Getting Over All or Nothing...

This blog is basically me just working through my own thoughts. I don't know why I am so innately inclined towards "all or nothing". It has been a sharp and painful thorn in my side for too long on this journey. I finally feel like the thorn has been excised and the wound left behind is healing. Rational thinking will ensure my success long term, all or nothing will likely end me up with...well...nothing in terms of lasting progress. I had 3 miles sceduled for my HM training today. I did not get those 3 miles in. I still have that nagging..."go get on the treadmill NOW" voice yapping at me, but I am ignoring it. My goal is to complete my 2nd HM. My goal does not include pushing to the point of injury and not being able to even participate in the HM. I really listened to my body today, my knee is just tender and slightly unstable after my first real longer distance on Sunday. I dutifully took my rest day yesterday...which still irks me and makes me jittery,lol...but I know it is necessary. Today...the knee was actually slightly wonkier, so I made the executive decision to nix the 3 miles and opted for a challenging circuit training workout followed by my favorite yoga routine. The circuit does a lot of moves that help strengthen my knees and I made it through ok and after yoga am feeling good. I know it was the absolute right and best decision...but that goofy voice still wants to hint at the fact that I am not only a failure for missing the miles, but will stand to fail altogether because I did not follow the plan "perfectly". Seeking perfection has gotten me a whole lot of nothing but being afraid to even try in this life, that just isn't working so great for me anymore, never has...I was just content to settle then, but no more. I'm ready to leave all that behind....ready to seek out and embrace fabulous imperfection...and to give myself permission to know that a life minus the "all or nothing" attitude...is really something! Along this journey...or any path we choose to take