A Look Back at Last Week's Goals
Saturday, October 16, 2010
Some of you have asked for an update on how I'm doing with the goals I wrote about in my last blog. Well, I was hoping to slide under the door without notice and escape....but you caught me!
I just read this blog last night for the first time since I wrote it--with a little surprise and a ton of shame. I didn't do that well, honestly. But I will say, in my defense (and I know that most of you will find this hard to believe and even harder to relate to; but it's God's honest truth): I have severe memory problems due to some medical problems which are mostly in the past...however the memory issues have remained. And it just sucks, honestly. So here's the embarrassing truth:
I did well the first couple of days...checked my goal list and kept myself in check also. And I completed all the goals for the first four days. Then came Thursday...
...And the memory thing happened--
I totally forgot about these goals. I forgot I'd written that blog.
I just FORGOT.
And that day, I had NO appetite. It was a big effort to get anywhere NEAR my goal calorie range. And I don't think I broke a thousand calories.
That day, I felt like crap. I was hurting from the Shred...my muscles were complaining with every motion. And I was hurting in my joints from the RA...AND in my back, from my degenerative spine. SO the LAST thing I felt like doing was exercising. So I didn't.
So Friday, I still didn't have an appetite...and during the day, didn't come near my calorie range again. But thanks to a wonderful soup I'd made that day, I DID get in my servings of fresh fruit and veggies. And thanks to some "midnight munching" I also just made my calorie goal. And I DID do Leslie Sansone's two mile walk.
And today is Saturday. Today it will be challenging to get any official exercise...however, I will be on my feet for hours because we have to do some clothes shopping for my daughter and then I have to tackle Walmart to do the week's grocery shopping. So, if you count THAT exercise, I will have gotten in quite a bit. I probably will have time this morning, come to think of it, to do a little bit. Considering my demanding schedule today, physically, I think I will do something like some yoga to relax my body while it gets the exercise. My cardio will have to come from Walmart (and why NOT, everything ELSE comes from there!).
It will also probably be hard to eat well today also. We will eat one meal out so I will try to make the best choices possible there. And I will bring some fresh fruit or some veggies and yogurt dip to get me through til dinner and to get in my fruits and veggies.
Last night I read my last blog for the first time since last week when I wrote it; and it was with a jolt of guilt when I realized that I had not thought of it ONCE since last Tuesday or Wednesday. It was totally erased from my memory and mind.
In the eating and exercising departments, I didn't do too badly. I just missed one day. But as far as going to bed early? Well, Thursday, I was up late because I was out. And Friday was my bad day. Didn't feel well physically that day so crashed early...however I had trouble falling asleep so got up and sat in my recliner til I fell asleep and that was probably at 9:00 or 9:30....so I almost made the goal that day also.
Tonight I will be out late and so that won't be a problem either.
When I'd first re-read that last blog I was consumed with guilt. I felt like I'd messed up every goal on every day. But I really didn't. I just messed up each goal on one day. So, while it's not an "A"--(and not even for effort because I'd forgotten about the goals!), it is maybe a "B"....For a person who's never gotten a grade lower than an A-, while that is a bit disconcerting...and FEELS like a failure; I know consciously that it is not really so bad.
Thanks for asking for this scorecard evaluation. It was good for me to see objectively how I did, untainted by my perfectionistic guilt.