Thursday, March 17, 2011
Wow. What a month. Actually what a couple of months.
We are still under a state of emergency. Still boiling water. Back to school.
Law school is being held in a tent (been through rain, heat and wind - no aftershocks yet though!!) and no flushing toilets on campus.
Today has been made a public holiday in NZ to remember those killed in the Feb 22 earthquake. There is a memorial service being held at noon in Hagley Park (a huge central park - safe(ish) from aftershocks). Many people are going - my whole family included. I have been torn all week about it. I just simply feel an overwhelming anxiety about it. I don't want to go. This makes me feel bad. I refuse to feel guilty, however. I know I would probably feel better surrounded by people who all have the same or similar emotions but I am sitting here writing this with tears streaming down my face. I don't want to be that person in the crowd.
I will remain at home and remember that day and those who lost their lives or loved ones and mourn the loss of my hometown and our beautiful city my own way - a new peaceful way to grieve which I have found within myself over the last year.
Maybe next year.
Kia Kaha Christchurch.