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Strip to the Goal

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

I am the kind of person who is always setting goals and I have big dreams! However, I am not a deadline person. I don't like to put limits and expectations to deliver XYZ by this date, etc. Unless it is a training goal. I will train to be faster and set a specific speed goal that I want to hit by a certain event and I will train towards that goal and have usually been able to exceed my expectations on those type of things. But I don't give weight loss goals a deadline. Like it would not be a common thing for me to say I want to lose 10 lbs. by the end of the month. I might say I would like for my jeans to fit more comfortably by the end of the month. Or I would like to be in the next smaller size jeans by summer.

So, it came to a shock to me when I went to change my weight on my ticker the other day and there was a stated goal to weigh 157 by March 31, 2011. Why that date? I know why that weight because that brings me to a nice round 110 lbs. lost. By why that date? I still can't figure that out. Even now. Hmmmmmm. Interesting. My son is graduation from college on May 21 and getting married on the 22. Why didn't I pick a date closer to those dates? And when did I select that date? I truly don't remember it at all.

At any rate. Today is the 30th and I weighed in at 157.6 this morning. I never had a dream of being in the 150's ever. Which makes that date and weight even more puzzling to me. This all feels a little surreal to me. When I see my weight and the size tag in the back of my pants I can't believe this is mine! I get this, it's my reward and I am enjoying it fully. This body can do things my larger body could not. Oh, and even though I started this journey to get my blood pressure down and to lighten the load on my knees . . . the motivation to continue comes from all the benefits I receive from being healthy, strong, fit and yes that my husband thinks I'm sexier than when he first met me.

I could not have lost weight for someone else, not even for my husband. At the time when I started this journey my marriage was on shaky ground and I wanted to run away. Then I realized that what I wanted to run away from was not a person, it was the pain in my heart and that no matter where I went or who I was with, that pain would be with me and would pollute any relationship I was in, in the future. I didn't want to chance that the best thing in my life might be standing right in front of me, but that my pain was preventing me from receiving it. So, I decided to open myself up to the possibility that my husband was strong enough to catch me if or when I would fall.

Best gamble I have ever made. Guess what I found out? I am strong enough to get back up when I fall without blaming others that I fell and then continue forward along side of my husband. I don't need him to pull me up or push me forward, we are a team. With confidence and full assurance I truly feel each day that my husband loves, adores, admires, appreciates, encourages and supports my every hope and dream. He and I are totally different personalities and move in totally different directions at totally different paces. He doesn't workout with me, but he understands I need my time in the gym. He does run with me when he is home and he does eat most of the foods I eat. Mostly he just sees how happy and healthy I feel and he gives me space to grow and bloom.

Sorry, I'm not so sure how I got stuck talking about my relationship with my husband other than right now he is traveling and I miss him. Suffice it to say that although I did not lose weight FOR my husband, getting healthy, fit and leaner truly has saved my marriage and THAT is a reward worth working for.

Let's talk about the other passion in my life . . . food!

Breakfast: 10 grain hot cereal with strawberries, bananas and pecans!

Super delicious. I add cinnamon to almost everything these days. Did you know that cinnamon helps to balance out the glycemic index of foods? Try it on your oatmeal and your sweet potatoes! Delicious!

Morning snack was half of a red bell pepper and humus. Not usually very filling for me, but I am not hungry this week like I was last week.

Lunch was out of the world delicious! It was a Shrimp and Watermelon salad on spinach with red onions and a tangy balsamic vinegar and Dijon mustard dressing. Mmmmmm!

Afternoon snack was a pear and a protein shake.

Dinner was super filling! Salmon fillet, sweet potato wedges with garlic pepper/chili powder/cinnamon and sauteed brussel sprouts.

I gave myself the challenge to drink 100 oz of water a day. I filled my 16 oz. water bottle, made a little sticky note with multiples of 16 on it and would mark off as I finished off the bottle. Luckily I have a water cooler on one side of my office and a bathroom on the other! By the end of the day my pee was so clear I was merely filtering water for Culligan!

I'm on the water challenge again today! Let's go!
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  • DEBBIE1414
    Support helps so much when it comes to getting and staying in shape!!Your hubby sounds awesome!! I love my hubby too! He's my best friend...we have a lot in common, but not everything. We are not twins. Opposites do attract:)

    Your eating plan is great and I love the pics. I will have to try some of them!

    I used to really not like water at all. Now, I really can't get enough of it. I love it!! It really does help with weight loss!

    Keep up the good work!
    3465 days ago
    Just stopped by to get some star quality sprinkles! You're emoticon
    3465 days ago
    I love that your husband is all of those things for you! It's good to have that other rock next to you! It's fantastic that losing the weight, changing your ways of thinking and being healthy were all positives for you!!! You are the bomb and that's what I love about you!

    The foods look so scrumptilicious! Gotta get that discipline back from you sister! My weeks have been falling apart around me and I want to get back up. I need your karma and your energy!
    3465 days ago
    I missed this yesterday, but congrats on making a goal, even though you weren't aware of it!
    3465 days ago
  • NEWME0519
    Awesome blog about the love that you and DH share!
    3466 days ago
    You're amazing. Your relationship with your DH sound likes mine...we are totally different people but support and love each other no matter what. YOu are so strong!
    3466 days ago
  • no profile photo CD9374878
    Thanks for being so open.
    3466 days ago
    Love this blog! As usual..lol,

    I love the journey of self-discovery
    I love the falling in love with your husband again
    I love the falling in love with yourself
    I love the wonder and amazement at your accomplishment
    I love the celebration of living
    I love the girlie reaction to the pant size (so human and pure) LOL
    I love the food joys

    Ok - so now - after I finish my next HM at the end of April - I am stripping with you! I want 140's and I think you have inspired me to get there!

    You are glorious!

    3466 days ago
    For weight loss, you can record a goal on SparkPeople by telling it your target weight and it will tell you how long it will take to lose that when losing X lbs per week. So maybe you recorded that you wanted to lose 2 lbs per week until you reached 157 and that just happened to be 3/31/11.

    Here's a little tip I use to track my water that I learned from a friend. You need to drink 6.25 water bottles-full o' water to reach your 100 oz per day. Put 7 rubber bands around your bottle. Each time you fill it up, take a rubber band off the bottle and put it on your wrist. When you take off the seventh one and drink a quarter of that, you know you're done for the day. Then you can put the rubber bands back on the bottle and have it ready for the next day.
    3466 days ago
    Thanks!! I need to get cracking on my water! Shrimp and watermelon? Interesting!
    3466 days ago
    I think JENN26POINT2 is right. Spark decides your date based on the amount you want to lose and how fast you want to lose it. it. It is amazing to me even a small weight loss can change our view of ourselves and of the world. The more we lose the more wonders are revealed to us. You are the poster child for taking a chance and having it pay off in spades. I love being able to share in your triumphs and your amazing personal growth through your blogs. Thanks for sharing.
    PS the food's good too.
    3466 days ago
    Thanks for the water reminder!
    3466 days ago
    Thank you for telling the story of your relationship with your husband. I think that's very important. When we are miserable, sometimes we put that all over the other relationships in our life. We lose site of the issues and find it easier to see the problems elsewhere rather than the ones within us.
    Food looks awesome as always!!
    3466 days ago
    So much of what you said in this blog could have been written by me. Thank you.
    3466 days ago
    I can relate to this in a lot of ways ...
    3466 days ago
    Can I just say that when it comes to setting goals, you and I are the same person? And when you enter a weight goal, Sparkpeople will automatically determine a date that you *should* reach this goal by based on how quickly you wish to lose. I don't think you have to do anything except enter your weight goal. I also do not set a time for when i want to reach a certain weight goal... but then again, I no longer HAVE a weight goal. I have a goal to "feel better about myself and my appearance and my physical capabilities".

    Speaking of feeling better about yourself... as I was reading the first chapter of Recharged (btw, on page 19 there is a testimonial written by a girl I went to high school with and used to work with - she looks AMAZINGLY beautiful today!) and it mentioned something about the foods we eat affecting our sex drive. Have you noticed an increase in your libido? That is what causes our marriage to 'suffer' - my lack of desire for sex or sexual contact of ANY kind. You can message me privately to answer that if you wish.

    Thanks again for being my inspiration! LOVE your work!
    3466 days ago
  • TWALKER0475
    Thanks for this blog. You have been so successful and will continue to be successful because you built your house on a strong foundation...you focused on healing yourself emotionally, not just changing the outside. I have been realizing lately that I neglected to do the emotional healing work along the way as I lost weight and became fitter. I never really addressed what was at the core of my struggles with food...a lack of fundamental self-worth. Any improvements in my self-esteem were a result of reaching a new, lower weight or tackling a new race distance or setting a PR. The trouble with this approach is...what happens when you fail to set a new PR? Or you gain 5 lbs? Or there are only so many hours in the day to train and what good is a life when that is your only interest? Suddenly, your self-esteem is in the toilet again, that is what happens. I feel a blog of my own coming on...God has been giving me so many signs lately that I never really fixed me, and it is time to do the hard work I have avoided.

    Thanks for always being a beacon in the dark! emoticon
    3466 days ago
    I am so happy you shared about your marriage. It is a beautiful revelation about self healing and self worth. God bless you as you continue on your journey. You are an inspiration!
    3466 days ago
    GREAT JOB!!!

    By the way, I love salmon and brussel's sprouts!

    3466 days ago
    You are a miracle... You took the risk...You are working hard... You knew you could do it, and now you are reaping the benefits... A happy healthier you, and a happier and healthier marriage! emoticon
    3466 days ago
    You are doing awesome girl! I am loving the food blogs :-)
    3466 days ago
  • KARVY09
    Carolyn! Congrats on making your goal and for being in the 150s. Incredible!

    Your food makes my mouth water. I never would have thought of watermelon and shrimp, but YUM. And there you go.
    3466 days ago
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