Over it and on with it....
Thursday, December 30, 2010
First a note to take care of business:
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I've been in an odd place as far as my Spark life goes. I'm exercising every day for at minimum , a half hour (that's if, like today, I'm pressed for time...usually closer to an hour). And I'm lovin' it. For about a week I've been fighting off a sinus infection which I suspect now is also going into my ears...they are clogged at any rate...Some days I feel horrible - like this morning...and asthma, predictably, is kicking up in response to the sinus issues.... This morning as my husband heard my squeaking cough and me struggling to catch my breath came into my room this morning for the express purpose of telling me, "Don't you dare exercise today."
Well, I thought it over. (as I did the two breathing treatments 20 minutes apart that I needed on my nebulizer). It is exercise that has HELPED my asthma to improve. I know that as soon as I stop working out, my lungs close up and I begin to get very breathless. I know that, as long as I don't get too winded, the exercise is helping me. It is essential however to do at least one and sometimes two treatments prior to beginning. Otherwise I don' tmake it three minutes into the warmup. I know , because I've forgotten the treatments on two occasions, (even before I got sick)...and was shocked at how quickly I ran out of air.
All things considered, this is what I decided: I made sure my cell phone was in my pocket. I did the two treatments...and I paid close attention to my breathing and body as I worked out. In the early parts of the workout, I felt really like crap...mostly due to sinus pain....But suddenly, partway into the workout, my head cleared; I got a burst of adrenaline and energy ...and a great sense of enjoyment of the activity came over me. I finished strong...doing two miles (due to shortage of time) with ease...not barely breathing hard.
And all day, as we had to go and do many errands and walk all over the mall, I felt great! Gotta LOVE those endorphins. I am so sensitive to them...they are my panacea...No matter what the problem, they fix it! ...well , almost! You know what I mean! Physical or emotional issues seem to disappear when I work out Even pain is lessened. And for this reason, in the past week, I have not encountered a reason compelling enough for me not to exercise that day.
Yes, you have to be cautious, and take safety measures. You have to be tuned into your body, and if things start going in a bad direction, STOP! But so far they haven't . while I can stand and have breath...I will try to continue this streak...
Speaking of standing...my new hip keeps sliding out of the socket. the surgeon wants me to see him as soon as he gets back into town...Jan 10th. I suspect that he will say I need a revision to redo that hip replacement so that it will heal properly and stay intact. If so,I will ask that he do my right one as well, because I'm planning on having that hip replaced also at the same time...I do NOT want to start back at square one!! I do NOT want to interrupt this streak I'm on! I don't know which is worse...getting it over and getting on with it...but more slowly this time than the first, due to the fact that I cannot risk it popping out again...either hip. I don't know if I have the patience for this wait. i will definitely work on my upper body strength etc...and do the arm bike for cardio, which I recover...and will TRY to be satisfied with that. It will definitely be hard.
The other thing going on is that i'm once again falling into this pattern: I get to my lowest weight since losing it this year...and immediately start eating everything in the house...It's like I"m sabotaging myself...and I don't know why!! Any ideas?? I feel like I have no self control...if there's a box of graham crackers in front of me (just saying....for EXAMPLE...not like it's ever happened...recently....today anyway. lol) I will eat the whole box. Hating myself with every bite. I never ever had a binge disorder...always pure anorexia...so aI wonder what this is all about. (and no, I'm not anorexic now...but I will NEVER feel good about uncontrolled eating!) I hardly keep anything I could possibly binge on in the house...but I always manage to find something.