Picture Day Tomorrow!
Friday, March 18, 2011
I am so excited! And a little nervous! I am having some pictures taken tomorrow. Full body pictures in a sports bra and yoga pants! I have never had a professional photographer take pictures of me. I spent years hiding from the camera. During my 100 lbs weight loss, I would allow my husband to take a picture of me once a month in my workout clothes. I allowed this 'intrusion' because I felt skinnier each month. And I was shrinking on a regular basis. I didn't allow any pictures that exposed my tummy until January 2010 when I started eating clean and had already lost 70 lbs. So, now that I have lost 107 lbs. I don't mind showing my tummy as much. However, having been so heavy for most of my adult life (23 yrs) and having struggle with bulmia since the age of 14, I have some saggy skin and stretch marks that aren't going anywhere. I have been amazed that my body has healed as beautifully as it has and most of the damage is from the belly button to the pubic bone, not an area I usually have exposed anyway. But there is extra skin that needs to tighten up on my back and my arms and I have not been able to develop muscle fast enough to fill in those areas as of yet.
I want these pictures to celebrate my weightloss, but I also want to inspire and encourage other women who have 100+ pounds to lose. Clean eating has healed my body from the inside out. I feel amazing. Considering . . . I look better than I thought I ever could. I just want to get that word (considering) out of my vocabulary. It sounds like doubt. It sounds like weakness. And I am not ashamed of my body. I am confident in who I am. And I do believe that even my flaws and less than perfect physique are the very best me I can be NOW!