My run was such a struggle for me today. As a routine, I have to spend time each morning playing my mind game. The one where my mind tells me to just skip my workout...and where I say NO...I'm going to do that workout no matter what! I actually do a great job at winning this mind game and always feel better once I get into my workout.
Today...I was fighting the mind game the entire time. It was like in the cartoons when you have the good angel in white on one shoulder telling you that you're making the right decisions and doing great! And on the other shoulder you have the bad angel in black telling you that you're wasting your time, what are you working so hard for, just stop.
Why was I having such a hard time today? As I was working my way through my mind game and pushing myself to keep running, I gave this some serious thought and I came up with the conclusion that perhaps we're given these days to remind us how far we've come!
I still consider myself a beginner runner. I started running on the treadmill in September, but only for a minute at a time. I kept working on increasing those distances until I was up to 5 minutes, then 7 minutes, then 15 minutes...I kept working at it until I was up to 3 nonstop miles. At that point I took my run to the trail. That didn't start out so well as it was new to me, out of my comfort zone, and I could feel it much differently in my muscles. I kept working at it though and eventually I fell in love with running on the trail and was going 3.6 miles nonstop. I loved it so much that I'd be out there rain or shine and in all temperatures. Now I'm up to over 4 nonstop miles and absolutely love the challenge and accomplishment that I get from it every time!
What's important to point out is that I've never enjoyed running...in fact, I could safely say that I hated it. At one point my husband wanted a treadmill and I told him I'd never get on the thing. My first lesson learned here was that I should never say never because you don't know if you don't give it a try. One day I just suddenly had a curiosity for it and got on that treadmill. I now remind myself of this whenever I tell myself that I can't or don't want to do something.
So all of this is going through my mind today while I'm running. I really wanted to stop at a half mile, but I kept working the mind game and thinking about how far I've come...and I kept running. Before I knew it, I had finished my 4 miles!!!
Some things I learned today...
Quitting is easy, and so was gaining weight.
Never count myself out before I've tried something, because I'm capable of anything I set my mind to!
I'm in this for life and I can absolutely finish what I've started!
Also...by the end of my 4 miles, I had to tell myself..."Look how far you've come, baby"!
I think todays struggles gave me the opportunity to really think about that! I'm very proud of how far I've come and I know there's no limit to what I'm capable of!!!
We all get days were our workouts are more of a struggle than others. I hope my thoughts today help you get through your struggles with an appreciation for how far you've come! What have you been able to do that you didn't think you could? What progress and successes are you proud of?