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Picture Day Tomorrow!

Friday, March 18, 2011

I am so excited! And a little nervous! I am having some pictures taken tomorrow. Full body pictures in a sports bra and yoga pants! I have never had a professional photographer take pictures of me. I spent years hiding from the camera. During my 100 lbs weight loss, I would allow my husband to take a picture of me once a month in my workout clothes. I allowed this 'intrusion' because I felt skinnier each month. And I was shrinking on a regular basis. I didn't allow any pictures that exposed my tummy until January 2010 when I started eating clean and had already lost 70 lbs. So, now that I have lost 107 lbs. I don't mind showing my tummy as much. However, having been so heavy for most of my adult life (23 yrs) and having struggle with bulmia since the age of 14, I have some saggy skin and stretch marks that aren't going anywhere. I have been amazed that my body has healed as beautifully as it has and most of the damage is from the belly button to the pubic bone, not an area I usually have exposed anyway. But there is extra skin that needs to tighten up on my back and my arms and I have not been able to develop muscle fast enough to fill in those areas as of yet.

I want these pictures to celebrate my weightloss, but I also want to inspire and encourage other women who have 100+ pounds to lose. Clean eating has healed my body from the inside out. I feel amazing. Considering . . . I look better than I thought I ever could. I just want to get that word (considering) out of my vocabulary. It sounds like doubt. It sounds like weakness. And I am not ashamed of my body. I am confident in who I am. And I do believe that even my flaws and less than perfect physique are the very best me I can be NOW!
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  • BURKEBRIZ
    Totally agree! Having the outside catch up with all the work vs. all the damage takes a long time!
    3468 days ago
  • LEAH57
    Looking forward to seeing your pictures - you're an inspiratin to me!
    3469 days ago
  • YINYANGSJM
    I'm looking forward to seeing your new pics! I am always impressed with the changes in your body in your bikini pics. You should be the poster woman for clean eating...it definitely looks good on you :)
    3470 days ago
  • TEMPEST272002
    I can't wait to see how the photos turn out. As a photographer, I've used the camera to hide behind... but I'm planning on having a pro-photo shoot done for my 42nd bday (Oct). It's a great way to celebrate how far you've come. You've been such an inspiration to me and to so many others. You are beautiful inside & out.
    3470 days ago
  • PINKNFITCARLA
    I can't wait to see the pics. Your progress has really inspired me and many others! Enjoy your time!!
    3471 days ago
  • NAVYMOM133
    Enjoy every second! Be sassy! Have fun! emoticon
    3471 days ago
  • BEKAH_IS_BUFF
    You are inspiring more women than you even know. Be proud going into that photo shoot tomorrow. There are masses of women standing and cheering you on!
    3471 days ago
  • no profile photo CD5571592
    you should enjoy it and be so proud of yourself!!!! looking forward to seeing your photos.
    3471 days ago
  • SKINNYINMYHEAD
    with your attitude i know you'll enjoy the experience... because you ARE strong.. you ARE beautiful.. you ARE my inspiration!
    Annie
    3471 days ago
  • NEWJENN10
    Good luck! I used to think I ate pretty clean but have learned otherwise. I've been eating clean all week and do feel better, less cravings and more energy. I look forward to losing the weight for good too.
    3471 days ago
  • LAURIETAIT
    I can't wait to see these pics. I know they will be amazing. You will literally become the Sparkpeople poster child for hard work and good nutrition!
    3471 days ago
  • LASHERTHECAT
    I hope you will show the photos to us!! I'm very excited for you! emoticon
    3471 days ago
  • GRANDMABEAST63
    Your photo shoot will be awesome ! I can't wait to see the results, have fun.
    3471 days ago
  • APMAC_D
    YAY I am so excited for you- this will be awesome!! You are definitely going to inspire a lot of people :)
    3471 days ago
  • TWALKER0475
    I can't wait to see the pics, I know you're going to look FABU! You already do in the pics you take of yourself...so just imagine what a professional photographer is gonna do with you!
    3471 days ago
  • KARVY09
    You will look beautiful as always!
    3471 days ago
  • BUGGYS
    You are amazing and should be so proud of your body and who you are!!! I have a friend who is 64 and has been a fitness fanatic most of her life...yes, she has an unbelievable body for someone her age but you know, she has sagging skin also...I think it comes with the natural downward gravity thing that comes with age...it really doesn't matter what you look like as long as you feel good and are doing the best you can to maintain a healthy body! You go girl!!! emoticon emoticon
    3471 days ago
  • KAMAPERRY
    You are totally incredible. I can't wait to see the pictures!
    3471 days ago
  • SWELL10
    I have followed your progress and been inspired by you. You're pre weightloss shape was similar to mine, so you show me where I might be able to end up. I look at your arms and am amazed how tight and shapely they are. Mine are developing muscle but still have quite a "batwing" hanging down. Same with your ab area. I hope I can look as good as you someday. Thanks for the inspiration and have a great time tomorrow!
    3471 days ago
  • no profile photo CD9697485
    Love that last paragraph, especially -- great attitude!

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    3471 days ago
  • no profile photo CD9697485
    Love that last paragraph, especially -- great attitude!

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    3471 days ago
  • MIZCATHI
    I love your confidence and belief in yourself. It's inspiring and motivating.

    I have lost 100 lbs, and have 60 to go. I am almost 57 now and I am beginning to see my body/shape returning. I try to not get upset by the sagging skin on my thighs, the long wings on my underarms (despite the weight loss I cannot get the measurements on my arms to get smaller because of this), and the bag of skin at my tummy. I had 2 C-sections and gained all my weight in my 20's with both pregnancies. I am determined to love my body despite the battle scars.

    I know 60 lbs of fat is a lot, and I'm hoping that my body will continue to improve to the degree that it already has. My biceps and triceps are pronounced, but the wing just hangs there! My legs are getting so much stronger, oh but the skin is just deflating. I am losing at a rate of 1-2 lbs a week and this is fine by me for the sake of being kind to my skin. I don't know if I'll be able to afford some nips and tucks, but I may have to!

    I'd be so interested in hearing your take on this.


    3471 days ago
  • no profile photo CD2712264
    YOU are such an inspiration!! Have fun on you photo shoot tomorrow, I know you will do great and look GREAT!! and the pix will reflect it!! emoticon emoticon
    3471 days ago
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