well. I've lost 50 pounds thus far...and can't really celebrate it in pictures. Why? Because when I was at my heaviest, I avoided the camera. I don't have a single picture of what 210+ looked like on me. I don't even have tape measurements to use for comparison, because I was so filled with self hatred and disgust, that I couldn't even bear to see what the numbers were.
I don't remember at what point I finally took my before picture. I believe it was at about 180, possibly 190 pounds (that is this picture):
Then, I also have a picture taken last September which was a small wakeup call as to what was happening to my body. It was after hospitalization number one with all the steroids that started the ball rolling downhill. I continued to gain weight from here, up until January or February, when I finally joined Spark. Here's that picture:
I did take this picture, at one of my heaviest weights...and it is the only one that survived deletion on my camera. Wow! did I HATE this picture! But you know what? Now I love it; because it's one of the few that survived to show me where I've been and how far I've come.
Finally, I, along with Spark People's help lost 40 pounds and took my first pictures since that last picture. A bit of a difference, don't you think?
And at 160 pounds, I took a few, and although I still have some distance to go, when I look at them here, side by side with my "before" pictures, I can see that I have made a lot of progress. While I've gained and lost weight before, this is the most I've ever lost...and I promise myself, that regardless of what medications they pour into me; I will NOT go back there again.
Thanks Spark People! (And that means YOU, my friends, and you people on the message boards who have informed and encouraged me along the way!)