finally coming to an end. Allergy, cold, and flu attacks have come my way but I am still here so for that I am thankful. I really haven't kept up with tracking on SP for about the last 3 weeks or so. I really let it get to me too because I had been doing so well. I guess just getting sick got the best of me and I really didn't feel like doing anything much less measuring and tracking. Yes, I know these are just excuses and I could probably name a dozen more and unfortunately these are all ones that I let dictate what I did this month. I am pretty disappointed that I didn't lose the pounds that I wanted to get off but I have still been learning a lot about myself. I know that I need to get out of this rut that I let myself get into this month. I can see how well I was doing and how good I felt and the difference in my life that these new and great changes from SP were making in my life. I want that back! And I want it to stay! I have had a lot of time to look back and reflect and I can see where I let my guard down, where I had mishaps, what really trips me up (besides emotional eating I learned being extra busy and getting sick) and I have added them to my list of what to be careful for...(triggers)
So even though I have had a bad month and I did give up here and there these last few weeks I have not fully given up and I have still been fighting. I have fallen into old habit but I have still been using new good habits I picked up using SP. I still have been watching what I am eating and have been making some good decisions throughout the weeks(way more than I did before SP) and I haven't been gaining and gaining which is what used to happen before. I did gain 1 pound 2 weeks ago on my weigh in day but I lost it again last week. So for the last month I have been pretty much the same which is better than gaining 5 or 10 lbs. So I do have some things to be glad about. I haven't been working out all the time like I was but I am still getting in a few days a week which is better than the nothing I was doing before SP. There have been days where I binged but there were many more days when I wanted to but didn't so I am glad about that too. So I guess I realized that I am still pressing on, not as hard as I want to or have been but I am still pushing and I am going to keep pushing. I am hoping that the next few days into a new month will bring a new fresh start and feeling of moving forward! Oh, how writing this now is already giving me hope. I can feel the strength and the victories that are to come! I will continue to hope for it all and I will continue to run this race. I am not giving up and I am not staying down! Hey, if the turtle can do it why can't I? I think I can, I think I can, I know I can, and I will! And most importantly I know that I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me:)
Blessings to all of my SP friends who have been such a great blessing, encouragement, and motivation for me in all of this!