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Day One of Boot Camp: Rude Awakening

Monday, January 03, 2011

As most of your might have "surmised" from my last blog, I struggle with ED. (and eating disorder)...and part of that illness is complete confusion about your body image...In other words, I have NO WAY of assessing in reality, what my body looks like....Whether it is fat or thin or what. And when I see myself in pix...it always comes as a complete surprise to me...and usually (lately,) NOT a good one!

Today, I had another of those "rude awakening" moments, that we all would love to avoid. I joined the 28 - Day Bootcamp workout. And as part of that we were encouraged to take a picture of our bodies as a "before" comparison tool for when we are done.

Now, having almost NO "before" pics of myself at my maximum weight of between 210 and 220 (I also avoided scales as well as cameras)...I have come to appreciate the value of this tool. And sorely regret that I was too disgusted with myself to take a picture before beginning Spark ...and at this moment I am REALLY NEEDING to have one.

It will be interesting to see what a month can do.
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  • VXWALL1942
    Good for you accepting the 28 day challenge. The pic is part of the process. Would I had little lumps instead of the gargantuan belly and saggy boobs. l think you will be amazed after doing this for 28 days. I look forward to seeing the after pic. Good luck. Go for the gold!

    3547 days ago
  • MAGA99

    I also took my measurements
    3548 days ago
  • no profile photo CD5645667
    Hey Cynthia, Stop beating yourself up love!!
    If you want to see what is bad, go to my page and see me at 145 kilos !
    I felt exactly the same as you !! I had no conseption of what I looked like !!
    But with the passage of time .. I have come to realise that none of us are ever happy with the way we look.
    My dear friend
    please try to see yourself in a different light..
    You have such a lovely Face .. and your arms are not batwings ..you have nice long legs.
    Think of the positives!!.
    You need to learn to love yourself for who you are..
    It will come in time.. just take it one day at a time..
    Hugs Susie
    3548 days ago
  • 45ANDFIT1
    Hard first step but important - good for you for taking it!
    3548 days ago
    Good that you're starting with a *before* pic so you can SEE the difference in the pictures, and hopefully your mind as well! Best of luck! Now stop standing there, do something!
    3548 days ago
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