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Monday, March 07, 2011

I just read over my last blog here...can't believe I was exercising on Feb. 28th....even though I know that what I was doing then was pretty simple basic stuff, it seems impossible to me now. My pain levels - especially in my spine have skyrocketed and I've spent the past week in bed...only able to get up for about 10 minute increments before having to give in and get horizontal once more.

The good news is that, just today, for the very first time, I did a flight of stairs (had to check if our basement was flooding ) using the normal one foot per stair gait rather than going step by step. I was amazed at how good my hip was feeling when I did that. Actually IT had been hurting quite a lot in the beginning/middle of last week...Maybe the rest has done it good...I was working it pretty hard.

I'm sad to realize that my days of attending church are very likely over as the service has been becoming more and more of a torturous experience and I'm getting very little out of it because I am so distracted by pain and so eager to get home and lie down ...that I can't really pay attention to what is happening around me. Church was always the high p0int of my week and it is heartbreaking to realize that, except for maybe some special occasions, it will no longer be feasible for me. Unless of course, a miracle healing or cure takes place, which is never out of the realm of possibility.

So I've been lying here...online...listening to music and reading my Kindle. I'm having a hard time writing my blogs simply due to lack of ideas for material...when your life consists of four walls, it's a bit harder to come up with things to talk about (as VXWALL can attest to having talked to my silence today for a while on the phone....Lol...pregnant pauses which were stillbirthed abounded! lol.)

I decided today to get more active in the Chair Exercise Team....maybe I will get more motivated to take on a hurting body and force it to move. Right now, making it into the bathroom and cooking some oatmeal for dinner is as much of a challenge as I'm willing to take on.
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  • ABERLAINE
    As your title says, Baby Steps. Don't compare your new self to your old self. Many of us with fibromyalgia do that and just get frustrated. You may never go back to your old self, so accept who you are right now and do what you can.

    Pacing and baby steps will give you the courage to move forward.

    Gentle hugs,
    Nancy
    3612 days ago
  • CONTENTCHRIS
    Your doing Awesome.

    I would check with some of the bigger churches in your area that you like and have them put you on their dvd list. This ministry has been available in most churches I have attended (the larger ones almost always). they simply record the choir and sermon and mail it to you or drop it by. Not the same as the real thing but still nice.

    I am still praying for your pain to get to a more manageable level. God bless you , Chris
    3613 days ago
  • JHADZHIA
    So sorry you are suffering so much :(( The other ladies gave good suggestions, maybe the church could come to you? I also have a Spark friend, who, when she was unable to attend church in person, went to one online. Maybe that is an option for you??
    I am glad your hip is okay. So now you know you may just have to let it fully heal before taking any chances with it..
    Be careful with yourself..
    My thoughts are with you,,
    Hugs,
    Linda
    3613 days ago
  • WATERMELLEN
    So sorry about the pain: it's terribly difficult to bear, almost impossible to think of anything else. I do hope that with your rest and careful exercise, the pain will lessen for you.
    3613 days ago
  • LUNADRAGON
    I am sorry to hear of your extreme pain. I understand. It has gotten where I just attend worship, and forgo Bible study. Perhaps the ladies would be interested in a home Bible study with you another day during the week?
    A few of our ladies just came in today and blessed me with a house cleaning pre-surgery.
    Hugs, and prayers, my friend.
    Deborah
    3613 days ago
  • BELLAMEMAW
    Can your church come to you? I'm sure they have a 'house bound' ministry. I bet it would be a welcome visit. Wish I could come visit you; we could compare scars and war stories! :-) I wish you all the best. Hang in there. You really are an inspiration :-) Hugs and kisses, Pat emoticon emoticon
    3613 days ago
  • no profile photo LADYLVSBIRDS
    I diffently know what you're going through THANK GOD my Kingdom Hall has a Telephone tie in where I can listen in at home(Speaker phone)don't know what I'd done w/o it after my back surgery(Fusion)it kept me so spiritually built up, Hang In There PRAY God can hear you from anyplace not just church Rely on him things will get BETTER! Take Care/Cindy(ladylvsbirds)
    3613 days ago
  • VXWALL1942
    So sorry the pain continues. Praying that you may experience a healing miracle or at least that the pain abates a bit so you can do more than deal with body functions and cook oatmeal. Now that is a bland existence - and diet. Good to see you on the chat thread and getting out a bit of a blog. Hope your evening is less painful than the day and that you can actually get some quality sleep tonight.

    hugs - vicki
    3613 days ago
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