Day One of Boot Camp: Rude Awakening
Monday, January 03, 2011
As most of your might have "surmised" from my last blog, I struggle with ED. (and eating disorder)...and part of that illness is complete confusion about your body image...In other words, I have NO WAY of assessing in reality, what my body looks like....Whether it is fat or thin or what. And when I see myself in pix...it always comes as a complete surprise to me...and usually (lately,) NOT a good one!
Today, I had another of those "rude awakening" moments, that we all would love to avoid. I joined the 28 - Day Bootcamp workout. And as part of that we were encouraged to take a picture of our bodies as a "before" comparison tool for when we are done.
Now, having almost NO "before" pics of myself at my maximum weight of between 210 and 220 (I also avoided scales as well as cameras)...I have come to appreciate the value of this tool. And sorely regret that I was too disgusted with myself to take a picture before beginning Spark ...and at this moment I am REALLY NEEDING to have one.
It will be interesting to see what a month can do.