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Monday, February 28, 2011

I've got soooo many things going on in my head right now. Some good, some not, but whatever.....just enough that it is a bit overwhelming. So basically I need to do some serious, honest figuring it all out.

First things first, weight LOSS. Well, I truly thought that I wasn't making any progress but the truth is that over the course of the last four months I HAVE made some.....minimal ~ but definite progress. I have lost 12.4 pounds in 4 months. Some of that was weight I had regained but if you regain, you still have to LOSE it again unfortunately. This is why I chose to keep track on the main part of my SparkPage. I get discouraged and can't see it and wonder why........

Well, not going there now.......moving on......

Nutrition. I'm doing very well with eating NO white flour or sugar. Not to say I NEVER get ANY but I avoid most all of it and processed foods as well. We still eat some exceptionally tasty sweet treats ~ made by me, at home and in moderation. Like.....

Almond Whoopie Pies?? AND Chocolate Peanut Butter Cheesecake topped cookie. No refined sugar of any kind or white flour in either!!
Which leads to my next issue and what an issue it is......

Eating.......the very NOT nutritional part of consuming food!!LOL. The how much of it is still my issue. To be brutally honest, I haven't been tracking as well as I should and I'm not really sure how bad that actually is. I keep within certain limits (WITHOUT tracking the "extra"-just to clarify) that are just a little higher than Spark gives me and I started losing weight again when I upped them. It sure is a slippery slope though!! I NEED BALANCE!! Where and when will I find it.....I guess that's all a part of this process......all those tough lessons learned get us there. MAKES ME TIRED sometimes!!!
I am getting all of my water everyday though!
I know the last two paragraphs sound like contradictions but really that isn't how I mean it. I've come to COOK these things in moderation since if I don't it is sooo much harder for me to consume in moderation. If I'm elsewhere sometimes, I don't do moderation so well......

Exercise......I've been doing good at getting quite a bit of exercise in. Using more the Wii Fit Plus and the Gold's Gym Cardio Workout ~ which I absolutely LOVE!!!!! DH is still constantly telling me how many inches I'm losing and how much I'm toning........and I still have a loooooooong way to go.
In reality, I need to stop and dwell here for a moment. I'm wondering if this is bringing back the defeated, might as well sabotage myself me..........because there seems to be this 230 magnet hung on my butt or something because everytime I start moving down away from it, it drags me back in a blink!! It barely takes anything to move back that way!! I have heard/read that a plateau is possible where you "hung out" for very long before......230 was it for me but this is ridiculous. Getting to acceptance of this fact has been and continues to be VERY difficult for me. I need to fight harder to move away from this dreaded place and I totally want to get under 200 (preferably earlier in 2011 rather than later!!)

Weight......I had wanted to be under 200 by March 30th....my 38th birthday. At this rate....NOT GONNA HAPPEN!! So my secondary goal if I didn't meet that was May 15th, DH's birthday. Still doable but getting less so every single day that passes that I'm NOT consistent. I NEED to do better and I WANT to meet this goal and it all boils down to the fact that it is MY CHOICE!!! I CAN do it if I put my mind to it and do better!!!!!

New news......Kyle's cancer DID NOT spread!!! THANK YOU all of you wonderful, praying friends!! Keep it up....he's not totally out of the woods!!

It is believed that MIL has dementia. Both her parents had it so it isn't a real huge surprise. What is a big concern is how young she is....67. Her parents were in their late 70's and early 80's when they had it. She is healthier than anyone I know otherwise....how sad is that?? She will most likely never drive again and that is part of me finding a balance in MY NEW LIFE of taking care of them. I take her to town once a week and both of them to all appointments. I pick up stuff otherwise. She can't really even make decisions in the grocery store since she can't remember what she has at home or what she has already put into her cart, etc. If you've ever dealt with this, you know how this is and how much it rearranges your life for you. Don't get me wrong, I'm not having a pity party, just trying to juggle it all and find the balance......I warned that I'd be working a lot of things out here!!!!LOL.

Oh, AND HUGE NEWS......DH and I have decided to do the C25K and run one (maybe even a couple this year!!!) I had mentioned in the past that we may try but this is THE REAL DEAL....no try about it.....not giving ourselves that 'out'.....we spent some of our Christmas gift and bought some cool (actually fairly warm) new clothes.

Forgive the unfinished house....I guess we all have our things......
oh and for the shoes...

They're motion control running shoes....for my flat, painful feet. AND I liked them so well........

I got a second pair!!!!
So, we're about to get started with that.
Well, this has been waaaaay longer than I even thought it would be so if you got here......THANKS for caring!!
OK, Love ya, SparkFriends.....and if you did actually make it this far, leave me a comment and let me know how you are doing!!!! THANKS!!
{{{HUGS}}}

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  • THENEWME43
    emoticon Cindy! Sounds like you're on the right track, and doing a emoticon job of it, too!

    Thanks for including the update on Kyle. PTL that the cancer didn't spread!
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    3526 days ago
  • LORIDREX
    Wow! I loved your blog! You guys (you and DH) are doing FANTASTIC! What is the brand of those shoes? I need some, but not sure what I want this time. I really could relate with your food section! Portion control and tracking "fudging" are my weaknesses! emoticon
    3531 days ago
  • BELLABLUE10
    congrats on all of your weightloss so far!! you are definately a busy lady, but doing wonderfull!!Those almond whoopie pies look sooo good!! It gives myself ecouragement when reading such great blogs as you have wrote, hope u dont mind i add u as a friend, wishing you continued success on your weightloss journey!! emoticon
    3531 days ago
  • SPEEDY143
    emoticon on the weight loss... you didn't gain and that's a goal met in itself emoticon I think YOU are doing terrific... your plate is full and yet you March On emoticon

    My daughter has those shoes and loves them too... I'm just so in awe of people like you who are working towards a running challenge and the best part is you are doing it with your hubby... extra emoticon

    emoticon looks like you are DIY's so are we!!! I'm my happiest when we are immersed in reconstruction which has been most of our 30 years of marriage. It took us 13 years to finish the kitchen emoticon but we did emoticon

    emoticon Such wonderful news about Kyle... I pray for him every night. Thanks for the update.

    New month, new goals and Spring is about to bust out all over the place so YOU go gurl emoticon

    emoticon Linda
    3531 days ago
  • HSMOM2FOUR
    You're doing great!! And C25K should help shake things up a bit and bust that plateau!!
    3532 days ago
  • BALLOUZOO
    Wow you do have a lot going on!
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    3532 days ago
  • ROSIEJ1942
    You sound like you are doing great, emoticon Keep Up The Good Work, you truely will be rewarded... A little progress is better than no progress!!
    3532 days ago
  • FINALLYINSPIRED
    Sounds like you are doing great, even though it may seem slow to you. Keep up the good work. You will get your reward....
    3532 days ago
  • SBILLIAN
    Slow progress is still progress. Do the best that you can each day, and even if that's not as good as you would have hoped, it's still better than not trying at all.

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    3532 days ago
  • CAROLYN_ROSE
    I've been trying to do C25K but it's really hard and I'm just not sure if I'm a runner or if it's all mental. It's probably mental but I just can't seem to run for longer than 3 minutes! Ugh. Let me know how it goes!!

    You are doing great weight loss wise and I know how much it sucks to feel like the weight is coming off soo slowly and not see the scale go down. I'm there now and I know I just need to get chugging along and will eventually get passed this. Maybe the 220 and 230s are just where people stall in the weight loss??
    3532 days ago
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