Monday, March 07, 2011
I just read over my last blog here...can't believe I was exercising on Feb. 28th....even though I know that what I was doing then was pretty simple basic stuff, it seems impossible to me now. My pain levels - especially in my spine have skyrocketed and I've spent the past week in bed...only able to get up for about 10 minute increments before having to give in and get horizontal once more.
The good news is that, just today, for the very first time, I did a flight of stairs (had to check if our basement was flooding ) using the normal one foot per stair gait rather than going step by step. I was amazed at how good my hip was feeling when I did that. Actually IT had been hurting quite a lot in the beginning/middle of last week...Maybe the rest has done it good...I was working it pretty hard.
I'm sad to realize that my days of attending church are very likely over as the service has been becoming more and more of a torturous experience and I'm getting very little out of it because I am so distracted by pain and so eager to get home and lie down ...that I can't really pay attention to what is happening around me. Church was always the high p0int of my week and it is heartbreaking to realize that, except for maybe some special occasions, it will no longer be feasible for me. Unless of course, a miracle healing or cure takes place, which is never out of the realm of possibility.
So I've been lying here...online...listening to music and reading my Kindle. I'm having a hard time writing my blogs simply due to lack of ideas for material...when your life consists of four walls, it's a bit harder to come up with things to talk about (as VXWALL can attest to having talked to my silence today for a while on the phone....Lol...pregnant pauses which were stillbirthed abounded! lol.)
I decided today to get more active in the Chair Exercise Team....maybe I will get more motivated to take on a hurting body and force it to move. Right now, making it into the bathroom and cooking some oatmeal for dinner is as much of a challenge as I'm willing to take on.