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The Power of Forgiveness

Sunday, January 16, 2011

When I got sick I went through this period where I thinking about stuff. Most of it surrounded guilt. I blogged about it on my personal blog that I "restarted" topazdiva-expressions.bl

I am reading Marianne Williamson's "A Course in Weight Loss" In the first chapter she addresses tearing down the wall. The wall is encased with all these emotions that we hang on to and impact our weight or whatever addiction that a person has(my opinion) I had addressed all of the emotions except guilt (it was not listed) BUT for me Guilt was infused in every other emotional/situational brick that was erected in my life. So when this came up while I was sick I was blown away. I decided to redo the exercise. The second part is to ask God to tear down the bricks. Well while doing this I felt like He was telling me to give the bricks to Him. As I gave them to him they began to disappear. I was like OMG!! My part was to forgive myself for all the guilt that I carried and allow God to heal the pain. Talk about "feeling" lite.

My relationship to God is important to me although I am not always acting like it. I have tried to involve God in every other part of my life but NEVER in my weight loss. So I am bringing GOD in to every aspect of my life.(in a balanced way LOL)

There are 21 lessons in this book and initially I did not plan to share anything from the book. (another one of my bricks) but if I can share every other part of my journey why not this part as well.

1. If you are having the same struggle as me or have other areas where you have not forgiven yourself PLEASE do so!!!!! Unforgiveness will paralyze and destroy any progress that you are attempting to make in your life. And whatever it is that you do to sooth your pain will always have control over you. Take back your authority over your life!!!!

2. Find your power source. I am not one to push a certain path. If it is rooted and grounded in love it works for me. But I do believe that you need a power source.

3. Believe in yourself!

Have a great day FB family!

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  • LE7_1234


    3561 days ago
    Beautiful. Something to really think about. emoticon emoticon
    3563 days ago
    Thank you for telling me to forgive myself. I needed to hear that. The other day I was in my kitchen and this terrible feeling of guilt came over me. It just kind of showed up for no reason. I thought about it and thought about it and couldn't figure out what it was I felt guilty about. It's more like a feeling that I've done something wrong but I don't know what I did. You know that awful feeling when you've hurt someone's feelings when you didn't mean to and didn't even know that you did it and you want to make things right but you don't know how? That's how I felt. It was so overwhelming.

    I'm always working at accepting everyone the way they are and forgiving them. But you are right. It's about time I forgive and accept myself the way I am. My emotions are just going haywire and after reading your blog I can see where guilt plays a big part.

    I grew up with a mother who always played up the sympathy for her and guilt for me. She is 93 and I am 56 and she still uses guilt to manipulate my whole family. I know there is true guilt and also unjustified guilt. We are a good family in spite of my mother. My brother and two sisters and I have tried to be there for her but it's never good enough and that leaves us with a lot of unjustified guilt but it's so hard to tell the difference. Or should I say feel the difference? Guilt feels bad either way. I think untrue guilt feels worse because it leaves you feeling hopeless and helpless; wondering what you did wrong. If you don't know what you did wrong how can you possibly fix it? When you grow up the way I did I guess it becomes ingrained in your soul and makes it hard to figure out.

    I like the visualization of giving God the bricks. I do a thing where I picture God at the top of a beautiful marble staircase just waiting for me. When I'm troubled or worried or just want to ask blessings for someone I love, I picture us standing at the bottom step, arm in arm, and then I slowly take them to the top and we kneel down before Him. There I surrender to Him and turn over my loved one to His care.

    Wow, I'm so sorry for rambling on and on. My response is longer than your blog! But I think it's a blessing for me that you triggered something so deep in me and made me realize I do have to forgive myself. Thank you again.

    God bless you!

    3563 days ago

    Comment edited on: 1/16/2011 9:10:06 PM
    great blog, the walls have been my tough part. i think that is why i'm still not at goal. that is the last part and then truth. thank you, god leads me also I just sometimes forget where i'm going....
    3563 days ago
    So true!!!! Thank you for sharing this.
    3564 days ago
    I have been working on forgiveness for many years and it's like an onion where the layers just keep peeling off. I do feel like I've reached a very deep level of forgiveness of others but realize there is still more work to do on forgiving myself. I just ordered this book and can't wait to get started on it

    3564 days ago
    It sounds like a great book. Thanks for sharing.
    3564 days ago
    Hi! I just purchased the book this past week. I read lesson one, reread lesson one and have hesitated to get started on the journalling. It is actually one of my goals for today. I know that it will be big. I know that it will be deeply felt. Today is the first day of my TOM so I know that it is perfect timing for releasing emotions and working on taking down my wall.

    Hope that you are doing well and keeping centered. I have done a lot of forgiveness work in the past and have been surprised when it keeps coming up at deeper levels. Much love and support to you on releasing your guilt. Kymm
    3564 days ago
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