I Fell Again BUT The Difference AND What the Scale Could NEVER Tell!!!!!
Monday, March 07, 2011
I started this journey in 2006 as a result of a trip DH and I took. He (we) were leading Youth Group for a short time while another Youth Pastor was found. So, in the interest of reviving some interest in a shrinking group, we did surveys to find out what they were interested in seeing happen with the group. One wanted to go to Acquire the Fire, 8 hours away from us. So, we got the ok and loaded up a van of teens and went across the state for the event. It was in a building (?) that I'm not even sure what it actually was but what I do remember is that there were LOTS of stairs and they were steep and we were with TEENAGERS!!!!
Now, for the out of shape fat person I was, I kept up pretty well but I also knew when I got back that I HAD to do SOMETHING!! I realized that to be effective in life that I HAD to lose the excess weight! I knew before I got home that I was going to find a support group for people losing weight! What I didn't know was what I would find when I Googled "weight loss support"!! I expected the normal.....we'll promise this and offer that and expect you to spend, spend, spend to get what we offer!! What I found was SparkPeople and all of the resources available for FREE??? Free....which I might add I was BEYOND skeptical about.....almost to the point of not signing up out of FEAR!!! Then, when I did get past the fear and figure I would just opt out when the "crap" started, I joined!!YAY! I didn't initially join in any of the community. Again, out of fear! And I NEEDED that support....that was what I had searched for to begin with!! Well, I'm not here to get into the I didn't follow through.....I gained back most of the weight......I blah, blah, blah.
I'm telling this today because I realized something this past week. I realized that the 64+ pound loss I've had so far is SMALL compared with everything I've GAINED since then.
Before May 16, 2006, my family would have been SITTING in front of the tv every evening EATING chips, ice cream, cookies, drinking nothing but soda, etc. now, in 2011, we go for a run (C25K as of now) or we play the Wii Fit. We just can't stop with 47 or 52 minutes.......no, if we're close we have to go for that WHOLE hour!! AND we can't WAIT to go for that run or get boxing and sweating!! We LOVE it!!!! The kids are "catching on" and working out too!!!
I've mentioned some of the bad choices already. Before my Spark start, we ate from packages A LOT!! No, I mean A REAL lot!! If I opened things and put them together, it was a home cooked meal ~ HA!!! Now, I make EVERYTHING!! We hardly ever eat anything from packages and when we do, we are extremely particular about what we are putting in our bodies!!! We eat local and organic as much as possible though. I make our "sweets" with no sugar ~ NO, generally not even brown sugar or cane sugar and they tend to be delicious and reasonable in calories!!YUM!!
Before, I would suffer with so many things that I couldn't live my life!! Already mentioned in previous blogs and on my Main page....not getting space or energy here!!!! NO MORE! I'm HEALTHY!!
MY LIFE IS ENTIRELY DIFFERENT!!!!
What really made me think of all of this is the fact that I fell again Saturday at the benefit dinner we attended for Kyle. We started for one door and it had a sign to use the other door. This first door was up on big step and as I kept walking to go past it and step back down to the sidewalk, it was a SOLID SHEET of ice. I went down HARD!! I very nearly came off of that step and onto the sidewalk with my FACE!! I was able to catch and stop myself and jump right back up and keep going though and THAT my friends, is because while I'm still considered an obese person, I'm a dang FIT one!!! I walk STRONG, I walk FAST, and I walk PROUD!!! I'm ACTIVE, in general, because I WANT to be and did I mention that I'm STRONG?? I used to fall more often....I didn't used to be able to catch myself or get back up hardly at all, much less without being hurt and needing help!!! I said, and DH agreed, that if I hadn't been running and boxing and doing some amount of strength work, if I wasn't in the shape I'm in (WHAT???? ME???) that I would probably have hit my head and would likely have ended up at the hospital being treated (or worse)!! I ended up with a minor scrape and bruise on my knee!!
And while I did put it last, I am down 64.4 pounds and counting.
While I've been losing EXTREMELY SLOWLY, I am getting more fit by the day!! I feel it and others see it!! I can't explain the scale not moving but who CARES!! I'm to the point of having changed my life and my body and now I'm just going to let it happen!! I'll track, I'll work out and drink my water but it'll happen. Eventually, the scale will have to comply because it won't have a CHOICE!!!
AND, finally, I just need to say that this WOULD NOT have happened without SparkPeople and all of you fellow Sparkers!!! I didn't learn good habits at home and I couldn't see it on my own!! You all motivate and inspire me to do things that challenge me ~ to go just a little bit further!! My life COMPLETELY changed FOR THE BETTER, May 16, 2006 and I may not have made it to goal yet physically but I've made it to SO MANY goals that I've overlooked. Don't overlook all of the good that HAS come from this journey....even if your goal is still a good deal off!! We'll get there AND be able to maintain it BECAUSE of what we've struggled with and learned from it all and we'll enjoy life while we're doing it ~ TOGETHER!!