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Sunday, July 25, 2010

Well, here I am again. I see now that the main component to success is ALL in our heads-Your brain is truly the "Make or Break" of the whole process. I gave myself permission to do what I wanted to way too early. I could not get my head back in the game for nothing. I am walking on shaky ground. I feel ashamed of what I have allowed to happen to me-I know however that I need to shake it off and get back on track. I can do this-I have done it before. I just want to get off of this roller coaster. I hate feeling like a failure. I just want to do this and be done-no more struggle to maintain. I gain a pound by eating one bad thing- I gain 10 pounds over a weekend-CRAZY cause it takes more than a week to get it back off. What a vicious cycle. It is not fair.

Why did I end up with such a nonexistent metabolism? I see people eat 5x as much as me and not gain an ounce. I have been dealt a card that sucks. But it is my card and I can't be caught bluffing. I need to play my hand and let the chips fall back into place. So wish me luck. I'm gonna stop the foolishness. Peace!!
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  • INKEDUP
    The best way to amp up your metabolism is to move. Having had a metabolic crash when I hit my 40's I know what I'm talking about! I gained 30 pounds over the course of 2 years eating exactly the way I had always done and doing no exercise. Once I started watching what I put in my mouth - spark daily journal - and exercising as a matter of habit, the weight started coming off. It took me 9 months to get to where I am today. It didn't come off quickly, but I've pretty much maintained for the last year. If I stop moving and being diligent about my health, the weight starts creeping up.

    It's a lifelong process that starts with just one day. Keep focused on your goal, but keep your head in the here and now. Just for today - stick with what you know to be right. Then do it some more tomorrow. Soon you'll have racked up a bunch of todays that will change your tomorrow. Good luck and keep on sparkling!
    3712 days ago
  • ROSEM1955
    You Go Girl!!!! You Can Do This!!! We All Can Do This!!!!! emoticon
    3713 days ago
  • DARKCHILD
    Failing is only temporary, giving up makes it permanent! Forget the past, look forward to your future! Think it! Believe it! Achieve it! All that to say this: emoticon emoticon
    3713 days ago
  • no profile photo CD5265602
    i know how you feel! after my last child was born, i lost all the baby weight and was the thinnest i've ever been. i had the crazy notion "there, i'm done. i've lost the weight and now i don't need to do anything." and so here i am again, trying to lose the weight. and the important thing i've learned is that this, for me, is a wellness journey. it goes far beyond weightloss. when i get to my goal weight, there'll be a whole new set of skills to learn since NEVER in my life have i maintained a weightloss. and i know the shame. sometimes i feel as if my weight ups & downs are (or have been) a public spectacle...but i have to let that go. this is about me. there is no deadline. there is no jury. there is no judge. there is just me, SP, and my faith that i am on the right path. you can do this! you are not alone - we share your fumbles, we share your success, we share your frustration, and we share your celebrations. in short, we share your journey! god bless and have a good day! emoticon emoticon
    3713 days ago
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