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Self sabatoge attempt, avert!

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Two months in, I have been doing really well. Losing an average of 2lbs a week for a grand total of 20lbs. That's halfway to my goal! I have been eating healthy and working out daily. Not too shabby, right? emoticon

So why did I have to go and try to mess it up yesterday? emoticon

I have seldom been what I would call an emotional eater, but that seems to fit. emoticon

I had a disastrous shift at work, on top of that, some of the other staff where talking about my weight loss, emoticon and someone had to chime in with " Oh, you will gain it all back in no time, just look at what happened to Oprah." (Some people just can not be happy about someone else's success) emoticon

On a good day, this would not have fazed me, and I am sure I have heard more positive comments then negative ones, but sometimes when you are feeling low it is the negative ones that stick.

I came home feeling burnt out, and for some reason famished. emoticonThat almost never happens. Normally I would sleep awhile and eat when I woke up. I thought O.k., I will have some breakfast and then I can work out before I got to sleep.


Instead I ate my larger than usual breakfast emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon at the computer while checking e-mails emoticon and puttering around on SP, and by the time I was done with that I was falling asleep emoticonat the computer. I decided I should sleep for a while, I set my alarm for 12:00 thinking I would get up in a few hours and then work off my breakfast.


For some reason the alarm did not go off. 6pm I woke up, angry with myself. emoticon I did manage to get in a low key bike ride. When I came back I made dinner and ate with my family, emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon a little bigger meal than usual, but I was not doing too bad. Then later I got into a stupid and pointless argument with my husband about something stupid and pointless, emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon and after that all hell broke lose.

He when to bed, I stayed up.(seeing how I work nights, I often can not sleep on my nights off) emoticonTime I would have usually spent working out or doing something generally useful, I instead spent feeling sorry for myself. emoticon Perhaps it was self punishment, eventually, I found my way to the kitchen... emoticon emoticon

and the fridge... emoticon emoticon

and the cupboards... emoticon emoticon


In my defense, I really did not completely lose it. I nibbled here and there, but it was not exactly an all out binge. I felt awful about it afterward all the same.

Now I think it is time I took my favorite piece of advise I picked up on this site, advise I have been passing on to those who find themselves in similar situations.


So, I had a bit of a setback.
So what.

Am I going to let that stop me, or even slow me down?

In light of how far I have come, that would be beyond foolish.

Today is a new day and a fresh start!
I am going to do this, and I am going to see it through!
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  • PENNI68
    Good for you!!! Keep up that attitude!! You can do it!!!
    3908 days ago
    Over the last 7 months, I've messed up plenty of times. WE are human beings, not perfect beings. I love your attitude--so what?


    One unhealthy day does not negate all the good stuff you have done for your body.It just reminds us that we will need to have strategies in place to deal with days like this, even if it is simply picking up and moving on.

    3908 days ago
  • no profile photo CD7530689
    You are making such great progress, one day does not have to be your eternal downfall and it sounds like you are well aware of that. So, remember what you've told yourself in this blog and move on. A bad day is not the end of your journey. As for your insensitive co-worker, people who spend their time analyzing and making judgments on others are very often missing something essential in their own lives, if anything I tend to feel sorry for these people.

    Keep up the good work, you're doing great!
    3908 days ago
  • no profile photo CD5265602
    Yes! Yes! Yes! we all mess up! and Yes! you get back up and on the healthy path today! yesterday is gone & done. today it's beautiful out and the negative is gone - banished! give yourself a hug & find a favorite motivational saying that you can hang up at work or say to yourself when people butt in with stupid comments. and for more motivation, pick up a 20 lb. weight and really feel what you accomplished so far. bravo! keep going! emoticon
    3908 days ago
    Sounds very familiar! emoticon
    3909 days ago
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