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I Am So Ashamed

Sunday, July 04, 2010

On June 28, in anticipation of the new challenge, Four by the Fourth, I made a rash (though hopeful)statement that I would “work at this to the very best of my ability. I am NOT going to give in to any temptations that will surely be placed before me.” Then I went on to say, “If I lose that four pounds by the Fourth of July, plus just a wee little half pound also, I will reach my goal and will invite you all to my cyber celebration!!
Let's hope I don't show up here in 28 days with my tail between my legs!!

Well, here I am!!

Note the tail between the legs. And yes, I am howling loud and clear!! What did I do?? Why did I let this happen?? I didn’t lose at all, In fact, I gained. I am so ashamed of myself.

But I did learn one thing through all of this. It truly is a life long life style change and to not continue in the same way as I have for the past year, it can all be for naught!!

I am soon going to be active in another challenge and I won’t make any rash statements. But I WILL pay attention to what I am doing. No matter what I eat, it will find its way onto the tracker. I will only get on the scales once a week. For awhile there I was weighing every day and could so easily tell myself that “Oh, that pound or two gained yesterday is no big deal”. But it was a big deal!! Once a week, the scales will tell me where I am and I will listen!!

Wish me luck!!

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    No shame allowed! Just keep on working it!
    3551 days ago
    Please don't feel ashamed. There's not a single one of us who is perfect. I personally avoid challenges to lose a certain amount by a certain date, because how much and how quickly we lose isn't always something that's in our control...and yet so many challenges seem set up that way. Instead, I like challenges where the challenge is to modify our behavior and our actions. For example, reward yourself for working out for at least 30 minutes (or whatever works for your particular fitness level) 5 out of 7 days a week for 12 weeks. Or a "no sugar" challenge for a particular length of time (although that one might kill me!) Then instead of either winning or losing the challenge, give yourself a reward based on how many days out of the total you are successful. Just an idea...

    Keep at it though. The biggest challenge of all is to pick yourself up once you're down and keep on going!
    3554 days ago
    Don't be ashamed Arlene I blew it Big Time!! I am going to try again too......I am going to try again. and again... this time will it be different ? I don't know. but it is all I have and each other emoticon We can do this.
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    3554 days ago
    Arlene, no need to feel ashamed! You're human, just like we all are. There is hardly any of us who haven't done the same thing.

    The good thing is everyday is a new opportunity to get it right! Take one day at a time and you will get there :-)
    3554 days ago
    this is a life long thing for sure....unending even when we reach goal. never be ashamed for trying to be your best. hugs and love. emoticon emoticon
    3554 days ago
    Celebrate the fact that you are alive for another day and have people who care about you. Best wishes! emoticon
    3555 days ago
    We have a new challenge starting the 10th . Make NO predictions but blow us all out of the water!
    3555 days ago
    Don't be too hard on yourself-it happens! It just makes more determined to try and do it the next time, and the scales do move around if you weigh more than once a week (I know this first hand!) Hang in there!
    3555 days ago
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    I'm sorry this last challeng didn't work out for you... you gave it your best shot.. I know for me the only thing that keeps me going is by NOT putting junk in my body that way if I over eat at least I have control over what it is.. I wish you the best and I know that with all the support here.. you will be one of the top winners in the challenges ahead.. believe in yourself and take it one day at a time... I didn't do so great either but with out the holiday in our way we should be able make the next one a huge success...
    3555 days ago
    Baby steps, Arlene. emoticon emoticon

    3555 days ago
  • KITT52
    so your human, don't be too hard on yourself....
    tomorrow is a new day, and a new start....one day at a time....
    have a healthy week

    3555 days ago
    Don't beat up on yourself too much. We all deserve second chanches.. and third, and fourth chanches. Just keep doing it until the job is done. None of us are perfect. emoticon
    3555 days ago
    emoticon Don't be ashamed...we have all been there just pick up dust of and start again, you can do it and we are all cheering for you! emoticon
    3555 days ago
    It's ok!! We're all human and it IS hard to lose weight!---Betsy emoticon Have a Happy 4th and emoticon !!!!
    3555 days ago

    Comment edited on: 7/4/2010 4:46:20 PM
    No need to feel ashamed. You are a strong and wonderful woman, no matter what the scale says!
    3555 days ago
  • PUGRAD1995
    Hey Arlene, I'm in the hall of shame for weight gain right along side of you. I even lost and then went back up (still hoping it is from holding water). The body does it's own thing and we just have to keep working at it. Fortunately, creative Pixie keeps coming up with motivational challenges to keep us going!

    So here's to making Santa a very jolly fellow!
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    3555 days ago
    Don't be so hard on yourself! If it was that easy, we wouldn't all be here. I'm really glad that you're not giving up and will be back for the next challenge. I know that emoticon
    3555 days ago
    Rest assured, you're not the only one whose done stuff like this. I have done this kind of thing myself. Like the saying goes, try, try again. We gotta keep trying!! Never give up.. It definitely is a lifestyle change..I wish you the best with your next challenge!!

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    3555 days ago
    Rest assured, you're not the only one whose done stuff like this. I have done this kind of thing myself. Like the saying goes, try, try again. We gotta keep trying!! Never give up.. It definitely is a lifestyle change..I wish you the best with your next challenge!!

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    3555 days ago
  • PAULA3420
    My heart goes out to you. emoticon I've been there, putting my goals out there for the world to see and then falling flat on my face. Good News! There is only one way to go from here and that is UP emoticon i can tell from reading your blog that you have a good plan in place and will make the best of this. emoticon
    3555 days ago
    All you can do is keep getting back up. Keep getting back on the horse. You CAN do this. Just hang in there.
    3555 days ago
  • RENA1965
    Don't be hard on yourself.. Hang in there and keep trying..
    3555 days ago
    Arlene, don't waste a moment of your life on feeling ashamed. I didn't do so hot either. We just need to keep on trying. I believe in you!
    3555 days ago
    Arlene, Please don't feel badly, I was very very lucky to have a loss at all, as I have been binging, and I did not lose a whole 4 pounds, I know that next challenge we are going to do great!
    3555 days ago
    It's ok, we forgive you. Keep on, and try again.
    3555 days ago
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