No appetite...and not sure why
Wednesday, November 03, 2010
Ever since last week, when I got the terrible news about what lies in my future healthwise (see past blogs), I haven't been hungry at all. I don't feel depressed about the news in the sense that it's something I'm thinking a lot about, or feeling sad about it...True it was a big shock, but I think I'm taking it pretty well. But the problem is that I'm not getting even anywhere near 1000 calories a day ever since then.
Naturally, there has been some weight loss as a result. And I'd be lying if I said that I didn't welcome that. I finally got through a plateau where I'd been stuck for two months and that made me ecstatic. I do worry about the ED springing up again. I've struggled with it at a few points before now, in this weight loss journey here at Spark..and each time regained my equilibrium and recovered from that kind of thinking...And I have to ask myself if that is what is going on now. But you know? Although my anorexic self is happy about the weight loss, I don' think that is the problem.
I have NO appetite. Have to force myself to eat anything at all. I spend the whole day, thinking of possiblities of food that I can make or get which maybe would sound good...and nothing does...and eating is very difficult. I've had a few changes in medication...but they were getting RID of two meds...and I don't think that that should have that effect. So I'm puzzled.
The only thing I've been able to stomach is smoothies...but even that is not appealing. What is going on??