Determination and a Brand New Start.
Tuesday, October 05, 2010
Now that I've gotten my new copy of The Spark, having lost the first one, I've decided to re-do my 28 day program. I have to confess that the first time I did it, I was MOSTLY interested in weight loss. And that bit of interest helped me to lose 50 pounds. But then I got stalled on a plateau for a long time...and got discouraged....and gained ten pounds back. That could've been the end of me. But fortunately, around that time, I purchased The Spark and have come back at the program with a vengeance.
This time, yes, I want to lose that remaining forty pounds...But I am more interested in my total health... Health in every area of my life. I want to understand what it is that sets me up to gain weight and to make other unhealthy choices. I want to develop habits of health which will support me, should motivation or focus fail me. I want to overcome the cold I have before it turns into a respiratory infection and an asthma exacerbation...and while I understand that while SOME of that process is out of my hands and in the hands of God, I want to learn how to stack every odd in my favor...to obtain good health and to refuse to give it up.
I'm determined to do it. And I WILL do it!
I was sloppy about doing the Spark Guy 's program the first time. But this time, I'm going to wrng it of every drop of benefit...like one would wring out a wet washcloth. And I want to wring myself of every unhealthy habit, every negative attitude, every single bit of me that holds on to any kind of illness and makes it a part of my identity. I want to refuse to accept anything but health and to learn how to pursue that with my WHOLE HEART...
And I am determined that, come April, you will find standing before you, a woman who weighs 130 lbs or less...who is in peak shape....and who LOVES her life. And I will trade in that fat, steorid-bloated, weak, woman who can't walk across a room without breathlessness....the woman that I've been every April for the past ten years...the one who is caught in a cycle of helplessness and defeat. I want to put this one to rest....I CHOOSE to be the first woman. And I will do everything in my power to become her....and to MAINTAIN her.