Down and OUT!
Wednesday, September 08, 2010
OK, I have completely quit watching what I am eating, quit exercising, everything~! I don't know what is up with me! I am now gaining weight instead of losing and I know exactly why. I will be leaving for almost 3 weeks vacation in 8 days which is even going to be worse. I have to do something!
There isn't any time for me to meditate on what to do next for a few days so will do what I can. I am just using excuses again. Too tired, too busy, too much pain, same old same old excuses I always use.
Why am I going to let the hard work of losing 20 pounds be for nothing when I will just gain it back. I don't understand myself. I know it isn't magically going to fall off so I have to work for it but am I telling myself it isn't worth the work, effort.
I am so tired of the whole thing! I have to begin by adding a little exercise at a time to build up. I need to manage the back pain with Aleve/Advil if necessary and go on with life. I need to watch what I eat! I LOVE TO EAT! So, knowing all these things why don't I just do them.
I did better while my marriage was a long distance thing. Since my DH has moved here with me, we cook, eat out, stay busy all day around here, and I let myself go. I need to work a plan around that.
Lots to think about and start some action. MAYBE!